I don't own Twilight nor do I own the lyrics it my story. Any resemblance between my characterization and plot is not intentional. Originally I planned this on being a one-shot, but my muses are spinning so I don't know Tell me what you guys think? Well Enjoy!

A chill ran through my body. Slowly caressing me as the wind whipped gently across my arms. My mind dazed as I stumbled up the stair to my room. My body numb to the pain that coursed through my body.

Through my soul.

I sat at my desk and time had no meaning. The pull on my heart slowly began to fade as I pulled out and old note book and began to write.

I feel you, washing over me
I touch you, like broken glass under my feet
Carefully, taking hold of my heart
Slowly, tearing it....tearing it apart…tearing it apart

Memories flashed.

Every Happy moment. Every joy, and every feeling of love I felt crashed down upon my heart. I couldn't help but love him. I couldn't help but remember his smile. His bronze hair. And those lustrous emerald green eyes. All the walks we took. Every time he snuck into my room at night. Every time he played the piano for me. No, I knew…No matter what happened, I knew I'd always love him. I'll always have these memories of everything that was good. He made my miserable life in forks worth while.

Tears fell.

I wanted to scream out! I wanted people to hear my pain! i wanted to Feel the agony that ripped through my body!

WITH THESE TEARS I CRY
LORD KNOWS I TRIED
NOW HOW CAN I LET GO
WHEN YOU DWELL IN THE SHADOWS OF MY HEART

I remembered everything I had been through. All the loss and pain I went through because of the relation ship I had strive to keep with him. I remember how I struggled with the loss of my friends, my freedom, and my choices. I remember all the love an hope I put forth, and how little I was given back. I had always thought that maybe he was a little secretive because of his past. I had always hoped...maybe…just maybe he would open up to me. But I knew it would never happen.

Maybe you can't remember, something you'd never forget
Something you needed to know, is something I'll always regret
Now I stand here broken, the love I wanted you never held to
No! No…you brought me down to my knees
And I went through hell for you...through hell for you

But I will move on.

I could feel my resolve strengthen as I continued to write. I could feel my confidence wane as the tears continued to fall. I know this will be hard. I know it's not something that I'll get over in one night. I know I'll never look at life the same. I know that eventually I'm going to have to face my fears and stop running.

WITH THESE TEARS I CRY
LORD KNOWS I TRIED
NOW HOW CAN I LET GO
WHEN YOU DWELL IN THE SHADOWS OF MY HEART...NO NO NO...

I would move on. I would get over this. I would be strong and I would not let him control my life. I would be strong and I would pull through. I will get through life, and I'll look back ion this experience and I know though I'll be sad…I'll smile, because this will help me be a better person. A person I'll always want to be remembered.

Dwell in the shadows of my heart, slowly tearing me apart

I would be sad, I would cry, and I would smile through it all.. Even if I felt like my body was being torn apart.

I will be strong.

I will move on…

And I will face my fears on day.

Now how can I let go...when you dwell in the shadows of my heart

But today…No today was definitely not that day.