You used to look at me with loving eyes, playful slaps on my shoulder, the way you held me made me feel protected, safe. However, those days are long gone.
What did father tell you?
I am to bring destruction. Everywhere. Any time. And I bet you believed him... after all your his son and I am not. You're the one he loves. You're the one that counts.
But who am I then?
I'm a monster, isn't that so? A recluse, a forgotten child that lay on frozen steps. The one you tell your kids to fear. But most of all, I'm a shameless, disgusting brat. I lay here, hand over groin because everytime I think of you and your eyes I can't help myself. I'm stroking to the beat of my alarmed heart. After all this time I finally saw you again and all the urges I tried to run away from caught up with me.
"Thor.." I speed up my hand, the wet sounds of flesh on flesh only serve to ignite a fire of me. Is this embarassment? Whatever it is it makes me, the deviant, feel even better.
"Thor!" My rhytm has grown uneven and I can almost feel your eyes on me. Not judging, only surprised. To see your own brother in such a state of disgrace. Ahh… so good and so close. I bet you would be speechless yet you wouldn"t leave. You'd stay snd watch me till I… till-
"THOR!"