Title: Everything I Want

Author: Owule

Disclaimer: Don't own anything, duh-

Warning: Lots and LOTS of ANGST!!!!!

Spoiler: eventual 1x2?

Pairing: 2xH, 1 2, 1 R, 5xS, 3x4

Author's Note: Okay, everyone, this is your last yummy piece of Fan fluff before my spring break and yes I will be updating 'A Story'. I'll have at least one chapter when I get back, promise, and if I don't feel free to flame me to hell.

I got this idea when I read Hime D's "A Reason To Live" you can find it here I felt totally cheated and sad when I read it, just a warning.

I love ya all and yes, there will be more to this, again, promise! And please review! My Muse is dying here.

Owule: looks over to Muse

Muse: rocking back and forth in corner/ review, review, no one loves me! starts to drool / ego-gone-nothing to write…it must be…points to author ALL YOUR FAULT!!!!

Owule: Fuck! runs away review please! It's for a good cause! MY LIFE!!!!!

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"Hey, you know, Heero, you can always count on me." Duo's voice was calm and resonated his warm smile.

I enjoyed the firmness of his grip on my shoulder, it reassured me that I had at least one person holding on to me that wouldn't let go. "Yeah. I know."

Those fingers tightened through the material of my jacket then suddenly released and the cold of the shuttle terminal came crashing back. I fought against an involuntary shiver.

We stood side by side, watching the black hole of the shuttle door swing open and a voice calling for passengers to board.

It was surreal, I had always thought that if any of us left it would be Duo walking through those doors, away from us, away from me. But, instead, it was me, this time I was the one running away.

The encompassing need for physical contact built up inside me to the point that I couldn't resist it anymore. I just had to feel his body against mine one more time.

I started to turn in his direction, mouth open to ask for one thing that I never dared to before-

"Duo!"

That voice froze me in my tracks, my half raised hand twitched and fell back to my side and I turned away once again, eyes firmly locked onto that shuttle door. I remembered now. Why I was leaving.

It was then he turned away from me toward that voice and it's owner. I couldn't watch, I already felt his presence receding.

"Hey, Hilde-babe."

I couldn't help but flinch. That pure yearning in his voice made me want to cry. I settled for gripping my duffle bags handle so tight my knuckles turned white and I was sure to have a rug burn latter. But I didn't care, I was changing one pain for another. Equivalent exchange. Those old-time alchemist's would be proud. Though I don't think that this is what they had in mind when they put that rule down.

I heard clothe rustling, the picture in my head, her situated under his arm, casually but possessively draped around her tiny shoulders.

I still couldn't look at them.

The automated voice called again for passengers to board.

"Hey, Heero, you're always welcome at our place!"

My breath caught in my throat and I felt my mask slip and inch. 'Our' place.

"All passengers leaving for Earth please board at gate A195."

I walked away and did not once look back.

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Now, three years latter and I'm here again.

I stare up at the two-story house in front of me, the colonies rain system was on 'rain' at the moment. Just as it had been an hour ago when I had got here. I was soaking wet and I still hadn't gathered enough courage to walk up to the door and knock, asking for a place.

I gripped my duffle bags handle just as I had all those years ago and hoped that the previous statement of having a place to come back to was still in standing order.

I took a deep breath and took a step forward.

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Okay, that's it for this chapter.

A195 was my actual locker number at my High School. Ironic yeah?

Okay I am now officially on Spring Break but that does not give you permission to slack, so email me with those wonderful dextarious fingers that got you here in the first place.

I love ya all! –Owule

Oh ,yeah, It was my birthday 3/4/08 wish me a happy 19!