Love. It's a simple word. It has a simple meaning. But love is complicated. It can take a long time to find love, some people never find it. Love can be happy and love can be sad. Max and Fang found love, they're one of the lucky ones.
For the most part, love can make a person very happy. Look at Mr. Emotionless, he is so happy with Max. Max is so happy being with Fang. I want to be happy like that. I know I'm a very happy person but, I want the happiness love brings. When I look at ax and Fang together I become happy and sad. It's a weird feeling, being happy and sad. Before this I never felt being happy and sad together. Now I'm happy for Max and Fang but sad for myself.
I'm wondering… when's my turn? When's my turn to happy like Max? To feel safe with the person you love. I want it. But how do I find it? I don't like the feeling I get when thinking about love and knowing that I don't have it. My main feeling is loneliness. I feel so alone when thinking about love.
Now at age 14, the age Max and Fang were when they got together, I start wondering. Never before did I think anything about love except that I was glad Max and Fang found it. I turned over on my bed and sighed, thinking how much I would love to be loved and have love. Not just family love, the other love. Love, please find me soon. Those were my last thoughts before I feel asleep.