Leavin's hard... trust me, it's really bad
It'll shake ya, damn near break ya, it always has
you don't go until you're prayin' to break even
until stayin's worse than leavin'
Everyone ask me how could I be so heartless? He was crushed when I left him, only thing they don't know is that it's been hurting me to stay, we aren't meant for each others and all the fights we get into, no one would ever figure we do any more just by looking at the surface. Here lately though we have been worse than what we were before, and I didn't think that was possible. The emotional, physical and mental toll on my body was worse before I left him.
God knows we tried everything that we could do
You can keep your pride and blame me if you need to
Even though this freedom feels a lot like treason
I know stayin's worse than leavin'
We have tried everything we could just to be able to stay together but nothing would work for us. When we first broke up I made it seem like I was devastated that he would break up with me because we had to keep some appearances he said that it was because I wasn't paying enough attention to him. Although we aren't together anymore and we aren't hurting each others, I know for me at least, it feels as if I am going against what my heart wants.
It's gotta get better, it can't get worse
Hope it's a blessing not a curse
I don't care who passes judgment on my reasons
I know stayin's worse than leavin'
We aren't together anymore so that means that I shouldn't be hurting as much anymore, and in a way I'm not. But I'm sick everyday because I cry myself to sleep even harder now because how could I let the best thing to ever happen to me go? I don't listen to what everyone else is saying, because they weren't in the relationship, we were, so they don't know what went on. They don't know how much I'm hurting right now.
*Several Months Later*
It's gotta get better, it can't get worse
Hope it's a blessing not a curse
I don't care who passes judgment on my reasons
I know stayin's worse than leavin'
I still cry every now and again when I think of him and what we were. I still get hexed because, for some reason, they think he is still hurting, at least as bad as me. They can't tell me that I was wrong, never, we did this for us. So we could be happy again, that makes it all alright, right? I still would like to know how it would feel to be with him again. To have that love that we shared but it wasn't for us, I have to remember that everyday as I head out the door.
Both our hearts let go a long time ago
Words leave scars and Lord knows they heal slow
Our love died, but somehow we are both still breathin'
I just hope someday we'll look back on this grievin'
And say stayin's worse than leavin'
Yeah, that stayin's worse than leavin'
Yeah, that stayin's worse than leavin'
We stayed an "us" for so long because we couldn't see ourselves being with anyone else. We both said things that we regret but at the same time that doesn't make them any less true; doesn't seem like it's possible to live without him. But it is. I look back on all the happy, sad, scary, crazy, emotional times we had together and although I loved those times and I loved him, it was best for us to get out when we did. When I see him in the hall and we share a smile it's the one that always says 'staying was worse than leavin' but I still love you. I, Hermione Jean Granger, am now able to say that still being with him, Draco Lucius Malfoy, would be a mistake because now is much better than then.
I own nothing! The song "stayin's worse than leavin'" is by Sunny Sweeney and basically everything else is by JKR! Well I own the "plot" I guess.
~unrequriedloveby2