Lost Words
If only things where easier to say, if only she had the confidence, if only he didn't push her away, with Jo's life in danger, is it all too late?
(Set somewhere in the middle of season 9)
Okay well this is my first CSI NY fanfic, I loooove Mac and Jo and it annoys me that they never had them together on the show.. anyway
Chapter 1
Mac turns on the TV before heading in to the kitchen to pour himself another cup of coffee when he hears knocking on the door, abandoning his cup, he heads out of the kitchen
'Mac it's me, open up' he hears between the insistent knocking, unhooking the chain he swings the door open
'Christine?' he asks confused 'what is she doing here, we broke up weeks ago?'
'Mac, I need to talk to you' she says pushing her way into the apartment as Mac lets out a sigh closing the door behind her
He turns to her to see her stood in the middle of his living room, staring at him expectantly; he takes a couple steps forward walking past her to sit on the couch
'So… How are you? She asks placing her hands on her hips making no move to join him on the couch
'Im fine' he states face masked with confusion 'Christine why are you here?' he adds sighing
'You know Mac just because we broke up doesn't mean I don't care about you, and the whole "im fine" thing you have going is crap and we both know it' she says sitting down at the other end of the couch turning slightly to face him
'Have you told her yet?' she adds
'Told who what?' Mac asks knowing what she's talking about but not wanting to discuss the topic
'Jo' she exclaims throwing her hands up in frustration 'have you told Jo about your aphasia?'
'No' he grits narrowing his eyes at her 'It doesn't need to concern anyone at the lab'
'Yet' she frowns 'She cares about you you know? You shouldn't be keeping her in the dark like this'
'Christine' he warns
'No, Mac, that woman loves you, when you were in the hospital she was a mess, asking any doctor that went by if they knew about your condition, Don was beside himself not knowing what to do because she was breaking down right in front of us, she cried herself to sleep when Don finally got her to sit down, even when she finally drifted off she had Dons hand held in a vice grip, she loves you Mac and when things like this happens and you shut people out, shut the people who you care about and who care for you also something always seems to happen, something out of our control' she pauses taking a breath looking into his eyes to see if he's following her, seeing tears form in his eyes and his facial features softening she continues
'I know you love her Mac, I would try to convince myself while we were together that it was nothing, but I saw how you'd look at her…'
'Christine I'm sorry' he sighs not realising he'd been that transparent, 'surely if she had noticed it the team must have?'
She shakes her head slowly before continuing 'I could see it in her eyes when we met for coffee Mac, she's worried sick about you and it's going to slowly tear her apart'
Before having chance to respond the TV catches his attention "We are live here outside the 12th precinct…" he whips his head towards the screen
"…only 10 minutes ago it is said that recently convicted murderer Michael Winters broke free of officers restraints before somehow claiming both their guns and setting off on a rampage through the precinct, multiple casualties and fatalities have been reported including the two officers Officer Murphy and Ramirez. We know that the officers and Detectives tried their best to coax the shooter to hand over his weapon, not doing so the NYPD had no choice but to take down the shooter Michael Winters, unfortunately not before he got a shot at NYPD crime lab Detective Jo Danville, still on scene paramedics are saying that Detective Danville is in fatal condition an…"
He turns to Christine wide eyed seeing her mouth hanging slightly open in shock
'no, no no no no' he whispers feeling a sharp pain jolt through his insides. He jumps up off the couch, grabbing his keys before rushing out of the apartment
Sooo whatcha think?