Written February 2002
A Tess Songfic "Burn" by The Cure
Characters belong to Roswell, the song is The Cures. Lyrics were removed as per idiotic NEW policy. May they roast in hell.
Each night she dreams the same dream. The same nightmare. For a short time, when she dreams, she is herself. She is free of control for a moment. But then the memories come, and the nightmare is relived.
She can feel her body shaking in her slumber as her mind forces her to relive the past. Now, as it was then, she has no control over what she sees or does. She's just a witness. The replay is maddening.
Every night she sees him die again, and tries to scream loud enough to wake herself up. It is all so real. Trapped inside herself she can only watch and cry. Always wishing it was her instead of him.
The worst of the nightmare named memory, isn't the death. The betrayal of her first true friend, her first true emotion, hurts most. Her love, her heart, the one she wanted to be her everything. It, the dark thing inside her mind, knew her heart and passion, so to punish her It gave her one night of the happiness she sought… It then wiped it from existence, made it forgotten. It got something it needed as well though. The brief moment of happiness in this memory is all that keeps her sane, before the reality of what It wanted returns to her thoughts.
In the prison of her mind, she watches It change her family. Forcing her from her only true home. Forcing her to destroy another's love and family. It forces her to make another think that the joy she received from her love, to be his. Then It hurt her joy to bring about It's plan. It shattered all she had loved, destroyed what she had begun to build for herself.
The nightmare retreats from her memories and moves on to what It and It's Master have planned. She sees her joy, her sweet and innocent child become a pawn to a king. Or the king changing her son into his host. The pawn into the king. Every night she wakes up screaming the name of her love, in hope he will save her.
"Kyle!" The name is forced out of her small body as she wakes up, calling for the man she loves. Hoping for her child's father to come save them…
And every night after she screams, after the brief moment of control, It takes hold of her mind again. It, the dark thing, her father figure, her mentor, her protector. Nasedo grasps tightly onto his former charges mind, throwing her into the back of her own mind as he exerts his control.
Chiding his captive, Nasedo speaks aloud to the prisoner in his shared mind. "Hush child. You wouldn't want to wake Kivar or his heir now, would you?"
And every night, Tess screams.