Lauren Lewis was a very intelligent woman, she also had a lot of anxiety issues. She wasn't the kind of women who were spontaneous, she had a hard time making decisions and she always needed to plan in advance everything she did.
She was one of the best veterinarian in the world and a lot of clinic wanted her to work with them. She worked at the the most famous clinic of Vancouver for the past 5 years. She liked the security of her job but after receiving an offer for working at the most famous clinic of Toronto- who was also one of the most famous clinic of the world- and been trough a major crisis in her life, Lauren knew she needed a frech start.
She was lost in her thought. She thought about the decision she made a few weeks ago.
Flashback :
Lauren gathered her things quickly before Nadia came home. She really didn't want to have to suffer another afrontment with her girlfriend-and probably soon to be her ex-girlfriend.
She booked an hotel room and planned to stay there until she knew what to do with her life.
"Lauren, are you here ? " She heard Nadia's voice, of course she had to be here early. Nadia always been good to thwart her plans, and that was one the many things Lauren disliked about her.
Lauren was extremely stressed to have to face the woman she shared 10 years of her life with, the last time she saw her, she caught her with another woman in their bed.
It wasn't the first time something like that happened. In fact, it was happening frequently these last years. Nadia always sweared that it was the last time and that she loved Lauren more than everything and couldn't live without her.
Lauren always had trouble to connect with others people, she was too scared that if she lefted Nadia, she couldn't find anyone who wanted to be with her. Nadia kept telling her that she loved her and Lauren who've been lonely most of her life, desperately wanted to be loved, and so she thought that a relationship like this was still better than to be alone again.
This time though, she was done.
She spend the last week pondering her decision and after a needed phone call with her best friend she was finally sure of herself. She deserved better. "I know you have a hard time to believe it Lo but you can have better than this and most importantly, you deserve better than this." Tamsin had told her with the most loving and encouraging voice she ever heard.
"What are you doing ?" Asked Nadia with an aggressive tone once she entered the room and saw Lauren gather all of her things.
"I'm leaving." Answered Lauren determined as she was closing all of her suitcases. She only had three of them. Despite having spent ten years with the same person she didn't have a lot of things. She only took her clothes, her DVD and her books collections. But if she was accurate, everything in her house and most of Nadia's belonging were hers. Nadia always had fun buying a lot a usuless things with Lauren's money. But wathever, she just wanted to leave this house and everything that could remained her of her time with the woman who destroyed her self-love and self-confidance. She didn't want to give to Nadia another opportunity to cause more damage in her. She needed to leave as quickly as possible.
"Where are you going ? Did you met someone else ? " Asked Nadia with an abrasive tone.
This was another thing Lauren deeply disliked about Nadia. She never took others peoples feelings into consideration and only thought about herself. Her tone was always harsh everytime someone was doing something she wasn't agree with.
"This is not your business, I'm leaving you, that's all you need to know." Said Lauren, her tone was authoritative.
"Everything you do is my business". Said Nadia with aggressivity. "You're my girlfriend."
"Didn't you heard me ?" Asked Lauren forcefully. "I leave you. I'm not you're girlfriend anymore. You don't own me Nadia, You never did. I'm my own person and I make my own decision. And now, I decided that I deserve better than you."
Lauren spoke with an impartial tone. Her ability to stay neutral even in the most tense situation was one of her best qualities. Of course they were times were she loses her control-like when she caught Nadia in bed with another woman and all she can do is slap both of them and running away just after that.
Nadia was speechless, she never saw Lauren so confident and determined. She was caught off guard by this new side of the woman she though she knew. After regaining her composure she decided to do the things that worked everytime.
"Please, sweetie. We can get through this together, like we always do." She spoke with a voice that sound gentle but Lauren knew better than to trust her. She stayed silent, waiting for all the lies that she knew were coming.
Nadia softly took Lauren's hands in hers and look at her with loving eyes, but once again Lauren been trough this scene too many times to believe her. "I can be better for you, I promise my love."
She lean in to kiss Lauren but before they're lips touch each others, Lauren push Nadia away.
"I heard that too many times Nadia, I could never trust you again." She said taking her suitcases in her hands and going to the doorstep.
"Please Lauren, don't leave me." Said Nadia, her voice was throaty while she begged Lauren to stay. "I love you more than everything, I can't leave without you."
"You will have to." Said Lauren with a direct tone.
Even if Nadia made her suffer more than anyone, she didn't like seeing her in pain.-even though she played with her too many times and she didn't even know if the pain of her ex-girlfriend was real or not.
She looked at the other woman for a while before she opened the door. "To be fair Nadia I don't think you love me. And I don't think you're happy with our relationship either, because if that was the case you wouldn't act this way. If I forgiven you again, we will both fake to be happy while deep down we will be miserable. At the end you will cheat on me again and that would be the same thing over and over again."
"So, this is really the end between us ? " Said Nadia. Her voice shaking with sobs and tears rolling down her cheeks.
"Yes it is." Said Lauren, trying to hold back her own tears. "Goodbye Nadia."
Lauren was snapped back to reality by her phone ring.
"Yes ?" She answered distractedly.
"Hi ! I'm the Doctor Eliza Danvers from the Toronto central animal clinic. We spoke on the phone last week."
"Yes, I remember. It's a pleasure to talk to you again." Lauren tone was formal. She always had trouble reading social cues and simple things like making a phone call were extremely stressful for her.
"Me too, Doctor Lewis. I wanted to make sure you were still agree to start working with us ? "
"Of course, I can't wait for starting." And that couldn't be more true. It's been three weeks since she lived in that hotel room. She had stopped working one week ago. Her boss has been utterly disappointed but she respected her decision nonetheless.
"I wanted to ask you, if you don't mind. What decide you to finally accept our offer ? It's been 3 years since we try to get you to work in our clinic."
Lauren been caught off guard by this question. She really didn't want to get in details about her private life with someone she barely knew. She wouldn't even do it with someone close to her-beside Tamsin who was the only person she allowed in her personal space-for now.
"Let's just say that I needed a fresh start". She finally answered.
"Good." Said Eliza Danvers, who sounded to be satisfied by this answer.
The two women said their formal goodbye and Lauren hung-up the phone.
Lauren couldn't wait to move on to Toronto. It's the first time she took care of herself and didn't try to please anyone. It was also the first time she let someone help her. When Lauren talked to Tasmin about her new job offer, her best friend who live in Tonronto since a few years offers her to live in her appartment. Lauren was reluctant at first because she didn't want to be dependant on anyone but Tamsin convinced her. "Please Lauren, let me help you." Tamsin was a tough girl and there wasn't a lot a person who could see the soft side of her personnality beside Lauren.
"Just don't freak out when you see the outside of the building." Said Tamsin before hung-up the phone and not letting Lauren the opportunity to ask her what she meant.
"It can be that bad." Lauren thought to herself.
And she was right, it wasn't that bad. It was worse.
The place looked like an abandoned building and Lauren wondered how Tamsin could live in conditions like this.
"Whatever," Lauren thought to herself. "I just get out of a toxic relationship, I'm gonna start a new job. I'm gonna live with my best friend for a while, and most importantly I'm gonna have the needed new start I deserve. Everything is fine."
Lauren parked her car in the parking lot, she took her suitcases and headed to the building.
As she walked through the corridors, she noticed that the interior of the building wasn't as bad as the exterior and she felt relieved.
She was in front of Tamsin door, she knocked and shortly after she heard footsteps coming.
The door opened revealing a beautiful woman, her blonde hairs were lighter than Lauren's and she had dazzling blue eyes.
"Hi Lo." She said taking Lauren in a sweet hug.
"Tamsin. " Said Lauren, as she nuzzled herself even more in her friend embrace. She was so relieved to finally be in the company of someone who make her feel safe. "I'm so happy to see you."
"Me too Lo, it's been so long." She said as she make her friend come in.
"Too long." replied Lauren while putting down her suitcases.
She stared at her new environment and thought of the new life that awaited her. She smiled and were lost in her thought when Tamsin spoke.
"I bet it's not as comfortable as you old house, right ?"
"It's perfect, Tamsin. I feel happy for the first time in a while. Thank you." Lauren tone was enthusiastic and Tamsin could hear how much her friend was grateful.
"You're welcome, Lo." She said with a smile.
Tasmin makes Lauren visit her apartment. Lauren already feel at home here even if that was a temporary situation and she would have to find her own home once she felt stable enough. Tamsin assured her that she could take all the time she needed, so for now she didn't have to worry about that.
Lauren and Tamsin were having dinner while they chatted. Tamsin talked about the friends she made here, especially her neighbors, Bo and Kenzi. And with all the good things Tamsin said about them, Lauren couldn't wait to meet them. It's been so long since they been like this, both of them felt extremely happy to be in each other company.
"So, are you seeing anyone right now ? " Asked Lauren with a playful grin.
"Nothing serious." Answered Tamsin.
"So, there is someone ?" Said Lauren amused.
"I've been seeing a woman for a while. But I won't say more, because as I said it's nothing serious."
"You're so secretive about your love life tam-tam." Said Lauren, a little disappointed.
"Calm down Lo, it's not love." replied Tamsin. She really didn't like talking about this aspect of her life, even with her best friend.
"You can play the rough girl with anyone you want, but you can't fool me tam-tam."
"If you say so." Said Tamsin pressed to stop talking about this. "What about you Lo ?"
"Well, I just broke up one month ago with the woman I spent 10 years with. I don't think I'll be ready to date anyone so soon."
"Who talked about dating Lo ? As you said you spent 10 years with the same person. It's time you have fun now. " Said Tamsin cheerfully.
"I'm not a one-night stand kind of girl Tamsin, you know that, I've never been like this and I don't think that's ever gonna change." Said Lauren with serious.
"Whatever, as long as you don't have sex on the living-room I'm okay."
"Don't worry about that, it's not gonna happen." Said Lauren with a chuckle.
The two friends spend their evening watching Disney movies. They both always found extremely relaxing to watch this kind of movies.
"I'm going to bed." Said Tamsin after she yawns.
"Okay. Goodnight tam-tam."
"Goodnight Lo." Said Tamsin before kissing her friend on the cheek and going to her bedroom.
Lauren knew she couldn't sleep so soon, she struggled with insomnia since as long as she could remembered.
She headed to the window of the apartment and was surprised that despite the surrounding of the building, the street had a better lightning than in most town she ever been at midnight.
Outside, she saw a car being parked just next to hers.
Lauren was curious, so she kept watching her probably new neighbors.
She saw someone getting out of the car. And in this moment she was extremely thankful about the good lightening of the street.
She saw the most stunning woman she ever seen. "My god, she is so beautiful." whispered Lauren.
As if she felt watched, the woman looked-up in her direction. There eyes meet. It was the most intense eye contact Lauren ever felt and she was even more amazed by the beauty of her magnificent stranger.
The woman smiled at her, Lauren smiled back.
And then the gorgeous brunette was out of her sight.
Lauren felt a slight disappointment and didn't understand this feeling.
Lauren checked the hour, it's started to get late. She decided to go to bed. Maybe if she was lucky she could sleep well.
One thing was sure, her new life started well and she looked forward for tomorrow.
Hi ! I have this AU stuck in my head for a while, I needed to write it.
So who's the gorgeous woman Lauren saw at the end ? Hard question, I know...
I also want to add, I rated the all fanfic M, but the smut scenes won't come so soon.
Let me know what you think. See you soon. :)