I'm in my room sitting down on my bed. My lip I think she might have busted it my arms, back and, head are pounding from pain. Mother had another 'episode' I came late from Soubi's house I can't blame her for this..can I? No it was my fault I should have paid more attention to the time. I feel so sad. I just want to die. Mother why do you do this to me...? I know I did something wrong...but do I deserve this kind of punishment..? I shake my head Don't cry! I tell myself I'm thirteen! Thirteen year olds don't cry! I pull up my sleeve revealing the scars of the past. Two years...I've been punishing my body for two years. I reach in my drawer pulling out my razor. I start slicing threw my skin and flesh as I see the blood start to ooze out. How deep can I go before I bleed to death..? I ask myself. I feel my hand go straight to the old marks right where my hand meets my lower arm. What I'm I doing now..? I feel like I can't control my hand anymore, It has a mind of its own. I press hard on my wrist slicing threw the flesh while I press harder as I slice along my wrist to the end. The blood it pours out with no sign of stopping. I can feel my unwanted tears flowing down my cheeks now. W-what did I do..? I Ask myself silently. As I watch the blood start oozing out with no control. I feel dizzy. I can feel myself starting to fall to the side of my bed. I can feel the blood start to soak in my sheets. No...No! I don't want to die! I try getting up my body feels heavy as if some body was pushing me back down towards the bed. I feel my head spinning as I try to raise myself off the bed. I manage to as I feel....no I cant feel my hand its lost all feeling I Can't feel the blood running down it. This is bad I don't want to die..Soubi.. Soubi please help me! I cry in my mind I know he can hear me we are Sacrifice and Fighter he said I could call him anytime and he would come...Please hurry! I stagger forward Towards the other side of the room feeling my feet heavy As I use my Clean hand to reach for my Cell phone. I feel like I'm falling..wait I am. I fall down with my hand raised up above me from the floor as my other hand releases the rest of my blood. I lay there as I Feel my vision start to blur...it feels like I'm surrounded by black smoke. It's getting harder to breath. I lay there for a few minutes as I feel coldness surround my body. I lay on my side as I see my blood on my wrist. My Sleeve was rolled down it was filled with my blood. I close my eyes for a sec. As I smell the scent of my metal scented blood. I hear banging it sounds muffled. Who is it..? I hear a loud bang louder then the other ones but it's still muffled I open my eyes slightly as I feel my body being moved. I'm staring up at the ceiling now there's someone here. The person smells like cigars. Soubi..? I try to whisper out. But my voice is gone. I can see him clearly now as my vision focuses on the person that truly did love me. So it was true what he said he would always come. I try to move my hand to touch his soft cheek but its so heavy I can't move it. I finally realize I'm laying on his lap as his arm supports me up to his chest in a hug. I Can see him crying. I've never seen him cry before. He was dialing numbers on his cell as he waited for the other line to pick up he looked down at me saying words I couldn't hear I looked at his tender lips remembering how he always kissed me with them. He's screaming now to the person on the other line. It's the ambulance..his trying to save me. I close my eyes tightly as more tears flow out. I'm sorry Soubi...I'm Sorry I try to say. I must have succeeded because Soubi responded by pressing his fingers on my busted lip whispering something..."Don't Talk it's not your fault...I Love You Ritsuka.."....Those words I heard them clearly..Does this mean I'm going to live...? I feel the blackness come back as my vision darkens I Can feel something soft and familiar press against my cold lips. Its Soubi kissing me...I hope it's not the last time
The End
Sorry for the sucky ending but i got bored . anywaaaaays...well I know that people get lazy (like Mua) and don't want to write a review and all but if you can write one pwease!!! I'll Ask for...7! and spaming is allowed but only twice per person! if you spam it will count For Your Info! I already have the other part writen its gonna be like....twoooo-threeeee...Chapters long its gonna be only drama and smoochy or whatever you call it and the last part is were the smex is so yea....