I was never one to keep anything about myself private, or was I one to hide my emotions. Ever since I was fourteen I knew I liked boys just as much as I liked girls, maybe more. Granted I dated mostly girls until college and even then girl were always in my bed. There were a few guys scattered in and then I interned at the Frisco crime lab and met Riley Johnson, the first guy to make my toes curl. He was seven years older than me and that much more experienced. We had an amazing sex life and since we worked the same shift it was even better. That's all it really was though sex, really good sex but no strings attached. I once thought we could be more, but I was young and didn't want to be tied down, and I figured Riley didn't want one either. We parted on good terms though with a blow job in the bathroom of the airport bathroom as I left for my new job in Vegas.
To be honest I was excited to be going to Vegas and to be hand picked to be head DNA tech at the 2nd best lab in the country was an honor. It was a new chapter in my life to start over and find someone other than Riley to satisfy my needs. Nick Stokes was the first one I met other than Grissom, we literally ran into ran into each other and I nearly died when I looked up at the face of the person I knocked over. My cheeks reddened and I felt like the biggest dumbass in the world, but he only smiled and introduced himself and I was hooked. Now I knew it was bad to fall for such a straight laced guy as Nick Stokes but I could not help myself, he was a God to me. He was the first one I befriended and really that only made it was me. We drank beer at his house on Fridays and video games on Tuesdays at mine. We bonded which most people found odd because he was a CSI and I was a lab rat. That never stopped us though and I found myself falling for him, something I never wanted to happen especially with a straight man. I got vibes sometimes though, he would look at me a little longer than he should and his hand would touch mine as he waited for his results. It made me believe I actually had a chance until the day Lori Quincy swept him away.
Catherine Willows ruined my life, that's what I like to say. Catherine was the one who hired me and brought me to Vegas, to Nick and it was Catherine who brought Lori Quincy into Nick's life. Lori was Lindsey's babysitter on occasions and Catherine just happened to mention to Nick that Lori was a great girl, so Nick being the gentlemen he was asked her out. Within a month of them dating our Fridays disappeared and Tuesdays were rare. Nick always apologized though with that smile of his I forgave him every time. Sure Lori was nice, we met and I even doubled dated with him and Lori once with Lori's physco friend Ariel. Let's just say she wasn't the brightest crayon in the box and I didn't get any that night. I could tell Lori hated me though; it was clear in her eyes because I was Nick's best friend. I was not too worried, it was just a phase and soon Lori would be gone and I'd have Nick back in no time. Only it was not just a phase to Nick and I learned the truth of his intentions when he showed me the ring.
"Do you think she'll like it?" he asked me letting the ring drop into the palm of my hand. I told him of course she would like it and yes I would be his best man in the wedding. Inside I Was dying, of course it was all my fault really falling for the straightest man I knew. Lori of course said yes and wasted no time flaunting the ring and Nick around. Catherine was ecstatic and I hated her more and more each day I didn't want to blame myself so I blamed her. After Nick proposed Tuesdays disappeared too, so the only time I really saw him was the lab. My solution was to bury myself in work and not let it get it to me, but what do I go and do? Tell Grissom the lab is suffocating me and I want to be a CSI, I really thought he would turn me away, laugh in my face, but he did none of those things and one week later I went to a scene with Sara. So now I am almost a CSI, Nick is constantly by my side in the field telling me wedding plans and I am falling into something deeper than I ever imagined, I am hopelessly in love with Nick Stokes a man I'll never have.