All I Ever Wanted Was You

It had been almost fifty years.

I knew I was still considered a newborn, especially in the eyes of the Volutri but I had come a long way since I had met Carlisle.

He had found me one night during his hunt, I wasn't as skilled as him but unlike my other encounters with vampires I didn't need to fight.

I was born, I was loved by my parents, I went to school, I went on dates but I was killed.

Killed by this guy I had met at camp one year when Charlie had sent me to a group camp to meet new friends. He seemed innocent enough at first, just curious glances at me but that night I saw him lingering in the forest just outside my bedroom window, I knew he was nothing innocent.

Fate had it though, he changed me.

Was this better or worse than death? I had no idea at the time and I still don't, Sure I have a family now but I was still alone.

James.

The name was a nightmare in itself, he was long gone now. Emmett, my adoring bigger brother had taken revenge a long time ago. I was glad that James could no longer hurt anymore girls and then change them into vampires.

From that one chilling night I was and still are afraid of men. Not all men, just those who had creepy looks about them, the ones who glanced at me really freaked me out and definitely guys who were stronger than me.

Though now in my new stage of "life", "existence" would have been a more appropriate term considering I would live forever if not killed again, deep in my heart, I wanted this nightmare to end. I just wanted to wake up in my room and race downstairs and hug my parents, that would never happen though and I completely blame James for abusing me and taking away my future, my life.

I had a strange way with men now, yeah they would notice me more now with my incredible grace, my elegant poise, the beautifulness of my figure and face had been accentuated by the change.

Everyone was drawn to me, and I hated it.

Still very much afraid of men, Alice and Emmett assured me that I had the strength to take on any human, which was true but the situation scared me so much.

Carlisle had took me in, thank the heavens for him. If not for Carlisle I would have probably ended up on the Volutri guard, and I much despised them.

Over the years our family grew. Carlisle had found his beloved and saved her from imminent death, Esme, my new mother.

Alice had spooked us all when she turned up on our doorstep with Jasper in tow and hugged and greeted everyone like we had known her since birth.

Rosalie had found us shortly after Alice and Jasper got married for the first time, Rosalie found and saved Emmett when she was out hunting.

Everyone was so happy, so together, except me.

I had no mate, completely alone in that respect.

Family was all I had and all I really cared about. As a little girl I had dreamed of living in a house, marrying and having children. Like Rosalie, my dreams of children were crushed. I would never be able to have children, Rosalie and I had bonded over the sadness.

2009, a new year, a new school.

I had stayed at home the previous years when my siblings went to school and tottered off and pretended to be human. I was what the modern world called "home schooled". I preferred not to dwell in places that had heaps of humans, or males.

Esme and Carlisle had drawn the line though.

As hard as it was for Esme to tell me to go to school it was even harder when she had to let me go in the morning of the first day.

"Bella, you're going to be ok. Emmett and Alice are in all of your classes and you will never be alone at school until you want to be and you feel comfortable," urged Esme

"I know mom," I said as I embraced Esme.

"What about me? It's my first day too!" Claimed Emmett.

Esme gave Emmett a quick hug before she nudged him in the shoulder, " You take care of your sister" She told him.

"Let the boys of forks high upset her, I think not. I'll keep her safe." Emmett promised.

"Alice?" I asked, hoping she had seen that my day would be ok.

"Bell you don't need my visions to know you're going to be ok, were going to be there, nothing bad will happen." Alice tried to settle me.

I was normally the one sitting around by myself, reading was one of my favourite past times. Jasper and I played endless games of chess, the only one we couldn't bet was Alice. Future seeing had its purposes, it did.

We had our own little gifts each of us. Jasper had a way with emotions, Alice could see glimpses of the future, Emmett was super strong, Esme had her compassionate and I was what you would call a shield.

I knew long ago what I was, that was why James had picked me out of all the rest. The moment Aro had set his hand upon mine, it was obvious. I would also never forget the look on Jane's face when her "gift" hadn't worked on me; it makes me laugh every time.

I had in fact laughed when it happened; it was the wrong move though. Marcus had to order them to peel Jane off me, lucky I knew my defences or I would have been ripped limb from limb by that blonde pest of a teenager.

Though my defences would not help today, as I stepped into a world full of teenage boys who didn't know of my fear and would probably come and talk to me. Attention would be drawn to me because I was already new but the way we looked drew every eye.

Was I ready for this?

Was I ready when I stepped out of Emmett's Hummer and saw the hell that was called High School right in front of me?

Hell, no.