Disclaimer: Yui doesn't own Spirited Away. She just appreciates it enough to make a fic for it. Please don't sue me, I'm poor.
becoming flesh.
by miyamoto yui
prologue - don't look back
"Don't look back," Haku had said to me as he finally let go of my hand. I remember when the warmth of his hand dissipated like a dream had passed through my entire body.
It might as well have been that way, but I didn't believe that it would leave something a little barren inside. A longing and missing that I thought would have been closed over time. Unfortunately, it had not gone away.
I looked for the entrance and found it. I just stood in front of it for quite a while. When I was thirteen, when I was fifteen, and now, when I was eighteen. It was a place of comfort to me, hidden away from the rest of the world.
The world of the gods that worked so hard to be cleansed, but became dirty by those people that were supposed to worship them. I always found it ironic that I went to various shrines and had this single thought in my head.
But through it all, I felt someone calling me. I touched the stone wall, but I dared not to go inside. I had always wished that Haku would come out of that path and stand before me.
Except, would he be as lost in the world as I was when I first came into his realm of the world? I wondered about that for a long time, but I had no sufficient answer.
And why would he have a reason to come here in the first place? And would he have remembered me as well as I had remembered him? Girls and boys were very different in that department, you know.
I would never forget the night he came in his dragon form so majestically. He flew and landed in front of me. I hugged him so much and snuggled my cheek next to his.
I didn't know that was love, but I knew that I was so happy to see him.
Alive and well.
As I took my hand away, I wondered what he was doing. There wasn't a day that passed that I didn't think about him. He taught me a lot in such a short period of time. Things that I would probably have never learned if I hadn't gone there.
If he hadn't saved me.
Bowing to no one in front of me, I smiled as I stood in front of the dark path leading to the other side of the abandoned amusement park. "Please be well," I whispered while turning around to walk away.
When I got home, I ate dinner and started on my homework. Pulling my hair again to redo my long ponytail, I stared at the math problems before me as if they were a different language. Somehow, I couldn't help feeling that all these formalities were kind of dumb. Well, after meeting the gods and knowing that all that mattered in life was that you be your best and be grateful for what you have, well, learning calculus didn't seem too important.
But, I would try my best, regardless.
My parents were sleeping in the next room and I knew they would have been mad at me for staying up so late. But what I couldn't explain was that I liked the nighttime. It was quiet and peaceful.
Also, it reminded me of my breaks when I was working in the bathhouse. I would sometimes lean out the railing while looking up at the stars as everyone bustled around me.
Strange how you can be so at peace when there's so much going on.
Knock, knock, knock.
I jumped out of my seat, but I listened for it again. I went out into the hall and opened my parents' door. They were dead asleep and I sighed.
I couldn't understand why they were sometimes irresponsible like that. I felt like I was more of their parent than they were mine.
Slowly, I went towards the rapping of the door.
When I got there, I whispered, "Who is it?"
"It is me, Chihiro."
My heart stopped. I closed my eyes and pinched myself to make sure I wasn't dreaming. I opened them again and stupidly sputtered out, "Excuse me?"
"Have you forgotten me?" he whispered calmly through the door.
"Of course not..." I found myself saying before I could stop myself as I put my hands flatly on the door.
Slowly, I opened the door to find a ragged Haku in front of me. His clothes were somewhat torn, but he still stood like a dignified prince before me.
He was the same, though...
Exactly the same as when I left him...
"Haku, what hap-" I started to say, but he stepped forward and wrapped his arms around me.
Breathlessly, he whispered to me as he held me tighter,
"I've looked...
I've looked all over for you, Chihiro."
Tsuzuku...
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Author's note: I'm a freak for starting a new multi-chap, but this could be an interesting venture. 'sides, I need a hetero couple to do. Need balance and since I like this pairing a lot. Why not, right?
becoming flesh.
by miyamoto yui
prologue - don't look back
"Don't look back," Haku had said to me as he finally let go of my hand. I remember when the warmth of his hand dissipated like a dream had passed through my entire body.
It might as well have been that way, but I didn't believe that it would leave something a little barren inside. A longing and missing that I thought would have been closed over time. Unfortunately, it had not gone away.
I looked for the entrance and found it. I just stood in front of it for quite a while. When I was thirteen, when I was fifteen, and now, when I was eighteen. It was a place of comfort to me, hidden away from the rest of the world.
The world of the gods that worked so hard to be cleansed, but became dirty by those people that were supposed to worship them. I always found it ironic that I went to various shrines and had this single thought in my head.
But through it all, I felt someone calling me. I touched the stone wall, but I dared not to go inside. I had always wished that Haku would come out of that path and stand before me.
Except, would he be as lost in the world as I was when I first came into his realm of the world? I wondered about that for a long time, but I had no sufficient answer.
And why would he have a reason to come here in the first place? And would he have remembered me as well as I had remembered him? Girls and boys were very different in that department, you know.
I would never forget the night he came in his dragon form so majestically. He flew and landed in front of me. I hugged him so much and snuggled my cheek next to his.
I didn't know that was love, but I knew that I was so happy to see him.
Alive and well.
As I took my hand away, I wondered what he was doing. There wasn't a day that passed that I didn't think about him. He taught me a lot in such a short period of time. Things that I would probably have never learned if I hadn't gone there.
If he hadn't saved me.
Bowing to no one in front of me, I smiled as I stood in front of the dark path leading to the other side of the abandoned amusement park. "Please be well," I whispered while turning around to walk away.
When I got home, I ate dinner and started on my homework. Pulling my hair again to redo my long ponytail, I stared at the math problems before me as if they were a different language. Somehow, I couldn't help feeling that all these formalities were kind of dumb. Well, after meeting the gods and knowing that all that mattered in life was that you be your best and be grateful for what you have, well, learning calculus didn't seem too important.
But, I would try my best, regardless.
My parents were sleeping in the next room and I knew they would have been mad at me for staying up so late. But what I couldn't explain was that I liked the nighttime. It was quiet and peaceful.
Also, it reminded me of my breaks when I was working in the bathhouse. I would sometimes lean out the railing while looking up at the stars as everyone bustled around me.
Strange how you can be so at peace when there's so much going on.
Knock, knock, knock.
I jumped out of my seat, but I listened for it again. I went out into the hall and opened my parents' door. They were dead asleep and I sighed.
I couldn't understand why they were sometimes irresponsible like that. I felt like I was more of their parent than they were mine.
Slowly, I went towards the rapping of the door.
When I got there, I whispered, "Who is it?"
"It is me, Chihiro."
My heart stopped. I closed my eyes and pinched myself to make sure I wasn't dreaming. I opened them again and stupidly sputtered out, "Excuse me?"
"Have you forgotten me?" he whispered calmly through the door.
"Of course not..." I found myself saying before I could stop myself as I put my hands flatly on the door.
Slowly, I opened the door to find a ragged Haku in front of me. His clothes were somewhat torn, but he still stood like a dignified prince before me.
He was the same, though...
Exactly the same as when I left him...
"Haku, what hap-" I started to say, but he stepped forward and wrapped his arms around me.
Breathlessly, he whispered to me as he held me tighter,
"I've looked...
I've looked all over for you, Chihiro."
Tsuzuku...
--
Author's note: I'm a freak for starting a new multi-chap, but this could be an interesting venture. 'sides, I need a hetero couple to do. Need balance and since I like this pairing a lot. Why not, right?