What Lies Beneath Her Eyes

Just a random one shot I made for Monica.

P.S. - I don't own Dark Cloud 2 or Monica.

They say I always have a smile on my face…that my personality remains cheerful and strong even in the harshest of times. But did they ever see the other side of me, the side that I hide from everyone, even from my own father?

My whole life I always spoke my mind, I always stayed true to what I felt, but there is one feeling…. A feeling I promised that I'll never show…. It was weakness.

I had never seen my mother; I don't know the feeling of having one. Then I saw my father being killed in front of me, Crest died in front of me as well. I also remember the people responsible of it all Gaspard and Sirus, commonly known as Griffon, they both had a change of heart, but I watched both of them die… I even helped kill them…

I didn't do anything, I just… watched… I was… weak. Those were the times I showed weakness. Those were the times I watched everyone that meant most to me, DIE! Ever since then, I promised to everyone that I failed to protect that I'll be stronger… I won't show weakness! I don't want another loved one to slip out of my hands. Before my father died… he told me that I must never look back to the past. Regret and pain will make me weak.

……But despite all of it, there are times when a tear escapes from my face. Probably it's because of the loneliness I feel from time to time, after all, the only person that cares about me is none other than Max, aside from him I don't think the others give a damn about me.Though there weretimes when the pain is just too much for me and there are times when I couldn't help but cry, but I cry only for a little while. I also made it a point never to show it to anyone else, because if I show my tears to others, it would make them feel sad too, so even if it hurts, even if it's too much; I won't show it. But I couldn't care less about myself; I don't care even if I die right here and now as long as I was able to protect him…. I didn't die in vain.

Max is all that I have now, but I'm afraid to tell him… that I do love him, that I'll do anything just to be with him again. I just hate myself! I only realized it when it was too late. I guess I have to accept the fact; that he comes from the past and I come from the future. It would be a selfish thought that I came back to the past just to be with him… That's what destroyed Griffon and all who wanted the stones… Greed…Selfishness…. Such thoughts should be erased from my head.

Right now, while I'm still with you, I should cherish it, for this may be the last time that I'll spend with you… and maybe while I'm here, I should tell you… how much you mean to me.

Author's mini-note

I wrote this because I noticed that Monica never cried in the game. She always stayed strong no matter what the situation. She speaks her mind and she doesn't hesitate whenever she does or decides on something. I really admire people like that. That's how Monica came to be one of my favorites.