Regina Mills looked at the tombstone in front of her. Time is running fast indeed, and it's been a year since him… She sighed…
"Hello. It's me. I was wondering... how are you? You know what? I want to go over, everything that we did before…"
She's trying to suppress the tears from falling down her cheeks but she doesn't have the strength to do so…
A strong wave of nostalgia hit her. Had he been here, he'd be the one wiping away her tears, not the one she's shedding then for.
"I had it bad you know? I didn't know what to feel. My emotions were all mixed up, i thought I was going to explode."
"But there was one that was very prominent. And it was anger. Anger at the universe for being so cruel…
Anger for Hook for being brought back to life.
Anger at the Charmings for trying to comfort me.
Anger at Zelena for having the connection with you that we will never have
Anger at Emma for being the embodiment of what we couldn't have
Anger at YOU… For loving me so damn unconditionally that you had to fricking sacrifice your life for me
But most of all, Anger at myself… That blow was meant to destroy me Robin.. Not you. And now not only have I lost another love but I have made your boy, your sweet darling little boy an orphan… I wish I could say that I wish I hadn't met you but I can't. I just … Can't. I can't dishonour what we had nor will I reduce it into something it isn't…
They say that time is supposed to heal you, but honestly? I haven't done much healing… Why am I even talking here? Can you even hear me?"
She sighed "Every night, I see you in a landscape of my dreams. That somehow, someway, you're with me, hugging me and just continuously loving me for me… Every night I fall asleep, this is all I ever dream… I want to feel it again, But to tell you honestly? I've forgotten how we felt before the world fell at our feet. Before everything I knew crumbled to pieces.. I want to be with you… I really do but the great divide between us two is just so…
Massive…
Yet at the same time so not…
It's like we are separated by the schism called fate where I'm in the other side of the glass, and you in the other…
Maybe it is supposed to be this way…
Maybe this is my penance for all the times that I've wronged the kingdom, the town and the people…
Maybe this is my punishment.
Being able to know you loved me and love you back but all I can do is say hello from the other side…
This is the other side… I wish it wasn't."
By now, her tears are strolling freely from her eyes… Whoever made the concept of happily ever after is a liar… Because there is no such thing…
She settled herself in front of the grave…
Night was fast approaching and the weather is chilling but that doesn't deter her…
She laid down in front of Robin Hood's tomb, clutching the feather from his arrow…
"Once upon a time there was light in my life, now it's only love in the dark"
And for the first time in a year, she felt the warmth seep inside her…
The warmth that only Robin Hood can provide, even beyond of his death…