Seventh Heaven and its characters do not belong to me. Takes place seven years after the season finale.
If
you could see these tears I'm crying
Touch these hands that can't
stop shaking
Hear my heart that's barely beating
You would see
a different man
But baby, here I am
- Backstreet Boys
Martin POV
Seven years later and I still pathetically believed that Ruthie would open up her eyes and realize that she loved me.
After she had rejected me for T-bone, they left on their RV trip and then went to college in Scotland.
She wrote a couple of times and I dated halfheartedly believing in my heart that once she got over being angry she would be back. I was however wrong.
After college graduation Mrs. Camden told me that Ruthie had decided to go to Milan to receive her Masters Degree in Fashion. I didn't ask about T-bone and she didn't offer any information.
Once Sandy and Jonathan got married we all made the decision to stay in Glen Oak. I finished college and then went on to graduate school, passing my bar exam. I then began practicing family law.
I bitterly laughed as I took a sip of the scotch that was sitting at my desk.
"Martin? Are you home?" I heard Sandy's disgustedly cheerful voice.
It seemed as though the past couple of weeks she had been in la la land, almost as disgustedly happy as the rest of the Camden's.
I held back a sigh as Sandy walked into my office opening the blinds before she said "Are you alright? I have been calling you all day. Aaron wants to go for ice cream and I figured since you were off… Jonathan and I could have a late dinner alone"
"Sure that sounds fine"
"Are you still moping?" Sandy asked as I shook my head and answered "Nope…..just sitting here thinking"
"Well maybe you should write a letter or something"
"Why? What difference would it make?"
"Maybe you would be able to move on"
"Why should I have to?"
"Because you are miserable and you are making Jonathan and me miserable by default. She chose T-Bone get over it and move on or fight for her"
"I don't want to speak about it" I finally said as I stood up.
Sandy snorted in reply and said "Well too bad. Everyone else caters to this and I refuse to…just make up your mind. If she is that important than go to her and tell her….fight for her"
"I don't want to fight…..I'm tired of making a fool of myself"
"What exactly happened last year when you went to see her?"
"Nothing" I replied harshly as I stood up and finally looked Sandy in the eyes "I didn't speak to her"
"Why not?"
"Because I chickened out"
"Why would you go all the way to New York and not see her?"
"Oh I did she her….I just didn't go up and speak to her"
"Well Annie just mentioned this morning that she…"
"I don't want to know" I interrupted as I walked out of my den.
"Okay but this may change a lot of things for everyone"
"Spare me the details on how T-bone and she are married and moving back home"
I glanced at Sandy who turned a bit pale before she masked it and said "I have to go to the church. I have a group of young girls waiting for me"
"So where is Aaron?"
"Jonathan has him. He will drop him off before his midday shift"
"Okay. I'll see you later then"
"Yes…and Martin?"
I glanced over at her with an eyebrow raised as she said "Just write the letter, you may feel better"
"Good
bye Sandy" I replied loudly as she smiled and then left.
New York: Ruthie
Twenty-three year old Ruthie Camden looked at the model wearing the dress she designed.
"So what do you think?" a voice asked her as Ruthie rolled her eyes slightly before answering "I think it looks great. I just want to take it in a little bit"
"Are you sure you really want to leave New York? You made a name for yourself here"
Ruthie nodded as she concentrated on sticking pins on her creation and not the model.
It was true, the name "Camden deigns" were on every rack in most clothing stores.
"I told you even if I don't want to leave I have to leave for Zakyra"
"But she has the best nannies here" Theodore argued as Ruthie stopped what she was doing and told the model that she could leave.
"Theodore you know Zakyra deserves the best. Why can't you accept that and come too?"
"Because I don't want to. I don't want to move back to Glen Oak"
"I thought you loved me" Ruthie replied softly as Theodore smiled tenderly down at her. That was the problem about Ruthie Camden…..she was
dangerous…she got under your skin and before you knew it you were hooked.
"I do love you"
"You haven't ask to marry me"
"Because you don't love me"
"That's where you are wrong" Ruthie replied before she looked at the clock and said "Shoot! We have to leave and get Zakyra"
"I have to go back to the office" Theodore replied. After they had graduated from college in Scotland, T-Bone decided that he would start using his formal name and began working as an accountant.
Ruthie then decided she wanted to get a Masters in fashion. They moved to Milan and after graduation moved to New York.
Ruthie wasn't dumb. She knew that Theodore made the move with her because he believed they would get married sooner or later, even though she knew that he really wasn't in love with her.
Later that evening once Zakyra was in bed Ruthie sat on her couch as she went through her mail. There was a small overnight package. She looked at the return address and dropped it.
Fifteen minutes later she was sitting down in her den with a glass of wine as she took the CD that was in the package and slipped it into the stereo.
Who
are you now? No matter how I fight it, can't deny
it
Are you still the same
Or did you change
somehow?
What do you do?
At this very moment
When I think of
you
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do
you remember that?
Just can't let you go
I
still need you Now look at me huh I've tried
to fight it, can't deny it I still
need you No, no I wish I could find you (I
still need you) But still no word from you
I still care about you
Though everything's been
said and done
I still feel you like I'm right beside you
But
still no word from you
Instead of moving
on
I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
Yeah, I'm stuck
in a moment
That wasn't meant to last (to last)
You don't even know that
I still care about you
Though everything's been said
and done
I still feel you like I'm right beside you
But still
no word from you
Just
like you found me, then I
Would never let you go (oh oh oh)
Though everything's been said and done (yeah)
I
still feel you (I still feel you)
Like I'm right beside you (like
I'm right there beside you)