If Tomorrow Never Comes
Disclaimer: I don't own Hannah Montana, Miley Cyrus, Emily Osment or any characters from Hannah Montana! I wish I did. I would be rich and extremely happy right now if I did.
Author Notes: This fic DOES have a relationship between 2 females; so if that is not your thing, please don't read. (LILEY) Please read and if you like, review!
Summary: Miley is dating Jake and Lilly is dating Sarah. Will Miley and Lilly ever be able to tell each other how they feel about one another? What happens when they do? Mainly Miley's POV but will switch between other characters as well.
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Chapter 1: First Day Jitters
Opening her locker for the first day of school, Miley took out the small square mirror she brought with her out of her backpack and magnetically stuck it to the inside of the door to her locker. While checking her hair and make-up one last time to make sure it looked just right, she saw the reflection of Lilly and Oliver, her two best friends, making their way towards her.
Catching sight of the shit eating grin adorning her face, she quickly toned it down to a slightly less enthusiastic smile in an effort to keep her true feelings hidden from her blonde headed friend.
Closing her locker, Miley turned around to greet them for the first time 3 months. She'd been off on her Hannah Montana world tour the entire summer and had just gotten back into Malibu and more importantly, her bed, a mere 4 hours ago. Her daddy, being the gracious father he is, actually said she could stay home today, but the thought of seeing Lilly overrode the need for a full nights sleep. So here she was, tired, but ready and raring for her first day of school, and more importantly, for finally seeing Lilly.
"Lilly!" I squealed in excitement while quickly jumping into the arms of her best for a bone-crushing hug. Lilly returned the hug with equal fervor, apparently just as happy to see me as well.
"I've missed you so much! I'm so glad you're back!" Lilly whispered into my neck not seeming to want to unwrap her arms from around my waist just yet.
"Hey! What about some lovin' for Smokin' Oken here! I missed you too," Oliver half pouted, half grinned as he held his arms out for a hug from me as well. "And I want one of them bear hugs too, no skimping out on me!"
Grinning, I reluctantly broke from her hug with Lilly and stepped into the arms of my other best friend.
"Oliver, you are such a doughnut sometimes," I laughingly said as I warmly embraced him as well.
"Sometimes?" Lilly asked with a raise of an eyebrow, earning her a glare from Oliver and a snicker from me.
After hugs were shared all around, we each threaded our arms through the others and headed off to our first class as freshman at Seaview High.
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After 4 boring periods, it was finally lunchtime. Only having a few hours sleep made my day feel a little more stressful, not to mention longer, than usual. Luckily, Lily shared 1st, 3rd, and 7th periods with me while Oliver and I had 1st and 5th periods together. Having my friends in class with me really seemed to help alleviate some of my first day jitters. Especially with me being cranky and wanting to talk back to the teachers.
"Ugh, finally! I was about ready to beat my head against the desk. Repeatedly," I tiredly stated while setting down my lunch tray, taking a seat, and laying my head on the table.
"I know what you mean. I didn't think it was possible for a teacher to drone on that long!" Lilly added putting in her two cents about their 3rd period English teacher, Mrs. Becker while plonking onto the seat next to me. We were still waiting for Oliver to finish buying his lunch and join us.
"Hey, Hey ladies, The Smokin' Oken has arrived," Oliver said trying to sound suave as he sat down with his own lunch of pizza and French fries.
"Oliver, I love ya, but when are you going to drop the "Smokin' Oken" line?" I asked with a raise of my eyebrows, using air quotations with my fingers.
"Never!" Oliver replied looking slightly offended. "I'll have you know, the ladies love Triple O Smokin' Oken! They don't call me the Locker Doctor for nothing."
"Yeah, they call you that cause you can open lockers, not cause you are a ladies man," Lilly stated with a roll of her eyes.
"Ok, ok, Ollie, you are The Ladies Man," I said trying to stop the mini argument I started. Luckily, the glares stopped and Lilly and Oliver went back to devouring their lunches.
Another reason the day just wouldn't seem to end was walking towards our table. The "Oh So Wonderful" Jake Ryan. Did you catch the sarcasm? I had a fleeting thought of trying to hide my head under the table in hopes that he wouldn't see me. Kind of like how ostriches hide their heads in a hole in the ground thinking no one can see them, but their entire bodies are still there in plain site for everyone to see.
"Hey Miley, I just wanted to stop by and let you know I'm back. You know, in case you were wondering," Jake said with a cocky grin on his face. "Maybe we can get together later and discuss getting back together. I'll catch you later." He added with a wink and a flip of his collar before turning on his heels and leaving with a flock of girls following right behind him.
I'm glad he left before I could respond with a great big HECK NO. I don't know how it's possible for someone to be so FULL of themselves . I mean, I'm HANNAH MONTANA! You don't see me walking around like the world should bow at my feet. I knew he wouldn't be able to change like he said he would.
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It was now the end of the day and Miley stood by her locker waiting for Lilly and Oliver so they could walk home together.
It was a long grueling first day, but she managed to make it all the way through without falling asleep at her desk. She definitely did not need a detention on the first day of school.
As Lilly and Oliver met her, they started the trek to Miley's house where they were going to watch movies as a celebration for surviving their first day as freshman.
"So now that you're back from the tour and all, when is your next concert?" Lilly asked curiously. "I kind of can't wait to be Lola again."
"Not for a month, thank God! I don't think I could perform anytime soon even If I wanted to, so you're gonna have to wait a while to break Lola out," Miley replied bumping her left shoulder into Lilly's right. "Actually, I take that back, you can break Lola out next Friday for a CD signing if you want to come," Miley asked hopefully.
"Duh! Of course I'll go!" Lilly stated at the absurdity of the question. Like she would miss out on going with Miley to a Hannah event.
"Does Mike Standley the Third get to come too?" Oliver asked with a pout to his lips to match the rest of the puppy dog look he was giving Miley.
"Of course Ollie," Miley acquiesced laughingly.
As Miley's house came into view, they ran the rest of the way, tagging each other playfully.
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I said hi to Daddy as he was walking out the door to go to a Hannah meeting. After making promises of not tearing the house down and behaving, we got ready to watch a movie.
As Oliver jumped over the back of the couch to get seated, Lilly picked out a dvd and I got the popcorn ready.
After the microwave beeped, I walked over to the couch with a big bowl full of popcorn and sat down next to Oliver. Lilly closed the dvd tray and turned to sit down to my right placing me in the middle.
Lilly picked out She's The Man to watch for which I was grateful. I absolutely love that movie! It reminds me of Lilly in so many ways. Not the cross dressing part, but just about everything else. Viola eats like a pig, which coincidentally, so does Lilly. A cute pig, but a pig none-the-less. They are both tomboys and love soccer. They can both be girly when the time calls for it. They are both brash and outgoing and they are both beautiful. The list goes on and on. If Viola was a skateboarder, you would think the character was based solely off of Lilly! Like the director must have been walking through Malibu one day and saw Lilly and thought to himself, hmm, that is Viola's character right there! I must make the character just like her!
Throughout the movie, I couldn't help but send a bunch of sidelong glances at Lilly. She was really into the movie and was looking so adorable. Even Oliver seemed to be into the movie even though it was a "chick flick".
I don't remember exactly when my feelings for Lilly changed. I guess it was just so gradual that I never even noticed. One day, I just realized that I was checking out her legs. What's odd is I never even thought twice about it. Almost like it was normal. Like everyone went around checking out their friend's shapely forms.
I always knew she was beautiful. Even when I first met her, I couldn't stop looking in her beautiful blue eyes. I just always assumed it was because I was envious or something. I mean, who wouldn't want her blue eyes and her long blonde hair? Exactly.
But now I know I was never envious of her looks. I just wanted her to be mine. Not that I could ever tell her.
I don't think she would ever hate me if she knew I liked girls. I'm sure she would still be my friend. She's a great person like that. But I know it would probably do irreparable damage to our close friendship. Our casual touches and comments would be no more. She'll probably always wonder if there was anything behind a hug or if I meant anything deeper than just a nice compliment.
So, no, I'll never say anything. Maybe one day, when we are in college or something, but definitely not anytime soon.
Maybe I will give Jake a call after all. He just might be able to help me get my thoughts off of Lilly. Does that make me horrible? Am I using him if I decide to go out with him?
I'm sure in the beginning, the only reason he wanted to date me was because I was the only girl not fawning over him. It's the whole wanting the unattainable. And now, I'm sure it's just for publicity. Make him look like a regular Joe Shmo to the public. So maybe we can make this a mutual using.
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As the movie ends, Lilly gives me a weird look. She must have caught me either repeatedly glancing at her throughout the movie, or caught me with my head in the clouds for the last half hour of it.
Oliver of course is oblivious to it all.
I can tell she wants to ask me what I was thinking about but is hesitant to ask in front of Oliver.
And oh look, saved by the bell. Speak of the Devil. Jake is at my front door.
As I answer the door, I hear Lilly and Oliver getting up and getting their stuff together to go home. It is a school night after all.
I let Jake in while saying my goodbyes with Lilly and Oliver and making promises to call Lilly later on that night.
I lead Jake over to the sofa to have a seat and continued on into the kitchen to grab us both some bottled waters, my southern hospitality kicking in.
Handing Jake a water, I sat down next to him with a good 3 feet between us.
"So, what are you doing here? Not that I mind or anything," I asked. I was a little hesitant to hear exactly what he had to say to me.
"Well, I told you before that I would come back for you when I've changed, and I've changed. I've missed you and I thought about you everyday. I followed everything Hannah did because it made me feel just a little bit closer to you."
Wow, he's not pulling out any stop is he? He says all this while staring down at his hands. I can actually feel my heart fluttering in my chest with all the emotion he's putting into this.
"I really thought about everything you said, about the way I acted and everything, and I guess what I'm trying to say is, I really want to get back together."
Jake still hasn't looked up once throughout all this, almost as if he's afraid he'll see rejection in my eyes. I don't know where all the bravado he was showing at lunch earlier went.
This new side of Jake is almost disconcerting. I'm so used to his arrogance and ego that this shy and uncertain side of him really throws me. Maybe he really has changed. Maybe he's just that good an actor. I guess only time will tell.
He's finally looking up and stares me right in the eyes for the first time, while reaching over and holding my hands in his.
"Miley Stewart/Hannah Montana I think I'm in love with you," Jake says, looking at me nervously for a response to his heartfelt declaration.
I'm actually quite speechless right now. I don't know what to say. I kind of actually thought I'd have a little more time to think about this whole situation. I'm not quite sure how to take it.
Seeing the pleading look in his eyes as he waits for my answer, I tell him what he wants to hear.
"Jake, I can't say I love you, but I'll give us a shot to see if maybe in the future I can. Is that okay?" I ask timidly. I really didn't want to hurt him after he just poured his heart out to me. I figure I used to really like him, and who knows, maybe I can like him again, and if it helps me to get over my crush on Lilly, even better.
"YES! Yes, that's great. You won't regret this. I'll show you I've changed," Jake replies with a glowing look on his face.
Standing up, I lead him to the door to and say goodnight. The euphoric look still hasn't left his face. I think maybe I just may have made the right decision.
Deciding to forgo the phone call to Lilly tonight, I head up to get ready for bed. I'll tell her in person tomorrow. I just know she'll be happy for me.
TBC
AN: So, tell me what think so far. Should I continue? Should I end it here? R&R!
Also, I am currently writing another Hannah Montana story as well. I had 2 ideas in my head so I'm going with both of them. I'm going to be alternating on updating the stories. So check out the other story. It's Liley as well and is called "Pop Star Don't Cry". Have a wonderful day!