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Prologue

I looked up and blushed. 'Did he really have to be in this class?' I thought. I watched him talk, laugh, and play around with his friends, It made me happy that he was happy, but when I saw him take few glances at my best friend, It made me frown. And when their eyes made contact for a second, I would see them turn red. That made me want to cry.

That's right, I was in love with him. I was in love with my best friend's crush. I know they aren't dating yet and I know I had the chance to ask him but... I didn't want to hurt her feelings and ruin our friendship. When the bell rang, me and my best friend would always walk together to our next class but sometimes, he would come over to flirt with her. I always hear her say "Go on without me! I'll be there soon" and I would always reply with a thumbs up, but in reality, it burn a piece of me inside.

Though I sat next to him in class we barely even talked. Even when I tried to, the words wouldn't come out of my mouth. I take few glances at him and smile. Then our eyes meet. I tried to cover up the blush so I just covered it with my arm. So noticeable right? But he's kinda dense so it was alright. After class, my best friend ask me who I liked. I shuddered. I can't just say 'Oh, I like the same guy like you' can I? She would hate me and then our friendship would be severed so I just said "nobody". I hated lying to myself.

Especially when it came to him.

To me, it was love at first sight. Though i rejected it at first, I couldn't stop it. His smile, laugh, everything about him was charming. Even when he was being weird and awkward, I still thought of it as funny. And that's what made me fall for him. I was crazy about him but, he wouldn't feel the same. It was one-sided love on my end while they had mutual love on their end. Was it a love triangle? I don't know, but if i had to guess... I would say it wasn't. After all, my love for him was invisible to everyone and them.

Today, my best friend was planning to confess to him today. Did she even know what today was? It was my birthday today. Out of all the days she chose to confess with the guy I love, she had to choose today. Of course I had to cheer for her and if he accepted her feelings, then I would of congratulated them, but deep down inside my heart, I was hoping for her to get rejected. I'm sick aren't I? Disgusting.

Was it a mistake to fall in love with him? Was this the price to pay for falling or the wrong person? Getting hurt and then bottling it up inside so you can't hurt others? I thought being in love changes a person, but it's not changing me. I even tried changing who I liked but i've fallen to deep in love with him.

The day of my birthday came close to an end. Tonight, I cried. Something besides me was born this day. A new relationship.

hey guys... its been a while... like 2 months? a month and a half? ive been doing bad in school and im even staying after school but my grades... yeah not the best... im below average right now and trying hard to improve

anyways, i know you guys hate me now since i havent updated Forgotten and the other stories but what can i say? im a failure. i just cant seem to finish a story but i can always start a new one

well... if you haven noticed... this is a school fanfic... this story isnt going to be a everyweek chapter update or anything, im just gonna update whenever i have the time like an extra or something...

well im still gonna do the crack pairings one-shot... hopefully if i remember... its gonna come out on my birthday 4-16 :D

ALSO- im still wondering what type of pairing this should be so give me ideas but it CANT NALU OR GRAYLU (sorry but i write crack pairings only and i dont really nalu but graylu is okay :D)

review if you want... bye *failure out*