A/N: Some AU Ryden for you! I hope you like it. Please review, I use it to help my writing.
Prologue
Maybe if Ryan was smarter this wouldn't happen, maybe if he was perfect these flaws wouldn't have came through and messed everything up. Ryan wouldn't of caused pain to his only love; the only person who cared for him. His only friend.
"Why in the hell did you leave?" Ryan asked the empty air as he threw a glass vase at the plain white walls that mocked him, screaming silently as they stared at him. It's the same each and every night, glare at his screen with two big bloodshot eyes. Ryan was stuck self-torturing, his meds were failing him. Internal clock in smithereens, he couldn't fix this, he's hopeless. As Ryan focuses on the clock, time stands still but he can not.
His hands started to twitch as he wanted to throw another, and another, and another. Ryan wanted to so bad, he wanted to throw these stupid presents he gave him. The stupid notes, the stupid presents, the stupid clothes, the stupid everything. Anything that left a memory of him, anything that would bring back those happy memories that made Ryan want to throw up his insides.
"I hope your fucking happy Brendon," he growled while burning a picture of them. His short brown hair that he had straighten that day, and he also wore Ryan's huge sunglasses. His big, fat lips were stretched into a sweet smile as his own tiny lips were kissing his cheek.; they looked so happy that it sickened him. When was Ryan ever that happy?