Falling. I was falling deeper and deeper into my despair, into the darkest part of my soul, and into death.

These past months have been dreadful. Only now do I realize why. Gold. He wasn't with me throughout it all. He was busy being champion to distract me from my inner emotions. Every day, every minute, every second, my head was full of self harm. The world was harming me as well. My childhood had been stolen just like I was from my father. My adolescence was full of lies and revenge. Now my life is pure rejection. After I joined Team Rocket, everyone was upset with me. Yet, once I left, everyone that cared about me did too. Gold, who was with me throughout this journey. Blue, who helped me escape, find purpose in life, and love. Why did she not chose me? I was with her all these years, yet that meant nothing to her. Blue is perfect, therefore, it must be me. The more I thought about it, the more clear it became. It was always me being helped. I was just a nuisance to her and everyone around me. Blue shouldn't be stuck babysitting me anymore. I was in denial for the longest time, but not anymore.

"I'll get out of everyone's way."

5:02 PM

5:05 PM

5:07 PM

5:08 PM

5:09 PM

The phone wouldn't stop ringing. Finally, once the battle was over, I grudgingly answered the phone.

"What? Being a champion is a lot of work, you know?"

"GOLD! Silver has been gone for two days we can't find him anywhere!" Blue frantically shouted.

"W-wait, slow down, Blue; take a deep breath. What happened?"

She took a deep breath before sobbing, "He's gone… and it's my fault.."

I sighed, "Don't say that, Blue. Look, I'll go down there and help you find him. He probably went on one of those training sprees." I reassured.

"Y-yeah… maybe.. just hurry… if something happens to him.." She wailed. "I.."

"Shh, stop that. I'll be there tomorrow. Don't stress yourself too much; spend some time with Red to cool down, kay?"

"Red…" She faltered.

"Yes, Red. Just tell me if you find him? See you there tomorrow." I sighed as I hung up.

Where could he be? Why is Blue so freaked out? Silver always takes off without telling anyone. Why is anything different? Why does it feel different? Every time I called him, he seemed normal; a little shyer than usual, but nothing to make a fuss about. Silver isn't exactly the talkative type. I glanced at my phone before staring at it. Should I call him? I raised my phone, searched through my contacts, then locked my phone and stuffed it into my pocket. If he's not answering Blue, why would he answer me? I chose to believe that he was fine, that Blue was just panicking over nothing, as I spent two more days at the league.

The third morning I received a call back from Blue.

"Hey, found him yet?" I answered.

Silence.

"Blue you there?"

More silence.

I sighed and moved the phone off of my ear and toward my field of vision, ready to hang up.

"They found him." She finally answered.