Dear Phil,
I know you probably won't ever get this letter as you will probably be well gone, but I thought I owed you this much. Phil I really do like you but as a friend, I know Romania was great and that time in the tunnel, it was real but I didn't want to lose you.
I really want you to wake up and see how much everyone misses you; all I do is sit by your bedside all the time and watch you. I know you would have done it for me and so I am.
I really want to see you open your eyes and look at me, I'm a complete wreck and without you I'm even worse. I've put on weight and my hair is knotted and uncontrollable, bet you wouldn't love me now!
I haven't been at the nick for 2 months now, I've just watched and waited but doctors are now saying that they might turn off your life support machines. Phil, don't do this to me, I won't cope if you're gone but I know that I will always visit your grave.
I'm being so pessimistic, you won't die you're a fighter, so just hang on in there Phil; we don't want you to go. Gina, Jack and everyone has given up on you and I think even Stuart misses teasing you! But I want you to come back just flick your wrist or flutter your eyelids just so that I know you're still here with me, please Phil, I am begging you.
The doctors want me to go but I will always stay until whatever happens. I need you now and here.
Phil, who am I kidding, of course I love you, why didn't I realize it before, everyone knew it but I just wouldn't know it. If only I'd realize. Oh, look now I'm crying Phil, honey just wake up, I want you I need you I love you, Phil.
Phil, they're going off all you're machines, long beeps. Don't die Phil, I'm still waiting for you. You've gone Phil, away, I don't know if you are dead or alive but I know the doctors are with you. it seems like I'm writing this letter to myself now.
I'm back with you now, you're stirring. Oh my god Phil, please wake up now!
Sam, Sam, you whisper softly. I lean forward to kiss you and you return it. Maybe I'm asleep and dreaming this but it is real, now everything is better, I won't ever leave you Phil don't let me down, I love you and just don't forget it. I want to spend the rest of my life with you if its what you want if not leave me and let me die in a dark corner somewhere!
But I know you won't!
So,
Love you always,
You're Girlfriend,
Sam
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