What Do You Want?
"Nobody wants us to be together." But I didn't want anyone but Noah and it was tearing me apart not being with him. Especially with him standing in front of me looking so hot in a tux, declaring his love for me.
"But what do you want?" He almost seemed to be pleading with me to choose him over his brother, over my family, over our friends. The trouble was, I selfishly wanted to, but Lee had only just forgiven me for keeping secrets from him and being with his brother behind his back.
"I wanna go." If I stayed here any longer I would crumble, so I turned and ran out of the prom. Catching the devastated look on Noah's face was bad enough without staying at the prom, trying to pretend my heart wasn't breaking into a million pieces while people asked about our relationship in detail. I heard someone running after me, I think it was Rachel from the sound of the clicking of high heels on the floor, but I wasn't ready to talk to anyone and I couldn't stay here.
Made it home before my tears ruined my make up so my Dad wasn't suspicious. But once I got into my room, I fell apart sobbing into my pillow. I wanted Noah here with me, holding me, telling me that we would be alright. But that wasn't going to happen.
My phone beeped signalling an incoming message. It was Lee making sure I got home alright. I was home but I wasn't alright. I was even worse when I saw his next message. Noah was leaving for Harvard early. I guess he didn't have any reason to hang around. At least I wouldn't have to act natural at Lee and my joint birthday party. But I had still wanted him to be there. I didn't want the prom to be the last time I saw him or that hurt look on his face to be the last way I saw him.
Why did I have to go and fall in love with my bestfriend's brother? Not that it was all of my fault. If Noah hadn't scared every other guy off even asking me out, maybe I would have had a chance with someone else. But right now all I could think about was Noah.
I sent Lee a text letting him know I was home. Noah's question kept ringing through my head. "What do you want?" I wanted Noah. I wanted everyone to be ok with us being together because I didn't want to lose Lee in the process. But wanting all of those things didn't mean that I could have any of them.
The thing was, only Noah had asked what I wanted. Everybody else was too busy telling me how wrong Noah was for me. That I was too sweet for him. And he loved me despite of everything against us. The fact that he had said so in front of the entire prom and especially his brother made me wonder if I had thrown away the best thing that had ever happened to me in my entire life. What if I never felt this way about anyone ever again?
I was so confused.
The End