Ok, this is the start of my new story, Bad Bella. It has a terrible title but thats all I could come up with, sorry. The idea originally comes for lanna-misssunshine who is the most amazing author! you should all reads her stories! they are fab! especially the notes and the stories that branch off them, they're hilarious. She's in my favourate authors if you have trouble finding her.

The story takes off from when Bella is waiting at the beach for Jacob to go sky diving. All the italic writing at the beginning comes from New Moon but after that its all me

All characters and settings belong to stephenie meyer. The plot belongs to lanna-misssunshine. I'm just writing it ;)

Bad Bella

Cliff diving

I'd really been counting on hearing Edward this morning. It seemed like that was the one thing that might make it bearable to live through this day. The hole had been festering lately, like it was getting revenge for the times that Jacob's presence had tamed it. The edges burned.

The waves picked up as I paced, beginning to crash against the rocks, but there was still no wind. I felt pinned down by the pressure of the storm. Everything swirled around me, but was perfectly still where I stood. The air had a faint electric charge–I could feel the static in my hair.

Father out, the waves were angrier than they were along the shore. I could see them battering against the line of the cliffs, spraying big white clouds of sea foam into the sky. There was still no movement in the air, though the clouds roiled more quickly now. It was eerie looking – like the clouds were moving by there own will. I shivered, though I knew it was just a trick of the pressure.

The cliffs were a black knife edge against the livid sky. Staring at them, I remembered the day Jacob had told me about Sam and his "gang". I thought of the boys – the werewolves – throwing themselves into the empty air. The image of the falling, spiralling figures was still vivid in my mind. I imagined the utter freedom of the fall…I imagined the way Edward's voice would have sounded in my head – furious, velvet, perfect…The burning in my chest flared agonizingly.

There had to be a way to quench it. The pain was growing more and more intolerable by the second. I glared at the cliffs and the crashing waves.

Well, why not? Why not quench it right now?

Jacob had promised me cliff diving, hadn't he? Just because he was unavailable, should I have to give up the distraction I needed so badly – needed even worse because Jacob was out risking his life? Risking it, in essence, for me. If it weren't for me, Victoria would not be killing people here…just somewhere else, far away. If anything happened to Jacob, it would be my fault. That realization stabbed deep and had me jogging back up the road to Billy's house, where my truck waited.

Suddenly a large, warm hand grabbed my wrist.

"Bella, where were you going?" Jacob asked. "Dad told me you were waiting at the beach."

I was so relieved just to see him alive and unhurt that I just flung my arms around him, ignoring his question. I felt his big, warm, comforting arms wrap around me and pull me closer to his chest.

"You're Ok! I was so worried something had happen to you!" I cried, though it was a bit muffled seeing as my mouth was pressed up against his body. He laughed and I felt his whole being rumble.

"How many times have I told you, Bella? There's nothing to worry about. We can take care of ourselves, and we're more than equipped to handle Victoria"

This comment brought me right back to earth. Victoria was still out there, still hunting me: and the pack was still risking their lives for me. The hole in my chest twinged painfully and reminded me why I was going to my truck in the first place.

"Are we still going then?" I asked him anxiously, once again thinking about the freedom falling would bring.

"I don't think that's the best idea Bells" he said apprehensively, "it's turning into a storm out there, it doesn't look safe."

"Is the big bad wolf afraid of a storm?" I asked jokingly, hiding the real, burning desire I was enclosing.

"No Bells, the big bad wolf is afraid that the big nasty storm will hurt the small frail human."

At that point I let go of all pretences. "Please Jake," I pleaded, "I need this." He looked into my eyes and gave in.

"Fine, but you hold on to my hand the whole time, got it?"

"Got it"

Still holding hands we walked up to my truck, climbed in and drove to the top of the cliff.

We walked out to the edge and when we were a few steps away I heard it. The low growl that came forward from the corners of my mind in his, golden, velvet voice. Even in anger it was divine and my heart jumped and started pounding erratically, as if he were here on the cliff with us. It was just the tonic I needed.

Then Jake started explaining what was going to happen. "Right, when we get to the edge I'll count down from three and then we jump. Keep a tight grip on my hand and when we hit the water I'll make sure you don't go too deep. Then I'll put you on my back and I'll swim us to shore. Are you ready?"

The growling got louder and then he spoke. No Bella! Don't you dare!! You promised!

You didn't keep your promise, I reminded him in my head, you didn't keep a lot of your promises. He ignored that.

You can't do this Bella! Are you seriously that reckless and stupid!?!

"Yes" I answered both questions out loud. Me and Jacob took the last few steps to the precipice of the cliff and as I looked over the edge to the writhing waters below the growling turned into a roar.

"Three" I took a deep breath

"Two" The roaring got loader. But I didn't care; the voice was all I needed, egging me on instead of putting me off, as it intended.

"One" Edward shouted NO in my head as we jumped.

Then it was all gone. All the worry and all the fear and all the pain. Gone: Evaporated in the exhilaration of falling. I was free. I was rushing through the air at break neck speed, hurtling towards the water. I screamed.

Then we hit the water and I plunged to the bottom. I only had to hold my breath for seconds however because I was soon in Jakes arms, warm even in the freezing ocean. He dragged me to the surface and I took a deep breath. I clung to his back as he swam to shore.

Everything was back how it was. The hole in my chest had returned, the voice had been silenced and I resumed my hopeless life without Edward.

well that was it. the first chapter. I'm really hoping to update sooner than I did with my last story. I really hope you all like it! review and tell me if you did! also tell me if i have any annoying spelling and grammar mistakes. they always bug me!

love to you all!!