Chapter 1. Party Like A Rockstar

i felt so infuriated that i could practically explode all over the place. she deliberatly did this to ruin my life for good. i mean sure i love my mom and all but i mean how could she do this to me. i just found out that i was supposed to be betrothed to pack's leader trenton freakin maxwell. yeah i guess you could say i was a little bit upset. i think i had an idea when he started to eye me more during the meetings when my mom was giving her speeches. but honestly marriage wasn't the first thing i had in mind to do before graduation. jill, my wonderful mother, was on a hunt with the other council members since they haven't feed in a while. so, in my little devious mind, i came up with something i think everyone on a saturday night needs - a humongous house party. i called everyone i knew (which wasn't much) and told them to call anyone they knew and get ready for the biggest party of the year. i got dressed in a skinny waist hugging jeans and a orange halter top that showed what little clevage i had. i was so ready for this but when i opened the door there were a load of people i had never even knew existed and that was when it all came to me - large group equals large mess which equals large argument with mom and i was more than willing for that. everyone rushed in and almost immediately started to drink. by the next few hours we had the pukers in the bathroom, couples in the bedrooms, and people grinding on each other. it was a total mess and i loved it. me, the responsible one, only had about two shots but for me that was enough for another stupid idea to pop into my head. i walked, more like wobbled over to the table in a dazed state over to the dining room table. as i was doing this i knew how wrong this was so not me but at that moment i really could care less. i stepped on a chair and hoisted my self on the table and shouted to whole crowd. as soon as i saw everyone was looking in my direction i lifted the hem of my shirt and flashed everyone in the whole vacinty. i heard a lot of whistles, hoots,and hollars. then patrick a.k.a. the most popular boy at school comes over to me and asked me to dance. i sure as hell wouldn't say no, so he took me to the middle of the dance floor where we were dancing to 'Give it up to me' by sean paul. just as it was getting good keiley my best friend who i really didn't want to speak to came up to me and tapped my shoulder. i didn't even turn around then she did it agian. i turned around really irritated that she was ruining my moment when she told me the worst thing that could possibly happen.

" one of your neighbors called the police and they are going to be here in less than five minutes!"

" are you kidding me?! oh my gosh, EVERYONE GET OUT NOW!!" i yelled and nobody listened. so i shut off the stereo and said the cops were coming. they all just started laughing at me. i swear these people must be on some serious crack or something. so i went to plan 'b' i got on the couch and yelled fire. you should have seen these people run. it was worse than stampede of horses. i mean all i could think at that moment was they believe there is a fire when clearly there wasn't (plus it was raining outside) instead of cops. i huried up the stairs and cleared out all the bedrooms, bathrooms, and any other room in house. when everyone was out i heard a knock on the door. i opened it a little bit to see an officer. but the thing was he wasn't just an officer he was one of them.

" you know your mom won't be happy about this you could have jepordized your chance with the mighty leader."

" you mean furry butthole trenton who doesn't even care about me or anything but himself - that leader.?"

he gave me a very cross look and then another car pulled up. i knew what was heading my way, mt. st. helens had nothing on this.the 'officer' just gave me a sly smile and tipped his hat good night. i replied by sticking my tounge out i know childish but i didn't care. he just laughed and went back to the crusier he came in. then very gracefully came my mother behind him. i immediately backed away from the door and sat down on the couch. when i went into the livivng room i noticed the house was realitivly clean. she was quiet and composed and had a blank face. i knew this was going to be ugly. my mother was a very formal kind of person she had fair golden blonde hair that came about shoulder length, blue eyes that you could get lost in, broad lips, and high cheek bones. she was happy most of the time and that left smile creases but she was rarely mad at anybody. watch out ripley i accomplished another daring feat - she was beyond pissed at me. i mean if looks could kill i would have died over a million times slow ans painfully. she very solemly sat down across from me on the love seat. i had my head down and my hands crossed togerther in my lap with my hair in my eyes like a five year old child that got caught with their hand in the cookie jar.

" so have fun" she said this with no emotion oh god what did i get myself into" i was just wondering if my invitation was lost in the mail or something?"

" mo-" she stopped me before i could even start.

" do you honestly hate me this much that you would sacrafice everything i have done for you. i kept you safe, fed you, clothed you, got you out of trouble all the times you weren't thinking. but this... this is so unlike you. i know you don't to be with him but this will not help the cause."

" is that what you think? you think that this all because i don't to marry him? yes that is one important reason but have you even considered it wasn't just that? that this has to do with you? the way you go to the meetings all the time and leave me alone with a bunch of dogs that i don't even know. or the fact that you are doing the same thing to me that you did to dad?"

" what are you-" now it was my time to cut her off.

" you left dad for the pack's sake, the pack's safety, the pack's royality. now you are leaving me for the same reason except of moving you are giving me to them while you watch from sidelines while you know this not what i want in least." by the end i was in histerics.

" i am not" she yelled defensivly

" yes you are and you know it. you just don't want a defected daughter who hasn't changed yet. hell you don't want a daughter who has a sickness at all." i knew that was a low blow but i had to get out what i was felling before i could think.

" that is not what i think and you that i have never treated you any differently then any other person and you are not defected" she spat the word now she was crying" you haven't formed yet because the tumer" she said in a low voice" is slowin the process down. once you are a wolf it will disappear and you will marry trenton." she finalized.

" i bet that is what you tell yourself so you feel better about having a freak misfit as a daughter don't you? say it again and again until you believe it yourself." i hissed then went upstairs to the bathroom, locked the door and slid against it and started to ball my eyes out.

chapter 2

That morning I found myself in my bed, when i turned over alI saw my mother searching through my draws and throwing diferent pieces of clothing in a large red duffle bag.

" What the hell are you doing Jill? Put my shit back." I said getting up and rushing over to my dresser.

She very calmly stated," I'm sending you to your fathers. There is too much going on with the council for me to guide you through your rebel phase. Once I have everything settled and your behavior has altered you may return home, and claim your thrown."

"Mom are you flippin on crack, i will never, let me repeat that never marry that selfish, retarded,dog of a man."

" Either way, this is the end of this discussion get dressed I am driving you to the airport, when you get off your farther will be there with his new girlfriend." she seemed to calm down some then tucked a piece of hair behind her head and went on" i got everything you will need. i will visit in a few months to see if anything has changed. if you have any troubles with anything in that area let me know immediately. i will come down and bring you home." that was about it. i was so shell shocked that i just stood ther for a while doing nothing. finally she told me to get a shower and get dressed.when i walked into the bathroom i turned the water on hot, took off my clothes and slowly stepped in. the warm water felt so distant from my skin that i didn't even realize it was there. my thoughts were so out there. i kept on thinking how badly this decision she made without me could become. i mean sure i love my dad and i visit him every so often on week vacations but never would i think of staying there for any great length of time. what would happen to all my friends, school, not to mention that he has a new girlfriend that i know i won't like. there was an infinate amount of things that could go wrong.

i stepped out of the shower and put on all men our dogs bathrobe. i wiped the foggy mirror of with my hand and for the first time in my life actuaaly looked at my self. i had fire red hair that had a natural wave that turned into curls when wet.it came to below my breast. my lips were nice pink and full and my nose was ad perfect size for my oval shaped head. i had emerald green eyes that were supported by full long lashes and perfectly shaped eyebrows. i guess you could say that i am pretty or good looking phyically but there was something about me that was- a nice way to put it replusive- and i think it was the depressed expression i sported.but the most important thing was the way my eyes were clouded like i had a gray ring around them. i turned away and got dressed in some gray sweatpants, white wife beater, and i heart rome red sweatshirt. i didn't do much with my hair just put it up in a messy ponytail. i grabbed my toiletries and headed downstairs. i met up with my mom; she was sitting on a bench with her legs crossed and hands foled like she a freakin' queen or something. yeah the queen of kiss my -

"are you ready? peter is ready and will take you to the airport i have a meeting with trenton. i hoped i could introduce my good loyal daughter but as you see there were some problems." i swear if there was a mother-slams-daughter award she would come in first place. i just rolled my eyes and pushed my bag up my arm and went to the driver. he took my bags while i got into the car and listened to my ipod. i was listening to simple plan - perfect.

it took us about an hour to get to the airport then another 30 minutes just to get on the plane. finally i got on and i was lucky enought to get the window seat. an old lady came and sat next to me and asked me to help with her bags. i did as she asked and got a thank you and your such a sweet heart then went back to looking out of he window. the ride wasn't boring but it wasn't oh my gosh that was so fun either. i went into a blank state of mind for a while but the turbulance brought me back to the present. after an escruitiating amount of time we finally landed. i was waiting in the lobby for about 5 mins. when my dad finally spotted me. he came with no other than the creature of the black lagoon. i swear this lady had death written all over face. when she greeted me with a fake smile and a i-want-to-have-lots-of-fun hello i knew this was going to be a very slow, painful, merciless death. i gave my dad a hug without a word or sound. tony mcclaster, my dear loving dad, was very happy to see me and to be truthful i was happy to see him too.

"hey dan the man how's it going? we have so much to catch up on and i am sure bonnie will love to get to know you."

"oh i'm sure." he gave my shoulders a squeeze and i gave bonnie the nasiest glare i could with my left side covered by hair so my dad couldn't see. she looked taken back but i could see that she meant war and that spread a smile across my face. at least i know i will have something to do while i am here. dad took his hand off my shoulders and went over to take her hand. i just rolled my eyes and got my bags. tony put all my luggage into the trunk and headed off to the little town of chesireville, connicuit.

it was a good place to condition in because it had less than 5 thousand people, fresh air, and was very quiet. i was on the cross country and track team so this place had a lot of good memories. we arrived at the little cottage house with a broken railing. earlier we had dropped of the old hag women at her hair salon that she worked at. so he had the honor of giving me an unnessary tour of the house once again. this time he took me to the kitchen first instead of the living room. the kitchen looked like martha stuart threw up in it. i knew immediately that she had to go down. there was no way in hell that my dad was going to become a henpecked loser by that wretched woman thing.

" sorry if it smells in here we just took out the trash yesterday."

"well looks like you forgot some". i said while looking at her picture.

"did you say something?"

"no it was nothing. so where am i staying on the couch or what?"

"i am not having you sleep on the couch what kind og person do yuo think i am? we actually have a room set up for you."

" you didn't need to get me a room i would be fine sleeping in the basement with the rats."

"very funny" he said with a smile" come on bonnie worked hard on it. she wanted to show you but it looks like that isn't goingto hapen."

" oh boy can't wait" sarcasm spilled out of mouth as i said this." i guess we will either have to wait or video tape all the excitment and fireworks."

" come on ms. smartass."

" now watch that potttie mouth or bonnie will have to wash out your mouth with floral scented hand soap. you know martha has sale going on so she can stock up."

" now i will send you to the basement." if you havn't noticed i get my funny wits from his side of the family.

" yea i get to meet rupert and cheese agian."

" who are they?"

" my rat buddies from whrn you locked me in the dungeon."

"come on." he grabbed my shoulders and lead upstairs then to the old office. when he opened the door i was literally blinded by the pinks, purples, and frilly things in the room. i screamed hey little girl let have a tea party and ride magical unicorns. i yelled the next few words with out even thinking about it.

" why didn't you tell she had a daughter. wait.. oh my - you got her pregant that's why you are dating her. jeez just spring this on me. i mean hey i know its none of my business but i never took you as a guy who was a one night stander - "

"DANNI i did not get her pregant this is your room and what do you know about one night stands, wait never mind i don't want to know."

" you've got to be kidding me that worse than telling me she's pregant. i want a little sister please."

" oh stop beign so dramtic she did this all for you. you should be thankful."

" thankful that she going to gag me in ga ga goo goo land with all the princesses and unicorns chasing after me saying come join us. if you haven't noticed i have a 1 in front of the 7 fyi. i do not like this... this... i don't know what it is?"

" fine i will leave you here die after you say thank you."

" what kind of farther are you? i thought you loved me traitor!"

"i love you too."

" oh no they are calling to me HELP!!!" i say as i fake being dragged in the room.

" i hope you guys have a nice time. hey maybe you could invite your rat buddies as well. i'm sure they miss your company." he said with a smile.

" you honestly have a black hole where your 'heart' supposed to be."

"that's what they say."

" don't leave me"

" bye with love"

" traitor" so i went in and put my clothes away then decided to go for the lengendary runs. so i got my ipod and a bottle of water to put in my pouch. i went to the bathroom and got everything settled. so i trotted down stairs to the kitchen where my dad was. believe it or not he was doing the dishes. soi went over to him and put my hand on his forehead.

" what are you doing?" he looked at me like i was crazy.

" seeing if you had a fever or some symptoms of a deadly illness; something around that area. because i never seen my dad doing the dishes. so i will kindly ask you to leave and go get the real tony mcclaster." i ended with a smile.

" ha ha very funny. have you know i am actually changing my ways and trying to keep this house clean that bonnie so willing cleaned for me." i rolled my eyes and went to the door. i was just about to walk out when my dad called for me.

" where are you going? are you out for a run?"

" no i am going to wait in the driveway for bonnie to get home. so when she drives in she can run me over and ease my pain."

" do you always have to be so dramtic. i mean come on do you honestly not like it here?"

" oh i have no problem here... wait i take that back i don't like the conditions why i am here. also who i am here with i mean come her. surely you could do a little bit better. i mean how ironic is it that she has blonde hair and blue eyes?" he just laughs at me and continues to do the dishes. so i do just as i said i would. i lay down in the gravel covered drive way. i didn't hear my dad until it was too late. he must have got to his car very quietly because the next thing you know his jalopy of a car is blaring it's horn and i jump 20 feet into the air. i swear the man turned purple from laughing so hard. i just walked off and strode down the road to run. i heard him laughing all the way down the street. to come and think of it i heard alot of things that i never knew i could hear if i just concentrated long and hard enough. what i thought was a jog turned out to be a spirnt and everything blew by me like a green blur. also the smells that i taking in were so different and pungent. i finally noticed that my shoe was untied so i stopped at the edge of the road. that was when i smelled the most intoxiating scent. it was like i had no control of body; i just had to find out what it was. the next thing i knew i was running full speed in the middle of the forest. my senses were going crazy i could hear all the rusles of the rodents and mammals around me, smell all the odors and fragances, see everything with crystal clear vision it was ride. adrealine was pumping through my veins and i couldn't get enough. then out of nowhere my body was overcome with searing heat and my whole body felt like it was melting into something horrendece so i let out the most earpeircing scream. just as quickly as it was there the pain the heat, the melting was gone and now i was on my knees and hands. but when i looked down i saw furry white paws. i so freaked all i was thinking was get outta here so that is what i did. i ran as fast as i could surprisingly i was still on my hands and knees but that didn't phase me as much as the searing pain in my stomach. i was absolutely satrving all of a sudden.

i couldn't believe it but that didn't stop me from finding a hopeless, unlucky bunny rabbit. the rest is a blur for me. what i do remember is a growl behind me that shook the whole ground. i soon found out that i was growwling as well i couldn't believe this. what in the holy world am i doing? i turned around after douvering the poor animal. which i almost puked up at that thought. when i turned around i found three huge wolves all staring at me. i all i thought was that i so screwed and that i should have done so many things differently then what i did. my life decisions flashed before me. there was a puddle in front of me that i stepped in. absent mindingly i looked in it and saw my reflection. the one and only thought was - i am my mother's daughter. a firce snarl came from in front of me and warned me of the danger.