A/N:Basically to start, I know I haven't done really any writting in a while. I also know I promised a sequel to one of my stories. I kind of just failed at that and my ideas for the sequel flopped. I kind of hit a block for a while and stopped updating any stories, having a bunch of unfinished stories on my computer. I took any unfinished stories off the site and I will be starting with this one.

I started to write a story and got pretty in depth with it. Then I realized there was a few holes, so I started to write another story, this one. I finished this one pretty fast, but I still go through add more. The nice part is I already have the sequel more than half written since I started with that one. There may be a third installment, but I have not decided.

This chapter is kind of fast, but I just wanted to get into the actual plot. I am always welcome to ideas because I am always adding more and editing before I post. Besides I'm working on the sequel so ideas are more than welcome.

Well let me know what you think...

Chapter One

I'm awake! I'm alive!

Now I know what I believe inside.

Now it's my time,

I'll do what I want

Cause this is my life

-Skillet

There are two moments that I would have to say define my life and almost ended my life. At least my life when it actually started to matter. I say it that way because everything before Hogwarts was just childhood where my parents made every decision for me. Hogwarts meant freedom, even though my freedom was still in chains with four protective older brothers at school.

These two moments were short in time, but their effects lasted months. I reacted differently in each moment and each had their own repercussions. The first moment was when I found the diary in my cauldron. I didn't know how at the time, but after we left Flourish and Blotts I had a spare book in my cauldron.

Perhaps I was silly and childish, but I kept the book hidden until I got home. Maybe it was because I was the youngest of seven that made me want to hide it. It could be the fact that it was the most girly thing I had ever owned that made it so appealing.

I remember thinking how strange it was that it looked so old and worn, but the pages were empty and crisp as if new. I didn't write in the book for days. I think it was the day before I started Hogwarts that I found his name.

Tom Marvolo Riddle

The name didn't set off any bells or alarms. I never even heard of the surname before. I opened to the first page of the book, finally dipping my quill in ink. I didn't know what to write before, but now I had an idea. I dated the corner of the page before writing a short, simple question.

Who is Tom Riddle?

I was happy with my first entry. I was curious to know who Tom was and why he didn't want this diary. It wasn't a girly one, so it just didn't make sense. I set my quill down and went to close the book, when I realized the ink was disappearing. It was like a slap in the face and I really didn't know what to think. Then Tom responded.

I am. Who are you? How did you end up with my diary?

I really wish I tossed the book out the window or tried to destroy it then. I did think about it for a moment, before another thought crossed my mind. I could write in this diary and I would actually have someone to talk to and receive another persons opinions. I kept the book.

My first year at school Tom Riddle was my best friend. He wasn't a very good friend though, possessing me and forcing me to attack other students. In the end he attempted to kill me in order to bring himself back. Needless to say I made it out alive, but I still believe he took part of me with him when the diary was destroyed. Like he succeeded in killing me in someway.

The second moment that defines my life happened at the end of my fifth year. I was a little less welcoming to this moment, but I would have to say I had as many good times as bad in the repercussions.

I was walking towards the carriages on the last day of school. I was with Harry, Ron and Hermione and in a way I was trying to prove a point. Harry and I had dated for part of the year this year and it had been absolutely amazing. The problem was that he ended things with me, telling me that it was too dangerous for us to be together. He was worried that I would be targeted as his girlfriend and my life would be in danger. He, of course, wouldn't listen to me tell him I didn't mind. I was proving a point by still hanging around the three of them, pretending that it didn't kill me not to be with Harry.

This is all besides the point that I'm trying to explain. The three of them walked in front of me, Hermione walked a little bit behind the two boys. Pansy Parkinson strolled over to them, Daphne Greengrass and Millicent Bullstrode in tow. She walked up to them, forcing them to stop walking.

"Potter, Weasel and Mudblood, the three classmates I'd like to not see return next year." She said with a laugh and I just stood behind them, waiting for the dispute to end. The three of them told her to bugger off and the confrontation continued for a moment longer, before Pansy pushed her way between Hermione and Ron. Instead of walking away, she stopped in front of me.

"Hey Ginny. Have a good summer." She said and that was the moment. I was shocked and speechless. Her voice was so genuine, something I never thought I would say about a Slytherin. I managed to nod with a small smile. She actually smiled, before walking away with her friends. When I looked back over the trio was staring at me, Hermione already asking questions. I was so bewildered that I had nothing to say. Pansy never acknowledge me before, not even to try to insult me.

Hard to believe that changed my life? It didn't change until my birthday over the summer.

Pansy Parkinson was a bitch and she knew she was, making sure everyone else knew that. She was seventeen and the middle child, with a very rich father that gave his children whatever they wanted without a second thought. Even if he did try to put up a fight, he was wrapped so tightly around Pansy's finger that it didn't matter in the end. He did well for a single father though, his wife walking out when their youngest was only a year old.

Pansy had an older brother, Tony, who was nineteen. He worked a simple job that always left him home over holiday breaks so his younger sisters were not alone while their father was away on business.

Their dad was a busy man, always away, and although Tony was left in charge, he also threw awesome parties.

Pansy's sister, Paige, was a year younger than her. She looked a lot like Pansy, both of them looking a lot like the mother that couldn't remember. They both had sleek, black hair and shocking blue eyes. Paige strived to be like her sister, which is exactly how Pansy wanted it.

Paige was even best friends with Astoria Greengrass, younger sister of Daphne Greengrass, Pansy's best friend.

Both the Greengrass girls had gorgeous, blond hair with emerald green eyes. Both were also a little bit of a stereotypical blond, but they weren't stupid. They may not know how you are insulting them, but they will know and they will destroy you slowly.

Their mother is singer and their father is her agent. They spent little time at home and when they were home, they had guests like the weird sisters and Celeste over. They hosted a lot of the balls and extravagant parties for the wizarding community.

The two older girls had been promised into marriage by their mothers, some of the very last planned marriages between purebloods. Pansy was promised to Draco Malfoy, while Daphne was promised to Blaise Zabini. The latter couple started to date when they were fourteen and they were perfect for each other. The first couple didn't click the same way and instead of dating they worked out a way to end it. Draco spoke to his mom and Pansy pleaded with her father. The marriage was called off with the agreement that Draco and Pansy must approve of the others choice in spouse before they would be allowed to marry them.

Blaise was raised by his mom and has attended three of her weddings. He has older and younger half brothers and sisters, though they all look a lot alike. His mothers features were dominating. Blaise had a light shade of flawless, dark skin, with dark hair and almost violet eyes. He is generally a good judge of character and is sometimes, mostly, brutally honest.

I woke the day after my oldest brother's wedding, excitement brewing my stomach. I jumped out of bed, excited because I had plans with Hermione and Harry promised to talk to me today about our relationship. Mione, although were pretty different, is my best friend. I know she may be best friends with Harry and Ron, but were girlfriends and we became closer every time she stayed here over the summer.

Harry, on the other hand, agreed to listen to what I had to say about our relationship. I didn't care if it threatened my life, I wanted to be with him and only him.

I walked over to my wardrobe and opened it. Most of my clothes were baggy on me because they belonged to my brothers before me, although my mom had some sundresses and skirts that she made for me. Hermione would lend me muggle clothes, which I usually ended up keeping because she didn't want them anymore.

I don't know how long I looked into my wardrobe, but I realized after a second that I wasn't really looking. Something was wrong, different from the normal day. I could feel the hairs on my neck stand up and chills go down my spine as I close the wardrobe.

"RON!" I could hear my mom yell from upstairs in his room. It didn't even take me a second to realize what she just realized.

Hermione's side of the room was empty, along with her cot, which was neatly made. Her trunk was gone as well as everything else of hers, except the clothes she had lent me. I felt sick to my stomach as my door burst open, my mom standing there hoping to see them in here with me.

"They left." I muttered, before running over to her and crying into her shoulder. She held me tight and I could feel her sobbing. It's not like we didn't know what they were planning. We knew about it all summer, that they had some mission to complete. The three of them sat down and explained that they would be leaving with Dumbledore, but they couldn't tell us why.

Dumbledore even declined to attend the wedding, probably because my mom would harass him for information like she did the trio. She kept them so busy and far apart, trying to prevent them from leaving at any cost.

I knew they would be leaving sometime, but I chose not to think about it. In all honestly I expected it to be after the wedding and before my birthday because they gave me my presents on Harry's birthday. I, however, did not expect them to actually make plans with me and then just disappear.

Harry had to drink Polyjuice potion at the wedding, which I had to bring to him every hour. He hated it, but it gave us plenty of alone time. This is when we started to talk and he told me we would sit down and talk about it the next day. He said he would try to see it from my perspective and respect my wishes to be together.

Hermione had spent half the night awake with me. We talked and I told her about the fact that Harry and I were going to talk. We made plans to hang out and have a girl's day before I would talk to him that night. Today was supposed to be one of the best days of the summer.

Fuck.

I feel so stupid. So childish for listening to their stories about how they would be here. They all acted so normal that I still couldn't believe it. I didn't expect a warning for when they would leave and I did expect it to be over night, but bloody hell I didn't expect them to make plans with me first!

The following days were hot and miserable. The only time I was alone was when I was in the bathroom. My mom even wanted Luna to stay at the house with me and she thinks Luna is second rate to Hermione, but she does like her. Too bad she's out hunting some creature with her dad.

I was never left alone, Fleur even came over a few times to take me out. That I found I didn't mind so much. I guess she wasn't such a bad choice for a sister.

My birthday finally came, sweet sixteen, but there was no celebrating. The best part of the day was that everyone actually left me alone. It made me wonder if my mom had been worried I would sneak off to join them in whatever it was that they were doing. I was still very bitter, but I was thrilled when my parents went out, letting me spend my birthday alone. I think they got the hint that all I wanted was to be alone.

The house got boring very quickly, which is how I ended up walking down one of the paths by my house. We had a dirt path that cut across our property. One way led to the muggle town, so I took the other one. About fifteen minutes down the path, there was a fork. I knew right would lead me to Luna's, but I haven't gotten a letter from her yet so I took the left path.

I had never been down this way, except with one of my brothers. I did know that there was a rich, wizarding, beach town a while down the path. I never actually been to the town, but my brother Charlie once dated a girl out this way and he told me a lot about it. I knew it would be a long walk, over forty minutes at least, because it was just outside Sidmouth.

It was hotter than ever by the time I reached a small wood. The path ended into the trees, but I knew on the other side is the town. I climbed through the trees and bushes. It was only maybe fifteen feet deep, before I came out the other side. I smiled, the town feeling cooler than it had on the path.

The town was pretty much empty, but there were a few people out. I could tell by the way they dressed that I was way out of my league. They were dressed in the best robes, sending me disgusted looks as I walked around in my jean skirt, tank top and flip flops. The looks didn't bother me because it was hot and if they wanted to suffer in the robes, so be it.

It was about noon, the sun in the middle of the sky, when I stopped in an ice cream parlor. It was one of the last buildings before houses started to appear. Very big, beautiful houses, the sound of waves hitting the beach just behind them.

The shop was empty, with the exception of two workers and two girls sitting near the register. When I walked up to order my simple, strawberry cone, I noticed that the girls were about my age. When I sat down I realized they had to be twins, exactly identical like Fred and George. They didn't seem bothered by my presence and I didn't care if they were because it was crazy hot outside.

The bell above the door chimed as two more girl walked in, talking to themselves. Goosebumps appeared on my arms when I heard the voices, something oddly familiar about them. They both took off their sunglasses and I almost dropped my ice cream. Pansy and Daphne walked up to the two girls sitting three tables away from me.

I felt so stupid again. The trio ran off to stop Voldemort and I landed myself in the snake's pit. I began to plan my escape, before I realized it was too late.

"Ginny?" Pansy said, not sure at first. She smiled, which still worried me because I don't see Slytherin's smile on a daily basis. Sneer or smirk, that's normal. A smile, let alone in my direction, was a different story. "How's your summer?" She asked, sitting next to me. I could hear Daphne talking to the other girls.

"Alright." I mumbled and she frowned.

"Doesn't sound like it." She admitted, before her frown disappeared. "Come hang out with us." She said and I almost choked on my ice cream. Yeah, it's possible.

"I don't think that would be a good idea." I said and her smile disappeared so quickly it kind of freaked me out. She sat back crossing her arms.

"Why? Do I intimidate you?" She asked, but I didn't come up with a response fast enough. "Your hair is gorgeous, a deep, crimson red. It really brings out your chocolate eyes." She said and again I didn't know what to say, but I did speak.

"You've lost me." I said and she smirked, but her eyes were soft so it completely changed the look of her smirk.

"I'm a bitch. You know I am and I know I am." She said and I nodded, before realizing I was nodding. "You amuse me and I'd like to hang out with you. I think we could be good friends." She said and I had to remember not to let my jaw drop open.

"You've never spoke to me before." I came back with and she rolled her eyes a little.

"True. But your shy and I like to figure out who someone is before I waltz up to them and ask them to hang out. No offence, but you're a Weasley so it's a little difficult. I like you though. I think you will fit in with us just fine." She argued back and I really had nothing else to say. She didn't seem to be lying or trying to capture me. I nodded.

I chose not to destroy the diary and I chose to hang out with Pansy.

"Good. Get up." She said, standing and leading me over to the other table. Daphne and the two girls looked up as we walked over. "Sierra, Savannah. This is Ginny. She goes to school with us." She said to them and they both smiled at me.

"Hi." They said together. I noticed that they had highlights in their brown hair. Sierra had blonde highlights, while Savannah had a reddish color. Made it a lot easier to tell them apart.

"This is Sierra and Savannah. They attend Salem Witches Institute in America. They've been vacationing here since we were little." Daphne said as the three of them stood up.

"Let's head to my house. We can find something to do tonight." Pansy said, leading the way out the restaurant. I walked next to Daphne, who was now talking to me. Asking me about what I liked to start conversation. It was weird to find we had quite a few things in common.

We walked up to Pansy's beach house and I tried to hide my awe. The front of the house was gorgeous as it was, trees and exotic flowers all over. I wasn't as big of a reader as Hermione, but I had an urge to just sit under one of the trees with a book.

I followed them up the pebble path and up the front steps to the wrap around porch. The waves behind the house only pulling the look of the house together. We walked into the house and Pansy directed the other girls to take me upstairs.

I followed them up the stairs, noticing a portrait at the top of the stairs. Pansy couldn't be more than five or six years old. Her father was the only parents present, which left me to assume her mother was gone.

I followed them into a room which I assumed was Pansy's. The twins rushed over to the closet and Daphne rushed to the wardrobe, which was over twice the size of mine. They began pulling clothes out, looking at me and then either tossing them on the bed or returning them

"What's going on?" I finally managed to ask.

"We are cleaning out her closets." Sierra said, tossing a lot of green on the bed.

"And filling yours." Savannah said with a smile and I wanted to interject but Daphne caught on.

"It's not charity." Daphne said and I sat down on the bed. "Pansy is my best friend and I see why she wants to be friends with you. If you dress like us, you will fit in better." She said, pulling some shoes out as Pansy walked in.

"Consider it a early or late birthday present." She said, shutting the door, which made me laughed and she quickly picked up on it.

"Today is my birthday." I admitted and her face lit up. The girls began digging deeper in the closet. Pansy walked over to the wardrobe, pulling out an oversized purse. She tossed it on the ground, before pulling out her wand and waving it at the pile of clothes. Piece by piece the clothes began to float towards the bag, shrinking and packing themselves.

"They can handle this. You must meet my brother." She said, walking towards the door and I followed her into the hallway. I never knew Pansy had a brother, but I did know Paige. She was a sixth year with me and was usually in some of my classes with Astoria. They never gave me problems like other girls, but Aria, one of my Gryffindor roommates, said she grew up with them so that's why they didn't bother me.

She knocked on the door she stopped in front of and waited. In a few moments he responded and she walked in, leaving the door open for me to follow her. I walked in and looked around the room. For a minute it was just the two of us in the room, but then the bathroom door opened.

"Hey." Her brother said, walking over to us, smiling. He walked out in a pair of muggle jeans, shirtless and his body well sculpted. His black hair was short and his green eyes were just amazing to see. He was absolutely amazing to look at, but I really forced my self not to stare.

"Hi. I'm Ginny." I said meekly, feeling kind of lame. Pansy smiled.

"I know. Pansy's mentioned you before." He said, looking at me closely. I felt like he was trying to read me, maybe he was. I already seemed like a shy loser and it's the kind of impression I usually give off at first.

"Do you have a name, or do I just call you Pansy's hot brother." I said with my fiery attitude that those closer to me see quite often. He laughed a bit, smiling and nodding his head.

"I can see why Pansy wants you to be her friend." He said and I couldn't help but wonder how much she did actually talk about me. This all seemed a bit weird to me, but so far I had nothing to complain about. "Tony." He said after a moment and I smiled.

"Today just so happens to be Ginny's birthday." Pansy threw in and he smiled.

"Well I don't need a reason to have a party, but that's a good one." He said before looking at Pansy. "Dad shouldn't be home for another few days so its going to be big." He finished with and Pansy nodded, before nodding to the door for us to leave. I turned and left, while she shut the door behind me.

We walked back to her room and this time I noticed a portrait outside of the room. It was a portrait of Pansy that seemed to be done recent because her hair was long in it. The beginning of the last school year her hair was shorter. Now that it was longer again I noticed it was wavy, king of how mine was when it got really long.

"Anna. Sierra." Pansy said as she walked into the room. The twins look up. "You need to meet up with the guys and start inviting people. We have five hours." She said and the girls got up, grabbing their purses and walking out of the room, rushing down the stairs.

"Ginny come sit down." Daphne said, standing next to what looked like Pansy's make up table. I walked over, taking a seat. Pansy walked over spinning me around. "Let your hair grow out. You have a lot of green clothing now because it will go so well with the color red your hair." She said and Pansy rolled her eyes. "She cut all her hair off too and she regretted it." She said gesturing to Pansy. I laughed a little and Pansy smiled, kneeling in front of me.

"I'm going to do your make up and show you exactly how to do it." She said and then looked up to Daphne. "She is great with hair. She will style it for you and show you ways to wear it." She told me and I nodded, before they both set to work.

I don't know how long I sat there, but I began to grow restless. I was excited when they finally finished and happy to see my make up wasn't done dark. It was a light, natural look. I loved it and my hair looked amazing.

"Now we just have to find you a perfect guy like mine." Daphne said and Pansy rolled her eyes.

"Not everyone will find the person they are supposed to be with in school." She said, opening her closet and looking into it. "Daphne and Blaise were an arranged marriage, one of the last ones ever." She said, reaching in and pulling out a little green sundress. She turned around and looked at me. "It's sickening how perfect they are together." She said, handing me the dress.

"As opposed to Pansy who was betrothed to Draco and they weaseled their way out of it." Daphne said and Pansy sighed, sitting down on her bed.

"We're friends and we were young and didn't want our lives decided for us." She said, pausing. "Besides Draco's mom can't say no to him and my dad doesn't care since my mom planned it." She said, waving it off and I nodded, looking down at the dress. "The point is we are young. Don't go looking for love just yet." Pansy said, directing me to the bathroom. "Go change." She said and I nodded, heading to the bathroom.

The sun dress was short, mid thigh length, but not too short. It was silk material and it fit me a little awkwardly, but I walked out any way. Pansy jumped up from her bed.

"Oh. I'll fix that." Pansy said, turning me around. She pulled out her wand and adjusted my bra, pushing my chest up and together. The dress fit so much better. "I can show you the spell another time." She told me and I looked in the mirror. I was thrilled with how I looked.

"I'm going to go home and change. I'll be back." Daphne said, hopping out of the chair I had been sitting in and left.

Pansy started to do her make up and I had questions I wanted to ask now that it was just the two of us.

"Your brother said you've mentioned me before." I said after a few moments. She quickly turned around.

"I was worried you might find that weird." She admitted. "I talk to my brother about everything, we're closer than I am with Paige, who tries to be just like me." She said, which really didn't answer my question. She continued. "I don't have many girlfriends. Daphne is the only one who is a girl I consider a friend. The other girls I know are just that. They are just girls. Your different though. You are someone I can get along with." She confessed and I nodded. It was a good enough answer for me because Hermione and Luna were my only real girlfriends.

"Sorry I was just curious." I said and she smiled before going back to her make up.

"Don't be. I wouldn't hesitate to ask you a question and you shouldn't." She said, pausing and then speaking again, "I am going to tell you exactly what to do to survive in our world so you need to ask me questions so I know how to help you." She said and I nodded again. I felt like I was in class. Only I was more interested.

"Why shouldn't I look for love?" I asked and I could see her smiling in the mirror.

"Because guys are not looking for love. We are young and you should be learning new ways to love yourself totally and exceptionally. Not compromising to make any man happy, but focusing on your own happiness and well being." She paused, taking a breath, a little more calmer now. "True love can be attained but it starts within ourselves first. Do Not Seek Love, let it come and find you. Blaise and Daphne are rare." She said, finishing up her make up and then walking over to me. "What else is on your mind?" She asked, taking a seat on the bed.

"Nothing right now." I said and she nodded.

"Okay then I'm going to explain some basics that will make everything easier for you tonight." She said and I nodded. I was nodding a lot.

"Tips and hints. I got it." I said and she smiled.

"Obviously there are times where you need to be controlling." She said to start off. "But not all the time. You must remain in control of every situation, but not show your controlling it. If you start to lose control, getting out of the situation is the best option." She instructed me.

"Confusing, but I got it." I got in quickly before she continued.

"You have to be able to lie without hesitation and able to make up stories on the spot." She said and I looked a bit worried. I was a horrible liar, unless I was lying to Umbridge. "We can work on it later. Everyone will be drunk tonight so they won't notice." She said, noticing my discomfort.

"I should know how to read people, too." I said and she practically hugged me. "I noticed your brother and you trying to read me." I said and she smiled.

"You learn so well." She said and then continued. "Any guy were spending time with should be a gentleman and if there not, they won't last. Don't be modest and if someone compliments you just be thankful. Blushing a little is fine though, that's nothing to worry about." She pointed out and I listened closely.

"That may take some work. I'm on the shy side." I admitted and she nodded, obviously noticing. She continued and I listened closely to everything she said.