The heart of Fuji Syuusuke was constantly aching.
Pain, without love
And yet…He never did anything to improve his situation. He continuously placed himself in these sorts of situations.
Pain, I can't get enough
Everyone knew that Fuji enjoyed watching other people suffer…But himself?
Pain, I like it rough
But Fuji had his reasons…Reasons that he chose to keep to himself. Fuji, however, was not above dropping hints, only confusing people more…
"Because anything's better than acting like him."
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Tezuka Kunimitsu was quite a stoic person. It was extremely difficult for one to read his emotions…Which was good. His spirits were not the best lately.
You're sick of feeling down
He had begun to notice turmoil amongst his peers, as well. Momoshiro and Kaidoh had been going at it more often. Kawamura had been worrying about his father and their business. Oishi and Eiji's relationship had been on the rocks. Inui's grades were lower than he'd anticipated…his data was slipping. Echizen had decided to put his relationship with Sakuno on hiatus.
You're not the only one
The only person seemingly unaffected by this sad spell was Fuji. Tezuka was beginning to enjoy Fuji's presence a bit more now- taking it as far as walking the tensai home. He found that happiness was slowly finding him in those moments.
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
As well as he hid it, things were not perfect with Fuji. Tension was continually growing between him and Yuta. Yumiko begun to spend more time away from home. His mother was deeply missing their father.
This life is filled with hurt
Things that would normally have raised Fuji's spirits seemed meaningless now. Photography, billiards, his cacti, even tennis…nothing worked. Only the moments he spent with him meant anything. He needed to do something.
When happiness doesn't work
"Tezuka."
This was his moment.
"I need to tell you something."
He hesitated.
"You can tell me anything, Fuji." Tezuka said to reassure his friend.
Trust me and take my hand
Fuji gave him a small smile.
"It can wait."
Tezuka was puzzled, but didn't show it. Still…Fuji knew.
When the lights go out you will understand
Days later, Fuji regretted waiting.
Tezuka regretted not taking action.
The both of them seemed addicted to
Pain
Without love
Pain
I can't get enough
Pain
I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Tezuka couldn't take it any longer. This hollow feeling inside his heart; feeling as though it was being torn apart…It infuriated him.
Anger and agony
The worst part was that Tezuka knew why he was feeling this way…And his suffering now was better than the alternative.
Are better than misery
"Tezuka…"
Here was his chance.
"Yes, Fuji?"
Fuji took the captain's hand, and Tezuka immediately tensed.
Trust me, I've got a plan
Both pairs of eyes closed as Fuji placed his mouth over Tezuka's.
When the lights go off you will understand
Fuji pulled away. Tezuka said nothing to the tensai for the rest of the walk.
Fuji knew beforehand that his action would only make his situation more uncomfortable.
It was strange…he had become used to the
Pain
Without love
Pain
I can't get enough
Pain
I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel
Pain
Their next walk home was even more awkward, considering what had happened previously.
Tezuka now knew that Fuji like him. What he didn't know was what to do.
I know
Tezuka knew how hard it must've been for Fuji to confess the way he had.
That you're wounded
It was perfect. He liked Fuji, and now he knew that Fuji liked him back.
Now how did he let Fuji know how he felt?
You know
Fuji was scared. Would Tezuka reject him? Would things never be the same between the tensai and his buchou?
It was as if Tezuka had sensed his worry, for he had done what was necessary at that moment.
He embraced Fuji tightly.
That I'm here to save you
Fuji slipped his arms around Tezuka.
You know
Tezuka loosened his grip so that he could return the kiss that Fuji had given him but days ago.
I'm always here for you
Both smiled while looking into each others eyes.
I know
Holding hands, the two continued walking.
That you'll thank me later
They had each other now. Whatever was thrown at them, they would now be able to handle it with their unique affinity to
Pain