AN: Just a little erisol/soleri one-shot drabble, thinking about maybe making it two-shot with Sollux's point of view. Thoughts? Also reviews are love, be a dear and drop off one will you?
Your name is Eridan Ampoura and you used to hate a man called Sollux Captor.
You used to hate him, and not even in that way.
He stole fef from you, he took your only light, your only hope and then teased you with her.
Chatting there, on the horn pile, putting her so agonisingly close and yet impossible to reach and you hated him for it.
You hated his eyes, his double horns, his split tongue.
You hated how his tongue poked out when he was working on a new line of coding.
You hated how when someone complained about his alchemised grubloaf sparks would fly out from behind his glasses.
You hated how sometimes, when he was talking to fef his face would soften and he would smile at her like he really meant it.
You hated how you started to notice these things.
You hated how whenever you saw him you felt an extreme sense of longing.
You hated how when you brushed against him you felt sparks fly across your skin that definitely was not his psionics.
You hated how you started going out of your way just to feel those sparks.
You hated how when he insulted you, you would stand in front of the mirror and try to change.
You hated it when he talked to you with something that wasn't distaste your beat pump would flutter.
You hated it when he yelled at you or insulted you that your chest began to ache.
You hated how he was able to bring you to tears with a single blow.
You hated what was happening to you.
What you felt for him, what you feel for him was not and is not defined by the quadrants, and it terrified you.
You decided to talk to one of the humans about it, the green text one called Jade.
She figured out what was wrong, and you hated it.
You had fallen in human love with Sollux Captor, and it was hell.
Love made you think of practically nothing but him.
Love made you feel so heavy you wold fall through the floor and end up adrift in the void of space.
Love made you feel so light that you'd never fell the ground beneath your feet again.
Love killed you.
You were fighting Bec Noir, everyone was, and he went for Sol.
He went for Sol and you got in the way.
He cut you in two, straight down the middle, you closed you eyes as he came and smiled, you've never been happier.
When you opened your eyes you saw Sol mercilessly destroying him with his psionics, your bloodied corpse before his feet and smiled.
Sol was safe, he would be able to be with fef. He would be happy.
He would be happy, and with that thought a weight that you never knew was there was lifted and the image faded, and you remembered something Jade told you about love '…and sometimes it's this feeling, this need to make the other person happy…'
A man called Sollux Captor was going to be happy, safe and happy, and that's all you needed.
You found yourself in your hive, in your dream bubble, with the knowledge that the man you loved would be safe and happy, and despite the tears that trickled down from your white lifeless eyes, you've never been happier.