Disclaimer - I do not own Final Fantasy X, any of it's characters or anything to do with Square-Enix. If I did, I don't think I'd need to still be in school.

So I was thinking to myself as I tidied my room, like you do, what could I do to make up for being such a terrible updater? Luckily I happened to find my old writing book from when I was about 11 or 12, so I thought why not post some stuff out of here. I think this is probably the best thing out of my book, and I'm not entirely sure if I'll continue with it, but if anyone wants me to, just say the word and I'll try. Enjoy. Jess X

Prologue

Life is never easy, nor is it ever fair.

You twist and turn down many paths hoping to reach happiness, only to find sadness instead.

We take all that life throws at us: the good; the bad; the ups; and the downs.

We know that what doesn't kill us only makes us stronger, and that we learn from our mistakes.

People will not always be there for you and eventually you will have to go alone.

You spend the first years of your life preparing for what is to come. When it comes you spend time preparing for the afterlife. And in the afterlife ... you spend time reminiscing about your previous life.

Yet, despite all this preparing, I don't think I'll ever completely get over this. Wandering through life like a lost child without a hand to hold.

You're gone, I'm alone and I just have to carry on. But there is something inside me that tells me not to let go. Not just yet.

You said you'd stay with me always. Sometimes it doesn't feel like that, which is why I'm doing this. I will write to you about everything that happens to me, telling you how I feel, what I say and what I do. I don't know if you can see or hear me. I don't know if you'll ever read this. Somehow though, it will bring us closer together.

I'll start with the day everything changed. The day we defeated Sin. The day you disappeared.

I'll start with Day 0.

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AN - I seem to write depressing stuff better than I write happy stuff. Hope you liked it. If you did, move onto the first real chapter.