Disclaimer: I do not own Storm Hawks or the song "Tonight I Wanna Cry". Storm Hawks is property of Nerd Corps and "Tonight I Wanna Cry" is a country song performed by Keith Urban.

Storm Hawks—Tonight I Wanna Cry

By WhispertheWolf

Alone in this house again tonight.

I sighed as I stared off into space and thought about you. I remembered very plainly the day I fell in love. It wasn't that long ago, back when the Interceptors were at their peak. You said you loved me, too. But then that one battle ruined it. I couldn't save the others. I couldn't save you. And I should have. What kind of Sky Knight can't even save her own squadron?

I loved you with all my heart. And I still do.

I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine.

Alcohol numbs the pain temporarily. Sure, it doesn't fix the problem, but nothing will at this point. Perhaps that will harm me in the end. I don't care. I don't know what to do anymore. Everywhere I look I see your face. I wish it could have worked.

There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me.

The way that it was and could have been surrounds me.

I was invited into another squadron not long ago. But I couldn't do it. Their Sky Knight was so much like you, so young and full of life. And to join another squadron feels wrong. I can't just stay and be happy, ignoring everything we went through together.

I'll never get over you walkin' away.

I'm a Sky Knight. I always had too much pride. I always had to be strong. But now, as I think about you and take another sip of the wine…

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show,

And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' self-control,

But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain,

To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain,

From my eyes.

Tonight I wanna cry.

I blink my eyes, but I can't seem to make the tears come. I always fought against them before, whether they came in sadness or pain. But I've never experienced such sadness as this. Still, I can't cry.

My eyes turn on the radio.

Would it help if I turned a sad song on?

"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone,

Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters.

But that will only make me feel worse. Yet I can't get over it if I don't confront it.

It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better,

But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way.

How could I have saved you? If I dwell on that, I'll go crazy. It's over. It's done. You're gone.

I hope I have no visitors to come in and see my like this. Everyone expects me to be tough. To give in to my sadness would be weakness. But then, what do I care? I'm past the point of caring.

I need another drink.

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show,

And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' self-control,

But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain,

To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain,

From my eyes.

Tonight I wanna cry.

I should thank you. You helped me open myself up, to express my feelings no matter how painful. So pass the bottle. Forget my pride. My glass is empty, and I'm still feeling the pain.

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show,

And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' self-control,

But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain,

To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain,

From my eyes.

Tonight I wanna cry.

What's that? There's something wet on my face. Is the roof leaking?

No. It's a tear.

I need to start writing happy things again. Seriously. Please review!