DISCLAIMER:

I do not own or make any profit from FAKE or the music mentioned in this fictional story.

RATED:

PG 13+

STATUS:

Complete

SUMMARY:

Who was she?

NOTE:

This story was inspired by "Oh, Mother" performed by Christina Aguilera

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: Oh, Mother: Prologue :

She was so sick of believing the lies and trying to hide
Covering the cuts and bruises
So tired of defending her life, she could have died
Fighting for the lives of her children

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"Have you ever wondered about your birth mother? Who she was? What she looked like?" Ryo asked quietly into the darkened room.

Dee nuzzled his face closer into the broad chest of his Fiancé, the unexpected question catching him off guard. He remained silent, hoping to fain sleep and not have to answer the question that may spark an uncomfortable conversation over a topic he had been trying to avoid for a long time.

"Well?" Ryo pushed gently, resting his cheek against the silken, raven locks of his lover. He knew that Dee was awake and that he was trying to avoid the question asked of him.

"Not since I was a kid," Dee answered quietly.

He willed his thoughts to wander, his emerald eyes gazing at the Onyx engagement ring on his finger, beautiful in design with lovely silver intricate detail; yet, still masculine. It matched his lover's eyes. On their second anniversary since becoming an official couple, Ryo had proposed to him under the same tree where they first kissed; which was a huge surprise because he figured he would be the one doing the proposing; but hey, he wasn't complaining. He remembered Ryo being really anxious that day, trying to convince Dee into taking a stroll to the park. The memory made him smile.

His mind wandered back to the question Ryo had asked him; and out of curiosity, he wanted to find out why, "Why do you ask?"

Ryo sighed and wrapped his arms tighter around his Fiancé, his eyes gazing out the window of their bedroom towards the star covered sky, "I just…I would have loved to have met the person who brought you into this world and into my life. I wish I could have the chance to thank them. I know my parents would have loved you, Dee."

Dee felt tears stinging his eyes and tilted his head up to see Ryo's eyes also clouded with tears and still gazing out into the night sky. He reached up a hand and placed it on Ryo's cheek, bringing his face to meet his own, "Oh baby, I know they would have been happy for us. I already love them for bringing you to me." With that, Dee brought their faces closer together so he could place a soft kiss on Ryo's lips.

Ryo smiled, catching the glint of Dee's engagement ring in the corner of his eye from Dee's hand that still lay on his cheek. He reached up and placed his hand over Dee's, his own Emerald engagement ring shining brilliantly next to Dee's. He entwined their fingers and guided their holding hands to his chest.

"I used to have this strange dream almost every night when I was young…" Dee whispered quietly.

Ryo felt Dee's hand slightly squeezing his own and he knew that Dee was about to share something from his past that had weighed on him greatly.

"There was this shadow that always seemed to loom over me. I could make out that it was the silhouette of a person. I was never sure why it was there; and being a kid, it always used to scare the hell out of me. I assumed it was there to hurt me." Dee stopped briefly, the sudden memory of that dream flooding back in full force. He felt his lovers arm tightening around his shoulder, comforting him and giving him the strength to continue.

"The dreams seemed to last for only a few moments. Each time, the shadow moved in closer. Before it could do anything more, I would wake up crying. Mother would hear me and come into my room to comfort me. Her soft voice would eventually lull me back to sleep. After that, she ended up watching over me every night until the dreams stopped. I was probably ten years old when they did and I remember that last dream ending differently from the rest. That same shadow loomed over me; and when it came closer, I felt that same fear rush through me. Then suddenly, I felt something soft being pressed against my forehead, like a kiss. I suddenly felt safe…and loved. A voice then broke into the darkness, a woman's voice; soft and melodic. She whispered to me then, and I have never forgotten those words…"

"What did she say?" Ryo inquired gently when Dee stopped speaking for a few moments.

"Never forget me." Dee answered quietly.

"What do you think that means?" Ryo asked

Dee shrugged slightly, "I told Mother about that last dream and asked her what she thought. She truly believes it was an angel watching over me."

"What do you believe?"

"I think it was an angel, and that somehow, I knew who she was. Even now, I feel it. Her voice, her presence…" Dee suddenly fell silent.

Ryo felt a sudden change in his lover, a sense of sadness. Ryo looked down into Dee's eyes and saw something there that Dee rarely allowed to show…vulnerability. At that moment, Dee looked much younger; like a lost child.

"Dee…"

"I'm okay Ryo." Dee interrupted gently, "I've accepted my past and I have never regretted anything that has happened in my life. Whomever my parents were; I have a feeling that they did love me and only did what they thought was the best for me. I love my life…now and even then. It has made me who I am today. It has brought me to you. Let's focus on now and on our future…okay?"

Ryo smiled and nodded, "Okay."

Ryo suddenly found himself being pulled over and on top by Dee. He felt Dee wrapping his long legs around his waist and felt Dee's breath trailing a path along his neck to his ear.

"Make love to me." Dee whispered into that same ear.

Ryo shivered at Dee's words, the love he felt for him running through his veins like a powerful torrent. Like Dee, Ryo could never deny him…

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