Dear Readers! I've been in love with the idea of Prim and Rory together! If you've read Holding On it will probably make more sense, maybe. . . idk... enjoy! -Hannah (:
Prim POV
The whistle sounds and the train rolls away, I can't control my emotions anymore. I promised myself I would be strong, for Katniss, but I can't go through this again. My sadness takes over and I sob loudly. I don't even care if people stare me down, or feel sympathy. I just want to be alone. Of course I don't get that, it's too much to ask for. Hazel finds her way through the crowd to comfort us. I spot Rory across the square, he makes eye contact and starts mouthing something to me. "Are you ok?" is what I'm guessing, I just roll my eyes and make my way back to the Victors Village.
I feel bad of how I shut Rory out, but I feel like a different person when Katniss leaves, the first time she left I had more sanity, but now, I think I'm insane. The day is gray and cold, just like my mood, I don't think anything can cheer me up today. When I finally make it to my house I'm greeted by buttercup. He gives me a crusty meow.
"Hi Baby!" I say in my childish voice to him, maybe one thing will always make me happy. I smile and set him down. All I feel like doing is sleeping, I'm always worrying about people, I never have time to sleep anymore. Maybe just a fifteen minute nap won't hurt.
Rory POV
It's a gray cold morning and the train has just pulled out of the station. This is so unfair to the people, especially the Everdeen's. They didn't let anyone say good bye, not even the families and friends! I know that Gale is pissed, I still don't know what he feels for Katniss, but I know it's something real.
I see my mother walking over to the Everdeens. She just needs to leave them alone, but my mother can't help her instincts. I look over at Prim, I've never seen her delicate eyes cry before. She's sobbing loudly, not caring who watches, I don't blame her. She's been so strong over the last year, she obviously is broken. Deep inside, she can't always be happy little Prim all the time.
We make eye contact, and the first thing that comes to my mind is to ask her if she's ok. Prim rolls her eyes at me and walks away. Nice one Rory, you made her even more upset. I can't blame her though, I understand she doesn't want to talk. I just can't help myself, I want to know she's ok. Why though? I don't have feelings for her, she's my best friend, this can't be like a Gale and Katniss thing right? It always ends badly.
I turn and see Gale and Madge Undersee…. Hugging? I thought he hated her, well, envied her. I know how Gale feels about Merchants. He hates them, why would he ever make physical contact with one?
"Ok guys, let's go, I think it might rain soon." My mother says walking over to us. She calls over Gale, and leads us back to the house. I walk slowly until I'm at Gale's walking pace.
"So, I saw you with the Mayors Daughter."
"Yeah, so what." I know I'm probably pushing his buttons but so what? I'm too curious.
"Well, don't you like, HATE the Mayor and his daughter?" Gale glares at me,
"Maybe I want to give her a chance? Ever think of that. You little snoop." I think this conversation is done here. I run up to my mom and we walk home.
Prim POV
I wake up an hour and a half later, crap, I haven't checked on my mother.
"Mom!" my voice echoes through the giant house.
"Oh Prim, you're awake?" my mother asks quietly walking down the stairs, her eyes are puffy and red. She's been crying.
"Oh mom." I run into her arms, she giggles lightly.
"Hey… what's wrong?" she lifts up my chin,
"I….. I don't know." she leads me to the couch in the living room. "I mean… I, I don't want to go through this again, always worrying."
"You know what you need?"
"What."
"A friend, why don't you hang out with the Hawthorne boys?" after the way I treated Rory? I don't know if he wants to talk to me.
"I don't know about that…. "
"Ah c'mon sweetie, give em a chance. Well tomorrow anyways, too cold for right now. How bout I make some dinner."
"Actually, I'm still pretty tired, I think I'm just gonna hit the sack." she nods, and I walk upstairs to my room. Why is Rory on my mind? Yea sure, I need to apologize, but there's something else. Deep inside, what is it?
Sunday Morning.
Prim POV
When I wake up it's already 2 in the afternoon. I never sleep in! Poor buttercup didn't get breakfast or lunch, he won't be snuggly tonight. I walk down stairs and see a plate of toast, it has probably been sitting there for awhile now, I'm not very hungry either. I find my mom in the living room, the television has been left on and she's asleep on the couch. She must have been watching the Quarter Quell. I refused to watch them this time. Too many close calls.
I need to apologize to Rory, so I decide to leave a note for mom.
Mom,
I'm going out, to find a "Friend" sorry I didn't eat breakfast, you can have it if you want.
Love Primrose.
I put the note on top of my mothers forehead, she'll wake up with a surprise. I laugh to myself, and walk out the door. It's a little warmer today but there is still a chill breeze. I'm in the Seam now, looking for any sign of Rory, he hates staying at his house on Sundays.
Instead of Rory I happen to see Madge Undersee walking the Seam? What is she doing here? It's not likely to see her wandering around here, I bet the locals are giving her crap. I feel bad for her, I start walking over to her and BAM she runs into Gale, the fall to the ground, her on top of him. Everyone one around is snickering now, I will just let those two be.
I finally make it to the Hawthorne resident, I don't know how Rory will react when he sees me. I feel incredibly guilty. I take a deep breath, and knock on the door lightly. Rory answers the door, his face immediately lights up when he sees me.
"Prim hey! What's up?" he says smiling, his smile always gets me, his teeth are nice and straight, not a single gap between them.
"Um, I need to talk to you." I mumble quietly,
"Sure thing, lemme just grab my jacket." he walks into his house. I feel so bad, he was so happy to see me, and I just shut him out. I hope he takes my apology sincerely. He comes back with his blue hoodie.
"Ready?" I nod silently and he leads us to the meadow. We always meet in the meadow when we hang out. It's like our own little place, kind of what Gale and Katniss have with the woods. We sit down in a bunch of flowers.
"So What's up? Is something bothering you?" Rory asks me, his deep gray eyes boring into mine.
"Yeah, I wanted to apologize from yesterday." I'm looking down now, too ashamed to make eye contact.
"For what?"
"The way I rolled my eyes at you, you were just making sure I was ok, and I treated you like dirt, I'm truly sorry." Rory starts bubbling up with laughter. "What's so funny!" does he think this is a joke?
"I just think it's funny how you were really concerned about my feelings. I should've minded my own business." he smiles.
"Of course I was concerned Rory! I lov-" I stop, that was a close one, I don't love Rory, only as a friend. Just a friend.
"You what?" Rory looks completely baffled, I almost said the L word to him!
"I… I care about you Rory." I say looking into his eyes, I can feel myself blushing. What are the feelings? I've known Rory since I was a baby. We were just friends, besides Gale and Katniss have their own little thing, we would just look like immature copiers.
"Do you want me to walk you home?" I think I might of hurt his feelings, I mean, I don't know what Rory feels for me. I'm too afraid to ask him, one decision could ruin our beautiful friendship.
"That would be nice, yeah." Rory helps me up, and walks me home.
Rory POV
After I walked Prim home, I had so much on my mind, I heard her, she almost said it. The "L" word, at that point I realized that I do love Prim. Not just as a friend, I want to be more than friends now. When I get to my house, Gale isn't home yet, it's around six and my mom has dinner on the stove. I'm not hungry at all, and decide to take a nap.
When I wake up Gale is home, he's sitting on the other couch, and looks like he's in a deep concentration. Like he just learned a secret, that he can't tell anyone.
"Keepin' something from me bro?" Gale instantly looks up, he chuckles.
"Go back to bed you little booger, it's late enough already. He's right, I manage a smile before sleep over comes me.
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