Ten months later, and they still feel her absence.

It's a giant gaping hole of longing in their chests, and there's that constant feeling of pleasecomebackpleasecomebackpleasecomeback.

At least sometimes they talk, and then there are moments where they wonder if they really did just speak to her, or was my mind playing tricks on me?

It's ridiculous to think that one little event can cause such a spiral, but at the end of the day, it isn't about what happened, but it's about imissyouwhereareyoupleasecomeback.

At least he knows she's safe. It's those daily calls, and sometimes it feels like she's barely there, like she's holding on by a thread; and he hears her tinkering laugh, and he knows that you'rehereyou'resafeyou'reokay.

So that night when he doesn't get her call, he knows something isn't right. There's something wrong; nothing would make her miss these calls. He tries to call her – nothing. He texts her – nothing.

He doesn't even get nothing the next day. No notice from her, absolutely nada.

That night, though, he gets a call, it's just that it isn't from her.

He's never realized exactly how much they meant to her, especially him, until he's told that he was listed as her immediate family.

Oh god, pleasecomeback.

So to anyone who's seen me on here before, hey guys. So, there's been a lack of writing from me - not just uploading, but just writing for the NCIS fandom in general. I think Cote's departure played a large part in that - I remember what got me hooked onto the show was the relationship between Tony and Ziva. Once you lose inspiration to write, it's really hard to get that drive back.

That being said, I think that this might actually be one of my last NCIS stories. Unless one day I feel really inspired or unless I feel incredibly nostalgic, I don't think I'll be writing for NCIS or posting on here any longer.

Also, I realized a few hours ago that today marks the 'one year anniversary' of the day that Cote's departure was announced, and this was thrown together at 1AM this morning, so I guess that the date which I'm uploading this on is rather…apt.

It's crazy to think that I've been writing here since I was 13, and I'm 16 now. It's been an incredible time writing for such an amazing fandom, but this is it for now. I don't want to think of this as a goodbye fic, I just like to think of this as… 'see you guys later' kind of fic. There's a lot of fandoms that I'm caught up in now, and it's like how it was when I first joined this one. Hey, if any of you watch/love/adore Dancing With The Stars, Pretty Little Liars, and shows like those, then maybe you'll find my stories again - I've been writing for those fandoms more than this (:

The NCIS fandom has quite truly been amazing and I've met some of the most amazing people here. Especially thankful for people like Sophie, Whitney, Sharmane, and Lexie - they're some of the most amazing people you'll find in this fandom

So yeah, I guess this is it for now! I still want to know what you guys thought of this story though, because quite frankly, when I was writing this, I had no idea where I was going with this - it's also very different from the way I would normally write. Tweet me/PM me/leave a review of what you think, because I'm honestly quite curious! I have the places you'll find me linked in my profile - I've edited it heavily.

So yeah, stopping here since my A/N is longer than the fic itself HAHAHA. Much love to the fandom, and see you all next time!

love, manda