No.1
"A time before the flower bloomed."
The humidity drenched us both in sweat. Raining on a summer afternoon will do that to your body. I didn't mind the humidity though; I was too distracted for it to annoy me, anyway. Sasuke seemed to mind it though, with that scowl he likes to wear so much. He was sitting on one of the mattresses students use for high jumping. The sport was a recent addition to the school so only a few mattresses had been bought. We were carrying them all to the school's gym storage when the downpour came down. The place is so far away from the main school building we'd have catch a cold if we ran all the way there.
"We're skipping class."
I say to ease the tension. We were both alone in a, basically, large box. There was only the door in the front and a small window in the back, too high for any of us to reach. The walls were a bit moldy, gray painted cement.
"We could get in trouble."
No response. Damn this is irritating me. I can't seem to crack the shell, why am I so awkward?
"Worst things could happen." He says plainly.
My heart jumps to my throat and springs out of my chest. I was not expecting a single word from him. What made him talk? Now it'll be impossible for me to communicate, I'm way too nervous. My ears feel really hot; I hope my blushing isn't obvious. That would be the death of me.
"Sakura?"
I'm over. I have ascended to the heavens; my life is complete. Hearing him say my name gave me goosebumps and a fickle warmness in my belly. I tried to be calm and answer as nonchalantly as I can.
"Yes?"
"The front of your shirt is unbuttoned."
First all I could hear was a buzz. After that I was so flustered I couldn't think straight anymore. I hurried and fixed that horrible accident and settled as far away from his as possible. But then the most wonderful thing happened. He laughed, only for a second, but he was smiling. I was dazed and there was only one thing I was thinking of.
"I love you." I say looking at his eyes. He flinched, not expecting what I just said.
I thought I'd be terrified of this moment, no, I didn't think this moment would even happen. I was so proud of myself I felt elated. Somehow I couldn't imagine a better moment than this. If he rejects me, I'll move on and finally find my path in life.
"I'm leaving the country when we graduate."
Suddenly my wings began to falter.
"I'll be gone for years; I won't know when I'll come back."
I walked over to his side and sat down beside him, taking his hand in mine.
"It's useless for you to love me. We'll never see each other after graduation."
My heart sank at the end of his words. I felt like a boulder sinking deeper and deeper into the depths of the ocean. Water lines decorated my cheeks and a few drops of tears dissolved on my shirt.
"Don't say it'll be useless, please." I say with a huge lump in my throat. It was hard holding it in, but I didn't let myself cry my heart out. Not here.
"Can you kiss me? I promise I won't bother you ever again. Just please let me have this memory."
Sasuke looked my crying, ugly, face with an apathetic expression. He caressed my cheeks with both hands and wiped away my tears. I looked into his eyes but I found no warmth in them. I immediately regretted it. I didn't know if this was what I wanted. I did want him to kiss me, but out of love. I suppose I couldn't ask him to love me, I could, but it's not like he would just instantly love me. Yes, I actually don't care. The warm feeling I had in my stomach before grew, and all I wanted anymore was his touch.
He pulled me closer to his face and pressed his lips against mine. Everything seized to exist in that one moment. My entire body screamed for more and when I opened my eyes, Sasuke was saying the same thing. I doubt it's out of love, but I've forgotten all about it already. I took a leap of faith and kissed him again in the same way he kissed me. I didn't know anything about kissing, I hadn't thought about it until we were stuck in the storage room.
He kissed me back with a slightly parted mouth, sucking my lips for a split second. I jerked back, startled.
"You were being greedy." He said.
I blushed intensely and a strange hot sensation started to boil below my stomach. I was a little scared of continuing but I was even more scared of regretting it later if I didn't do it. Sasuke sighed and sat up on the mattress. He was sitting crossed legs and staring at me. I had an insane urge to sit on his lap, and without thinking I did as my body commanded. Sasuke furrowed his brows but before he could protest I kissed his mouth shut. I wrapped my arms around his neck and just when I was about to give up he kissed me back. This time he licked my lips with his tongue and I felt my whole body electrify. He closed his arms around my back, holding me tightly against his body. We were both sweating from the humidity and the temperature was as hot as it always was in summer, but I found no warmth behind his actions.
The rain kept pouring down long after the last two classes ended. It was exactly at 4:11pm that the day finally cleared out. We stayed silent for a few minutes after we were free. I ignored what my brain was telling before me and let my body join with his. At first, all I wanted was to confess, but then after I confessed I wanted more. I wanted to touch him, to kiss him. Everything developed from there and it ended in something deeper than what I expected. At least for me it was. I won't regret what we did, though what will always dishearten me is that he didn't have any affection for me whilst doing it.
After we graduate I won't ever see him again, according to what he told me. It's alright in some ways. That just means I'll be able to concentrate on becoming a doctor. I'll study hard and maybe one day I'll be a professional. That day may have left a bittersweet memory that I won't ever forget, but I'll treasure it. On the day of our graduation I'll draw an infinite sign on one of the walls. Sasuke will forget in the future, I will probably forget too, but this place won't. This memory of a long hello and goodbye will forever stay etched on the walls. Until graduation, heartbreak.
To be continued…