Hey there! Well, here's another fanfic. This one will be short. About 5 chapters. I'm going to write this one until I finish high school, and then I will start another fanfic about Paine and Baralai. Yeah!

Okay, let's talk about this chapter. Maybe you think that it is a stupid fanfic, but wait until I write others chapter please!

As always, hope you like and enjoy. R&R.

By the way: I do not own anything

Dear Gippal,

How can I start? I have to tell you that it hurt me and angered me to find out by my father that you had gone to the Crimson Squad. I don't understand why you couldn't have told me yourself.

I would have liked to say goodbye before you leave, have some time alone with you to talk about things that are right now around my head. Oh Gippal, there are so many things I have to tell you, but I cannot do it by a piece of paper, especially now that you've gone to that army. Suicide is what you've done! How did you happen to go to fight Sin? It is okay to try to save Spira, but you are risking your life. A life that may not mean anything to you, but it does for others. Gippal, you left me so alone.

I still remember our last conversation, but then I didn't think it was our last one. I remember how we sat in the oasis, in silence, watching as the sun was going hiding behind a dune. That night we were joking as usual. I remember you started to pull one of my braids and I get angry a lot. When you realize how angry I was, you said you were sorry and gave me a hug. A hug that, fortunately, you didn't finish fast. I looked into your eye with a smile to prove I wasn't angry, and then it happened, although it was a brief caress. You leaned toward me and put your lips on mine. Every time I look back on that time, I cannot help but smile. I didn't know what to do. You left me cold. I smiled again and then you sent me home. You didn't see me, but I was hiding behind some rocks watching you. I watched as you sat and looked at the horizon. I stood there for a few minutes, but I was very tired and went home to sleep. As I said before, I never thought that was the last time I would see you.

The next morning I went to your house to talk to you about last night. I was in your tent, but you were not there. I looked next to your friends, but I didn't see you there too. And finally, it was my father who told me that you were gone.

Gippal, you left me full of doubt. Why you gave me that kiss? Why didn't you say anything then? Why did you leave without saying anything? Gippal, I need to talk to you. I do not know if this letter will reach you or else you will be lost in my drawers.

If the letter gets to you, please Gippal let me know you're okay. I know it has been almost a year since you left and I shouldn't tell you this now, but I need it. I need to tell you and be free of it. Please.

Yours sincerely,

Rikku