Hey luvs! I made this story because I saw that picture of the Augustus and Isaac actors making a parody of the movie poster and I just thought, I SHIP IT. So yeah. Enjoy!

He wasn't proud of his feelings.

In fact, Isaac wanted nothing more than to be rid of them. He knew they would cause him more pain, and that was something he really didn't need. He was already half blind. Still, there was no use denying it to himself. But the others... the others could not know. Isaac imagined the pained, horrified, and disgusted looks he would get from his friends and family. So it was in the best interest that he keep it to himself. God knows he already caused enough hardship.

He had first known that Augustus was bisexual in the 9th grade, when, scared and confused, he came to Isaac seeking help. Of course, this had only revealed Isaac's own suppressed feelings, except his story was a bit different. Monica was a cover, and when they broke up, he had gone to Gus's house bawling his eyes out. Sure, his feelings for her might not have been the romantic sort, but he was consumed with guilt. Guilty of leading her on, and fooling everyone who knew him. But he hung on the slight hope that he could one day be truthful in the open about himself. He had come really close to doing it once, but life is a little bitch and really doesn't like to hear your plans.

After Caroline Mathers had died, Gus and Isaac had spent more time together. It was one night sitting on a bench at the park that fate decided to take a cruel twist. "I feel so guilty, Isaac. You don't know how much I wanted to be done with her, but you can't do that. You can't dump someone who's dying. And it's killing me, because I'm almost relieved that she's gone! It's horrible, I know, but I just can't help it." Gus sat with his head in his hands. Isaac wasn't sure of what to say, but without being able to stop himself, he put his arm around his friend. He knew that Gus probably saw it as a friendly comforting gesture, but it was so much more. Again, without thinking, Isaac leaned down and gently touched his lips to the top of Augustus's head.

And then all he knew was pain.

Isaac screamed and fell to the ground, clutching at his eye. Never in all his life had he felt such agony. He knew that there was cancer in his eyes, but the doctors had not warned them of anything like this. The next hour was a blur of him sobbing on the ground, Gus calling 911, and being on his way to the hospital. When he woke up, there was darkness on one side of his head. He asked the nurses why, and they gave him that pitying look that he had come to hate so much. Finding out his sight was gone on one side of his eye wasn't as devastating as it would seem. At least he wasn't completely sightless. About a week later, Gus came to visit.

It seemed that he had forgotten about that tragic night under the stars. Isaac was thankful for that. He knew that if his eyes hadn't intervened, their friendship would never have been the same. At least now things could go back to normal. And maybe, just maybe, his feeling would be returned in time.

How wrong he was.

A year later, Hazel Grace Lancaster entered the picture. She was Caroline Mathers risen from the dead, except much nicer. It pained him to see the was Gus looked at her. It was like Isaac was invisible. Two can play that game, he decided. When he got outside, he was met by Monica, who he immediately engaged in a make-out session. Sneaking glances at his only two friends getting along wonderfully, he reached for Monica's breast, hoping to make them even more uncomfortable. To most people, their friends getting along would be a good thing, but these were his only two friends. Not to mention one was his forbidden crush. If they got on too well, it wouldn't go well for him.

To Isaac's horror, he could hear Gus inviting Hazel over to watch a movie. A pang of jealousy seared through his heart. He decided to ignore it. He deepened the kiss and let everything else go away. Later that day however, he did go over to Gus's house to ask how his little date had gone.

On the day of the breakup, he had gone over to Augustus's house seeking comfort in video games, but of course, he just had to get Hazel involved too. That was really when he snapped, when they started flirting with him in the same room. It was him and his rage, trashing his love's room. Afterwards, he just went home, to leave the two little lovebirds to their own devices. That evening he glumly ate dinner and went to bed. In the morning, he had a text from Gus. So today's the day, huh. You aren't going to be able to see anymore. It's a shame too, since you won't be able to seem my handsome self. Isaac knew that Augustus was just making a good natured joke, but it was a whole lot closer to the truth that he liked.

At home a few days after the surgery, he still wouldn't do anything but lie in bed. His whole family was giving him a wide berth. He was thankful for it, because he really needed the time to think. Gus was most likely going to get together with Hazel. It wasn't that he didn't like her. She was pretty cool. Of course he couldn't blame her, because she didn't know about his feelings, no one did. It was still hard not to be angry at her for stealing what seemed like his last chance. As he was about to drift off, a sound from his phone grabbed his attention.

"Call from Augustus Waters"

"Ignore call"

"Call from Augustus Waters ignored"