Summer holiday

Harry was spending his summer with Dursleys again. Sirius was dead and Harry was mad and angry. He didn't want to see or talk to anyone. He was in his room most of the time and he barely eats.

He got many letters from Ron and Hermione and all the letters ended "with be strong, everything will be fine" or "cheer up"

How could he cheer up they didn't lost the only and the last member of his family. They didn't know how he felt.

One bright day Harry had enough of Dusleys and he went out for a walk. He didn't know where he was going but he found himself sitting in a park, thinking about Sirius.

He was in his mind when someone tapped him on his shoulder. "What?" he asked angrily and turned around. For his big surprise he saw Hermione. And he was more surprised when he realized that she was the one he wanted to see right now.

"Hi Harry," she said smiling, but her eyes were sad when she looked at Harry.

"Hi" he replied without showing any other emotions.

"Mind if I join with you?" she asked and hoped that he will say 'yes'

"Do whatever you want" he said staring in front of him.

Hermione sat down next to him. "You know, I was worried about you…" she started.

"Oh yea? Why?"

"You know… I sent you letters everyday and you never wrote back and thought that something has happened to you"

"I didn't write back because I didn't have mood for that." He said coldly.

"How do you feel now?" she asked him

"How do you think I feel? He's DEAD, Hermione. DEAD, GONE!" he yelled and stood up.

"I know that Harry. And I'm sorry" she said sadly and looked up at him. "I know how you feel"

"You know how I feel?" he asked angrily. He didn't want to yell at herm but he was so mad and angry. "You know nothing"

"Harry, I know you miss him. I miss him too. We all miss him" her eyes were in water, she was just about to cry. "Will you please stop yelling"

We all miss him he was so sick of it. Everyone tried to comfort him and they act like they know everything about his feelings, know what he lives through. But they didn't know. "Hermione, he died because of me! And I don't want you to feel sorry for me. I'm sick of it. Why don't you just leave me alone!" he said angrier then he was and he started to walk away, he wanted to be alone.

But Hermione just sat there and she started to cry. She loved him and it hurt to see him like that. She wanted to go after him and hug him, but she couldn't. And Harry was far away.

Harry kept walking but when he heard Hermione crying, he wanted to go back. He never wanted to hurt her. I never asked her opinion. And she started. He though but that sounded silly, they weren't kids anymore and this wasn't a game. Besides she was his best friend.

He turned around and walked back, but Hermiopne wasn't there anymore. Great, now she hates me and she only wanted to help. Then he had and idea and he run back to place what he was supposed to call home.

When he got back to his room, he took out parchment quill and ink. He wrote a letter to Hermione. When he finished he let Hedwig deliver this to her.

Hermione got back to home, still crying. Her mother asked what had happened, but she started to cry harder and she run up to her room. It was late at night and she still couldn't sleep, she was still thinking about Harry. She missed him so much.

And it was so painful to see him suffering. If he only knows about her feelings. If he only know what I'm feeling. She thought and started to cry again.

Then she heard a knock on her window. She got up from her bed and went to open it. She was surprised when she saw Hedwing. She took the letter and started to read.

Dear Hermione,

I'm sorry for being a jerke like that. I didn't want to yell at you. It's just that no one knows what I live through. No one understands it.

I know you miss him too and I'm hoping that you are not very mad at me and that you don't hate me.

I would be really pleased if you would come to the same park tomorrow at 12PM. So then we could talk properly and maybe even support each other.

Anyway I'm going to wait you there and I hope you will come. Send me back your answer with Hedwig, okay?

Yours truly,

Harry.

Hermione this letter twice, before she sent back her answer. She was so happy, because she will see him again and because he wanted her to support him.

Harry got her letter after midnight. He was still up, because he couldn't sleep. He didn't know why but was only thinking about Hermione. He really hoped that she's not mad at him and he will see her tomorrow.

When Hedwig came back with her answer, he looked at the letter for several minutes, he was a little afraid to find out what was in the letter.

Dear Harry,

No I'm not mad at you and I do not hate you. I have no reason for that.

I understand you and know what you feel, I don't know how but I do.

And yes, I will come tomorrow in the park, but please do not start yelling again, I haven't deserved that.

See you tomorrow,

Miss you,

Hermione

Harry smiled for the first time when he put the letter away. I miss you too, Hermione. He though and fall asleep.

When he woke up he quiqly got dressed and he was ready to go. He was getting late and he didn't got any breakfast.

He rushed out of the house and run into the park. Oh I'm so late. I hope she's still there.

Hermione woke up early. She was so excited. The though of seeing him made her smile.

She finally closed the front door behind her and she started to walk into the park.

She sat down and started to wait Harry. But he didn't come. It was almost 1PM when she got up and started to walk back home.

She felt like crying, he failed her. He didn't come…

Harry finally managed to get to the park and he saw that the seat was empty. Oh no, Hermione.

He looked around and saw her walking away. "Hermione" he called her.

Hermione stopped. She knew this voice, but she couldn't believe it. She slowly turned around, but she was looking down.

"I'm sorry" said Harry and moved closer to her.

Hermione looked up, tears were streaming down her cheeks. He was there, just a little farther away from her. She didn't smile. She didn't say anything. She just looked at him and Harry knew that he had hurt her and he felt sorry about it. Hermione looked at him for several minutes before turning around and started to walk away.

Don't let her go! A little voice was screaming in Harry's mind. Without thinking he run into her and turned her around, softly. He looked into her eyes.

"Oh Harry" she said and put her arms around him and hugged him tightly. She didn't want to lose him. She loved him, but it seemed that he didn't even care.

Harry hugged her back but didn't know why she was so upset. When she let him go he looked into her eyes again and wiped away her tears. "I'm here now so don't cry anymore"

Hermione smiled weakly and nodded.

They started to walk around the park and talked about anything, except Sirius.

It was almost midnight when they sat down. They didn't want to leave, say goodbye.

"I think I have to go," said Hermione sadly.

"Yea, its late" he said and got up.

She gave him a weak smile and got up too. "So, see you around"

"What? No, I'm going to send you to home"

"You are?"

"Of course" he said as they started to walk into her home. Since it was cold outside Hermione started to shiver. Harry notices this and took off his jacket and put it on her shoulders.

"Thanks Harry" she said smiling and felt a little warmer.

"Still cold?" he asked when Hermione didn't stop shivering.

"Yes, a little. But I'll be home soon" Harry didn't care. He didn't want her to get cold and he put his arm around her. Hermione felt like she has gone to heaven.

"That's my house" she said finally and took off his jacket. She handed this to Harry. "Thank you again"

"So… er… Goodnight Hermione"

Hermione looked at Harry and then her home. "Harry why don't you stay the night here? It's not safe for you to go back all alone."

"No I'll be fine"

"Are you sure?"

"Yes I am. Now go on, before you get cold."

"Harry, please. I don't want you to go back alone. My parents don't mind if you stay here." She looked at him with puppy eyes.

"I don't know…"

"Come on, what do you have to lose?"