Yay, I finally got my lazy self to upload it again! I'm still working on "How Did This Happen?", so don't worry 'cause I will finish that story! This is actually the first ccs story I have ever written, I'm just not uploading my stories in order. So please let me know what you think!

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REALIZING LOVE

Ch. 1 Mixed Feelings

Summary: Sakura, Syaoran, Tomoyo, and Meilin are all 17, six years after the events of the clow cards. Syaoran and Meilin are still living in Hong Kong while Sakura and Tomoyo remain in Japan. Toya and Yukito are 24, have graduated from college and now live in Tokyo. It's a continuation of the first movie.

Sakura was back in water, in her pajamas. But for some weird reason she was able to breath. She kicked her way to the surface and saw she was in an indoor swimming pool. She stood on the water, which turned to ice under her feet. All of the sudden, two doves flew above her head, towards two dark figures.

"What was that dream about?"

"Sakura, you're going to be late!" she heard her dad say.

"Ayia!"

Sakura walked quietly to school, realizing for the first time that life was so boring without the thrill of the clow cards. They were all sealed and under her control, so what was left for her to do with them? Little did she know that her life was about to change, drastically.

After the cards were all sealed and turned into Sakura Cards and Syaoran left, her life became very hectic. First, her school life got very complicated as she entered junior high, and even more complicated as she got into high school. Of course she still stayed in contact with Syaoran, who Tomoyo swore was Sakura's long distant boyfriend.

Flashback

"You always seem to be talking about him," Tomoyo commented one day in class as Sakura brought another envelope into the classroom.

"It's just that you can't talk to him every day, so I just like to tell you what's going on in his life," Sakura replied with a shaky smile.

"Well, if I really wanted to keep in touch with him, all I would have to do was write to him myself!"

"Yeah, but, um, I'm just trying to save you the trouble!"

"Sure, whatever Sakura, but I still think you like him."

"And why's that Tomoyo?!"

"Because it seems like a letter from Hong Kong is brought to school every week!"

Sakura looked down and blushed.

"What, am I wrong?"

"I actually get a letter from him everyday," she whispered to Tomoyo.

"Oh my gosh! Why didn't you tell me?!"

"Because I didn't want you reacting the way you are right now!"

"I'm sorry, but I didn't know you two were so serious! But I bet Meilin isn't too happy!"

"She doesn't know."

"WHAT?! How can she not know?!"

"Because Syaoran hasn't told her."

"But, how can he hide it?"

"Well, he does do all the writing at his house, so why should Meilin know?"

"Has he missed a day since he left?"

"No, not one day."

"Oh Sakura, I'm so happy for you! You have a long distant boyfriend who's committed and loyal to you!"

"Tomoyo, Syaoran's not my boyfriend and will never be my boyfriend!"

End of Flashback

Sakura smiled as she continued walking. What she hadn't told Tomoyo or anybody else was that Syaoran had indeed hinted that he might want Sakura to become his long distance girlfriend. He started about a year ago, asking if she was ready for a one on one relationship with a guy. Sakura didn't know how to respond, so she just made up silly excuses. But no matter how silly they seemed, Syaoran still asked the same question. But how could Sakura say yes? That just might ruin their perfect friendship, and that was the last thing she wanted in the world. Besides, her feelings for guys were still a little mixed up. Deep in her heart, in the area she dared not explore, was her feelings for Syaoran, but floating in her brain were her "heart" thoughts of Yukito. Maybe she was just brainwashed.

"Hey Sakura!" Tomoyo shouted as she came running up to her.

"Hey Tomoyo!"

"Any letters from Syaoran?"

"The daily ones of course."

"It's so sweet! I should make a documentary, "Love Relationships that Surpass the Problems of Distance"! What do you think Sakura?"

"He's not a love interest Tomoyo! How many times do I have to tell you, I'm interested in Yukito."

"So you say."

"What does that mean?"

"If I recall correctly, your crush for Yukito ended when he was revealed as Yue."

Sakura didn't respond, which meant that was the truth.

"See, I told you Sakura, your love interest can't be Yukito. Besides, isn't he more like a brother than a husband candidate?"

"Tomoyo! Don't you think I'm a little young to be thinking about husbands!?"

"Well, your mother did get married when she was 16. Maybe you'll follow her footsteps!"

"Whatever Tomoyo. Besides, I'm 17, so I can't follow her in her foortsteps. We better hurry up, or else the bell's going to ring on us!"

"Yeah, and you can't have another tardy!"

The two friends ran to school, making it into their seats just as the bell rang.

"Maybe Tomoyo's right, maybe I do have feelings for Syaoran," Sakura thought to herself as the teacher drowned on and on about calculus, her worse subject.

Luckily, the teacher didn't pick on her that day. Tomoyo seemed to have realized she hit a sensitive spot when she mentioned Syaoran to Sakura, so she didn't bring the subject up again for the rest of the day. But she was formulating a plan to try to get her best friend hooked up with her destined partner!

When Sakura got home that day, she couldn't concentrate on her homework. It probably didn't help that Yukito was studying in the adjacent room with Toya.

"Sakura, are you okay?" Kero asked, flying up onto her desk.

"Hm? Oh, hey Kero. Taking a break from video games?"

"Yeah, only because you seem a little preoccupied this afternoon. You want to let something off your chest?"

Sakura smiled. She hadn't told Kero about the letters Syaoran sent her daily, she would never hear the end of it, especially with the indifference Kero has for Syaoran.

"I can't talk about it Kero."

"Why not?"

"Because, you'll make fun of me."

"If it's about your love life, I want to know! The teen years are always so fun to hear about!"

"Well, I can tell you one thing, my life is very complicated right now."

Kero dropped it, seeing how upset and confused she seemed to be. He pat her hand and said, "If it's about Yukito, you know you should be over it. He's Yue, and there's no way Yue will ever get married or even think about dating. And Yukito is conscience of his other self."

Sakura's eyes began to water, "I can tell you something, Kero, Yukito is only half the problem."

"Okay Sakura, who's the other half?"

"How do you know it's a who?"

"Because when a girl is having love problems, and one guy is only half the problem, that means the other half is another guy."

"Kero, I can't tell you the other half."

Kero, although he was worried, just gave her another pat and flew back to his games, which was fine with Sakura because she needed her space to try to figure it all out.

"Toya, can I ask you something?" Yukito asked, a little hesitancy in his voice.

"If it's about Sakura, forget it."

"But..."

"Yuki, how many times do I have to tell you? If you decided to ask her out, I'm fine with it."

"But does she like me like that?"

"She's had a crush on you before 4th grade."

"That long ago?!"

"Yeah."

"Hmm, I wonder..."

Meanwhile, at Tomoyo's house, Tomoyo was sitting on her bed, the phone to her ear.

"Hello, Li residence."

"Hello. My name is Daidouji. May I please speak to Li?"

"Just a minute please."

"Hello?"

"Hey Li! It's Daidouji."

"Hey Daidouji! I haven't talked to you for a long time! Gosh, I can't believe that I never kept in contact with you."

"It's okay. I know all about you."

"How is that?"

"I'll give you one guess."

"S...Sa...Sakura?"

"That's right!"

There was a pause, "Hello, Li?"

"Hey. Does she let you read the letters?"

"No, she just tells me what you're doing in Hong Kong."

"Thank God."

"Why?"

"Oh, nothing."

"I was just wondering something."

"What's that?"

"Do you like Sakura?"

"Why?! Did she say anything?"

"No, she didn't say a word."

"Daidouji, if I take you into my confidence, you are not allowed to breath a word of this to anyone."

"Okay Li."

"I..."

"Dear Syaoran," Sakura wrote on her blank piece of paper, "remember that question you constantly ask me? Well, I have decided to not avoid it any longer, I'm going to let my emotions flow, so please be patient. My answer is..."

"Toya, I think I'm going to finally do it!"

"Good for you Yuki!"

"That doesn't sound good," Kero thought to himself, who was spying on them quietly.

"But how are you going to tell Meilin?" Tomoyo asked, still on the phone with Li.

"Tell her what?"

"How you feel about Sakura?"

"That's when I need your help..."

Hee hee! How do you like that ending? I know it's not the best, but hey, this is my first story! Please Read and Review!