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Can't help falling for you
Chapter one
Adam was back in his place. Alone. Somehow sad, somehow relieved. But alone. All alone. It was silent and empty around him. And he didn't know if he liked it or not. It was so different now to be alone. After Sauli got back home. Adam sighed. He pulled his shoes off and threw his jaket on the wardrope. He went to his living room. There were still some dishes left after the last breakfast with Sauli. Adam stopped moving as the thought crossed his mind: Last breakfast? Really, THE last one? He shook his head.
Sauli was a nice guy and really cute and spending time with him was fun. Adam haven't felt so good as with Sauli since ages. Ok, this wasn't really true. He had a lot of good times during the last year. But spending time with Sauli was different. He liked Sauli and he could fall for him. And why not? Sauli was a type of man he always dreamt about. They had the same taste in so many things. The same music, the same movies, the same food preferences, the same clothes. Like everything. It was perfect and easy. Sauli looked up to Adam in a way that was adorable. And he was hanging on every word and every move Adam made. He let Adam be the leader. It was easy with Sauli. And perfect.
But maybe it was too easy and maybe Sauli was too perfect. But is there a need for relationships to be complicated and stressful? Maybe now it is the time in his life to have something just easy and perfect. Without struggle. Something that is just working. Who said that a relationsship must always be hard work? You don't have to take a huge risk to get the love of your life, do you? And who said that beeing in love means that you have to lose your mind? It doesn't have to be like the person you are with is the only thing you think about the whole day. It's not like Adam would be a teenager and for the fist time in love. He had been there before. And maybe it will work better when the feelings he would have for his boyfriend would be not all-consuming but just good and maybe even controlled.
Maybe his former relationships broke apart because it was all full of drama and tears and the feeling of a neverending love. Ok, it was really good while it lasted. He had an amazing time and he was really happy and he was on cloud number nine and he had butterflies in his stomach and he felt like walking over a meadow and touching the sky. But when it ended it was like dying. Like someone pulled his heart out of his chest and was jumping on it. So maybe he was now just too old for that and the time for fucking butterflies and romantic stuff and falling in love without thinking about consequences was over. He could have now a relationship like an adult. With plans for future, with a joined bank account, with a shared house, maybe even with a marriage and kids. All the things people have when they are in a serious relationship. They want to have a future and not fucking butterflies.
Adam sighed and looked out of the window.
I need something to hold on and to build a future around. Something real and not a fairytale. Not a dream that won't come true. I just have to let go and forget about what could have been with Tommy. Because this is something that never will be. Tommy will always be just a friend.
So maybe Sauli could be the person he could be with for the rest of his life. Yeah he could imagine that. He really liked Sauli. And when they would get to know each other better, he could fall in love with him. Over the time it could really happen. He is nice and handsome. And it's so easy to be around him. No rules, no holding back, no thinking about labels and what they could mean. No boundries. Just perfect.
Adam looked up on the clock. It was past 4 in the afternoon. Sauli was now somewhere over the ocean. Adam knew he would miss Sauli. It was really fun having him around. But there was a part of him that was relieved that Sauli was gone. And Adam didn't really know why. It was a strange feeling. Like he was under pressure the last days with Sauli. Like he didn't get enough air to breathe. Adam shook his head. The thoughts were really stupid. He liked Sauli. Probably he was just too long alone and needed some time to get used to be back in a relationship. Yeah, that was for sure the reason.
His phone peeped. He pulled it out of his pocket and smiled. It was Tommy asking if he wanted to hang with him and some other friends. Now that Sauli was gone Tommy thought he could need some people around. Adam called Tommy. "Hey, where are you? Yeah I know that place. I am there in about 20 minutes, ok? Yeah find a silent corner, I don't need any paparrazzi today. No, I am ok, a little strange, you know. We can talk later. Bye." He ended the call to get ready to leave. He was really happy to meet his friends and Tommy. He ignored the small skip his heart did when he thought about Tommy. Remember, just a friend! Then he left his place.
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