I Love her

I love her, but then… can I really say that? Can I really say that I love her with all my heart and that nothing matters, nothing matters; not even the fact that I am her best friend, or more to the point the fact that I am also a girl?

There are so many reasons why I love her, so many reasons indeed. Countless really.

I love the way she smiles and the way her hair blows in the wind.

I love the way she behaves to people always being right and fair.

I love the way she hides behind me when she's scared.

I love the way she lets me dress her up and record all the things she acts.

I love the way she understands me and the way I understand her.

I love her silly quirks and her silly words.

I love her silly games and her silly traditions.

I love her for being her.

Yeah I love her but does it make it right?

Is it right to make her suffer for a love that she cannot feel, because I know for a fact that she is in love with another.

Is it right to make her feel bad for a love that I feel, but that she can't return?

Is it right for me to make her give a love, when she already found one more pure?

Is it right to go against what God has made right only because I want her to love me?

Is it right to make her love me back just to lose her forever?

No, I don't suppose that it's right.

It isn't right to make her reject a love that she already has, for something that may not last. It isn't right for me to ask of her to love me back when she doesn't feel that way.

It isn't right to go against God because after all he has given me so much already. I know God loves me no matter what, and I know he will love me for as long as forever, but he cannot accept the way I am for the simple motive that he didn't make it to be so. He made man and woman to be as one. Not woman and woman and not man and man. Yes its true they could make beautiful couples, but God didn't make it that way, no God didn't but the devil did… the devil did, because he is evil enough to use something as precious as love against people and against God. He is evil enough to make people die for love, he is evil enough to make people hate for love. Yeah he is evil enough… and we fall for it every time.

But in my case I don't think I want that to happen, I don't want her to suffer I don't want her to die for something that is not really there. Because at the end of the day the only love that will ever stay is the love of God… and that is all that matters. And if it doesn't matter to others, then I give this advice those others. If you don't keep them safe for your love and reverence for God at least keep them safe for your love for them.

So yeah I love her and for that simple reason I will let her live in this life and in the next.

Because at the end of the day, no matter who we love, as long as we have God… we will be ok… and nothing is more important. Never more important.

For the love of God and for the love of His people… it's good to be selfless once in a while.