My hand grips the pencil so hard that it starts to break. I let go and look down at the piece laying on the desk. I read over the words I had just written
"Cammie, I need you to never leave the grounds of the Gallagher academy, for me."
I scrunched up the piece of paper and chucked it towards the massive pile of paper that had long ago overflowed. I sighed and picked up another pencil and paper.
What on earth am I supposed to write? I thought back to the first time I had seen her, back in the museum.
Dr Steve had shown me a picture of the subject, but nothing had prepared me for her in person , she was standing next to another girl, but I could only see her. This assignment was going to be easy. They had told me that she was called the chameleon, that she could blend into any back drop. But how could anyone possibly not notice her. I saw her eyes flit in my direction and flit back to her friends. She didn't even look at me, here I was, unable to take my eyes off her and she didn't even look at me.
Then I had another thought, what if she snuck out to see Josh? What if I poured my heart and soul into this letter begging her to stay safe and she laughs and takes the letter to Josh. She'd noticed him, not me.
She had stolen Josh's heart as well, I saw the look in his eyes when Cammie and I were walking together. He hadn't given up on her, either had I. He was going to keep fighting I could see that, but he wouldn't win. I don't know what it was about her, the way she seemed not notice any one around her, or maybe it was that she thought that everyone around her didn't notice her
I sighed and let my head rest in my hands, I took a deep breath. There were more important things at stake here then my self confidence. Things like Cammies life.
I wrote the one thing that I could bear to write.
"Be Careful"
It was inadequate, it was weak. But it was all I had.
As I walked over to the door I looked at piece of paper that was lying on the ground at my feet.
I bent over to pick it up, I read the words "I love you". I picked it up and put in my jacket pocket. She wouldn't want to read it any way.