How to Save a Life
AN: This is just the prequel, or a companion story to 13 Reasons Why. It goes back and forth between several point of views. Hope you like it!
Step one you say we need to talk He walks you say sit down it's just a talk He smiles politely back at you, You stare politely right on through Some sort of window to your right As he goes left and you stay right Between the lines of fear and blame You begin to wonder why you came
BPOV
This is just the first, and last, step for me. There is no one else who can help. He doesn't even know why he's here.
"Please, Edward, sit." I say, calmly. There's no tremor of fear in my voice, nothing to give me away. He won't see between the lines of what I want to talk about. I'll go right to the end while he'll stay here… in wonder and possibly fear, and blame.
He smiled politely at me and we begin to talk. Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend Somewhere along in the bitterness And I would have stayed up with you all night Had I known how to save a life
That was it. She was gone. If only I had known this those few short weeks ago, at Rose's. What had she been thinking as we talked? Where did I go wrong though, as a friend? In all of the bitterness of the day, in the loss of a true friend, I know the truth for myself. If only it wasn't graveside that I figured it out.
"I love you Bella." I say and then place a single red rose on the oak box.
If only I had known what she was going to do, I would have stayed up all night or longer. If I had known how to save a life, her life, I would have done anything.
Let him know that you know best Cause after all you do know best Try to slip past his defense Without granting innocence Lay down a list of what is wrong The things you've told him all along And pray to God he hears you And pray to God he hears you
BPOV
Jasper and Alice knew. If only I could have told Edward, if only to soften the blow. I know best though, well what's best for me. I just couldn't tell him though. It would have broken my defense, I would have cracked right there. It would have been over for everything but the pain. I didn't want to break his innocence on the subject of me.
We continued to talk and I noticed his mood darkening, like he knew something.
"What's wrong?" I ask but he isn't willing to share. I guess it's fair since I refuse to tell him everything all along.
That night, I will pray to god he hears me from afar, and that I will always here him. Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend Somewhere along in the bitterness And I would have stayed up with you all night Had I known how to save a life
APOV
If only I could have helped her. If only she could have accepted my help, anyone's help. We could have saved her, together. I would have gone with her into the night, trying to save her all the way. As he begins to raise his voice You lower yours and grant him one last choice Drive until you lose the road Or break with the ones you've followed He will do one of two things He will admit to everything Or he'll say he's just not the same And you'll begin to wonder why you came
BPOV
Tonight is the night. Everything will end after this fight. Dad's voice raises with his alcohol levels. He tells me to just drive off the road but I know a cleaner way to die. I'll break him like he did me, except he will find a dead girl in his house. He won't find reason with it like he would if he had only beat me. He'll notice something is not the same and wonder what went wrong.
I hope I don't lose me confidence in this and wonder why I came here, why I don't leave.
Cheers to poison. Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend Somewhere along in the bitterness And I would have stayed up with you all night Had I known how to save a life