This is my first attempt writing anything since school so go easy on me please.

I don't own rookie blue or any of the characters unfortunately.

All mistakes are mine.

Chapter 1

06.00

I walk into 15 to start my shift I was hoping to be in the evidence locker out of the way of everyone, Holly was catching her flight to San Francisco in a couple of hours and I just wanted to block everything and everyone out till it was time to clock off and go to the penny. It was just my luck to walk into Traci as I entered the locker room.

"Hey Gail"

"Hey Traci, why are you looking at me like that?"

"Like what?"

"You know what, all concerned and like I'm gonna have a mental breakdown or something"

"Cos I know Holly's flight leaves in a couple of hours and I was wondering how you're handling it"

"I'm fine" I shrug it off like it's no big deal hoping Traci will leave me alone and let this day pass in peace.

"You're lying, I know you Gail and you love that woman and you're just going to let her leave?"

"There's nothing else I can or will do we both had a choice to make and we have made those choices so just drop it." I snap at her.

"Whatever Gail but take it from me your gonna regret it for the rest of your life if you don't give it 1 more shot and ask her to stay." Traci walks away giving me the locker room to myself and some serious thinking to do. Would Holly stay if I asked? I never did, it wasn't my place she decided to go even asked me to go but Sophie needs me more than I need Holly.

I finish getting ready and go into the parade room I sit down and start thinking about what Traci said again, but I can't help thinking she is wrong. I am doing the grown up responsible thing by letting her go we have had two weeks together where we talked and got our friendship back and we will always be friends but I can't hold her back from her dream job, I sure she will meet someone who can give her everything she wants and not be a brat when they have a fight. I will always love her and regret the way I acted that night and the weeks after but I have to let her go.

I pull myself out of my day dream to see that parade is over and everyone is leaving so I check what I'm on for the day and give out a small sigh when I see evidence locker at the side of my name.