Authoress: DragonSlayer
Rated:G
English
Romance/Angst
A/N- I was listening to my burned .HACK//SIGN CD (Thanks Morgan). When the song, "Aura", gave me an excellent idea for a story. So, here it goes.
T/M
In My World
My world is filled of darkness. I can't face this world. I'm so alone and vunerable. And yet I don't want to be bothered. And yet I want to socialize, with people, not just my guardian.
I often find myself thinking of Mimiru, of the many times we've crossed paths. But I can't afford to think about her like that. I can't allow myself to grow attached to her. Because I might lose her; like my mother.
I lift my head from my legs, I feel the warmth of the sun spreading heat throughout my body. My eyes squinch, trying to adjust to the rays of sun that filter through the room. I look at the entranceof the door to see Mimiru peering inside of the room.
The first thing I noticed about her was the color of her eyes. They were an amber-brown in the dark half-light. And the next thing I noticed was her face. The expression at least. A mix of shock, sorrow, and horror.
That immeadiately made me jerk. Never had I seen such simpathy from someone. Was I that pitiful looking? I tore my eyes away from her. Not wanting any of her simpathy. I just want to be left alone. in my world, the world of agony, pain, and hurt. To be depressed and have nobody care about me, no simpathy. That's what I want.
"Tsukasa, are you okay?" She asks in a half sob.
"Yes, I'm fine. Just as I always am." I answer her back, not wanting to worry her.
"Tsukasa," she calls my name, "It's not healthy for you to sit around and mope like this everyday." She says concerned.
She took a couple of steps forward. She stoped and looked atr my face. She then walked to me and I motioned her to sit down.
"You shouldn't be depressed like this." She continues relentlessly to change my mind.
"How would you be if your past and present was filled with pain?" I asked her, finally breaking lose of my own mind and world.
"I'd move on," she answered truthfully, "because there is more to life than just past and present. There is always a bright future to look ahead of. A future filled of love and happiness." Mimiru stated. " And sometimes if a person is lucky, a someone to look forward to seeing."
She turned her head to look at me. Her eyes gazing at me. Longing to tell her that I feel the same way. That I don't need to be saved from the darkness that I keep willingly walking deeper into.
I lifted my hand to her cheek. Feeling how warm the skin of cheek was when she blushed. My eyes fixed upon hers as hers are fixed upon me. Her now trembling hands cup my face. I gaze at her, peering into her soul; seeing what she most desires. My lips part, as so do hers. I lean in on her, narrowing to distance between my cold, pale lips and her tremblig ones. Finally, not controlling myself, disobeying my own rule of not getting attached to her, our lips meet in pure ecstacy. After a while, we part. She gazes at me and I gaze at her. Feeling anew, I embrace her. Protecting her from harm.
"I love you Mimiru." I finally say to her.
"I do to, Tsukasa." She whispers softly.
I think about all the time I've spent in this world and how cruel it has been to me, and how not cruel I have been to it.
I have finally changed my outlook on this world and mine. I realize I don't want to be alone. I never have. I just wanted to love and be love. With Mimiru, I could do just that.
THE END
Rated:G
English
Romance/Angst
A/N- I was listening to my burned .HACK//SIGN CD (Thanks Morgan). When the song, "Aura", gave me an excellent idea for a story. So, here it goes.
T/M
In My World
My world is filled of darkness. I can't face this world. I'm so alone and vunerable. And yet I don't want to be bothered. And yet I want to socialize, with people, not just my guardian.
I often find myself thinking of Mimiru, of the many times we've crossed paths. But I can't afford to think about her like that. I can't allow myself to grow attached to her. Because I might lose her; like my mother.
I lift my head from my legs, I feel the warmth of the sun spreading heat throughout my body. My eyes squinch, trying to adjust to the rays of sun that filter through the room. I look at the entranceof the door to see Mimiru peering inside of the room.
The first thing I noticed about her was the color of her eyes. They were an amber-brown in the dark half-light. And the next thing I noticed was her face. The expression at least. A mix of shock, sorrow, and horror.
That immeadiately made me jerk. Never had I seen such simpathy from someone. Was I that pitiful looking? I tore my eyes away from her. Not wanting any of her simpathy. I just want to be left alone. in my world, the world of agony, pain, and hurt. To be depressed and have nobody care about me, no simpathy. That's what I want.
"Tsukasa, are you okay?" She asks in a half sob.
"Yes, I'm fine. Just as I always am." I answer her back, not wanting to worry her.
"Tsukasa," she calls my name, "It's not healthy for you to sit around and mope like this everyday." She says concerned.
She took a couple of steps forward. She stoped and looked atr my face. She then walked to me and I motioned her to sit down.
"You shouldn't be depressed like this." She continues relentlessly to change my mind.
"How would you be if your past and present was filled with pain?" I asked her, finally breaking lose of my own mind and world.
"I'd move on," she answered truthfully, "because there is more to life than just past and present. There is always a bright future to look ahead of. A future filled of love and happiness." Mimiru stated. " And sometimes if a person is lucky, a someone to look forward to seeing."
She turned her head to look at me. Her eyes gazing at me. Longing to tell her that I feel the same way. That I don't need to be saved from the darkness that I keep willingly walking deeper into.
I lifted my hand to her cheek. Feeling how warm the skin of cheek was when she blushed. My eyes fixed upon hers as hers are fixed upon me. Her now trembling hands cup my face. I gaze at her, peering into her soul; seeing what she most desires. My lips part, as so do hers. I lean in on her, narrowing to distance between my cold, pale lips and her tremblig ones. Finally, not controlling myself, disobeying my own rule of not getting attached to her, our lips meet in pure ecstacy. After a while, we part. She gazes at me and I gaze at her. Feeling anew, I embrace her. Protecting her from harm.
"I love you Mimiru." I finally say to her.
"I do to, Tsukasa." She whispers softly.
I think about all the time I've spent in this world and how cruel it has been to me, and how not cruel I have been to it.
I have finally changed my outlook on this world and mine. I realize I don't want to be alone. I never have. I just wanted to love and be love. With Mimiru, I could do just that.
THE END