Jamie and Eddie did the last rounds of the block before end of tour, it was unusually quiet for a Friday. Jamie looked over at Eddie "any plans for our weekend off Janko?"

"Yeah, wine and lots of it," she muttered.

"Okay, you've been sulking since meal, what's up?"

"Nothing," she said and sat up in her seat "I'm fine."

"Come on, tell your partner," he said poking her repeatedly.

"Reagan, I'll kill you," she laughed and slapped his hand away "okay, okay," she said as he did it again "Peirce broke up with me, over text."

Jamie turned serious "over text? Why?"

"He said I'm too controlling, he hates my job, he hates I can do more than him, he said it wasn't going to work out," she sighed.

"A hot police woman, who wouldn't want that?" Jamie asked as they pulled into the parking garage.

Eddie laughed as they climbed out "this is the second guy to dump me in a year because of the job Reagan, what is wrong with me?"

"Losers," Jamie answered, "seriously Eddie, don't even think about them, you're an amazing woman, a great cop and an even better partner."

"Aww, thanks Reagan, I didn't know you were in love with me," she chuckled and bumped him with her hip.

Jamie chuckled too "in your dreams Janko, go get changed, I'll sign our stuff and the cruiser back in, then I'm taking you for a drink," he said and pushed her towards the changing rooms.

"Ooh, a date," she laughed "can't wait."

"Yeah, a partner date!" Jamie called after her. Watching her go he shook his head and walked onto to the equipment room to drop off their radios.

Pulling his phone from his pocket he sighed at the caller "Danny?" he answered.

"Hey kid, are you finished tour now?"

"Yeah, just back at the precinct," he replied.

"Me too, meet me at Macky's in twenty," Danny said.

"Danny, I can't, Eddie is really down, I'm bringing her for a drink."

"Jamie Reagan! Are you dumping your big brother for a chick?" Danny yelled.

"Come on Danny, it's not like that, she needs a bit of cheering up."

"I know what cheering up you have in mind," Danny muttered "alright, bring her along, I'll get Biaz in on it too. I'll kill you kid, Friday nights are our thing," he added and hung up.

"Ready?" Eddie asked sticking her head in the door.

"I'll meet you out front," he replied and walked on to the changing rooms, this was not gonna be fun. Danny knew he had a crush on Eddie and he was convinced she had one on him too, he liked to poke fun at them and make them very uncomfortable.

"Where are we going?" Eddie asked as she linked arms with him.

"Meeting Danny and Maria at Macky's," he replied.

"Jamie," she groaned.

"I know, I'll warn him not to start, don't worry about him," he said as they crossed the street.

…

"Kid!" Danny called waving him down "aw look Biaz, they're holding hands," he smirked.

Eddie let go of Jamie's arm and sat down "don't be Jealous Danny."

"Who's Jealous?" he scoffed "my beautiful wife is waiting for me at home."

Eddie laughed "my beautiful bed is waiting at home for me."

"I'll get us a drink," Jamie said and walked off to the bar.

"What's up Eddie? Jamie said you were down," Biaz said.

Eddie sighed "ah, it's nothing, I got dumped today."

"Really?" she asked surprised "Peirce?"

"Yeah, dumped me by text, can you believe that?" she scoffed.

"Scumbag," Maria said shaking her head "never mind him, we're gonna have a good night tonight."

"I'm gonna go get a drink before you two fall into your solidarity whining," Danny said and walked off to the bar.

"I got this one," Jamie said sliding him a beer.

"Thanks, did dad call you?" he asked curiously.

"Yeah, and I'm not concerned," Jamie replied and grabbed the rest of the beers.

"You're gonna be careful and play house mouse for a few days, right?"

"I'm not a kid Danny, I can look after myself, he wants to take a pop at me so be it, but I won't hide away," Jamie replied.

"Did you tell Eddie?" he asked as they walked back to the table.

"No, nothing to worry her about," he sighed.

"Jamie, she's your partner, she needs to know what's happening so she can watch out for herself and have your back."

"Just leave it Danny, the guy is full in bs, nothing is gonna happen," he huffed and sat down beside Eddie.

"What were you two talking about?" Biaz asked.

"My little brothers crush on his partner," Danny said and looked at Eddie "and your not so little one on him," he smirked.

"Go shove it Reagan," Eddie replied.

"Come on Danny, cut it out, no one is in the mood," Jamie said glaring at him.

"Fine, fine," he said and turned to Eddie "so Janko, why did this Peirce guy call it quits?"

"Danny!" Biaz shrieked and slapped his arm "you're such an insensitive jerk."

"It's okay," Eddie sighed "he thinks I'm controlling and the dominant one in the relationship."

Danny laughed "screw him, he's just threatened by you, you are a fine officer he should have been proud to call you his girlfriend."

"Thanks Danny," she smiled and stood up "but I still need a few shots," she added and walked off to the bar.

"This could get messy, keep an eye on her," Danny said.

"I think I'll join her," Biaz said and slid off her stool.

"I'm not carrying you home nor are you sleeping on my couch again!" Danny called after her.

"Lighten up Reagan!" she called as she joined Eddie at the bar.

"Bet Janko ends up on your couch…or somewhere else," Danny smirked.

"This is getting old Danny," Jamie sighed.

"I'll stop when you man up and ask her out," he said clapping him on the shoulders.

A few hours later the Regan boys left the bar holding up their severely intoxicated partners "geez, how many did they have," Danny groaned as he struggled to keep Biaz by his side.

"A lot," Jamie chuckled and lifted a singing Eddie down from a railing.

"I'm gonna pull a cab, I'm not walking home with this mess," Danny said as he grabbed her again.

Jamie laughed "she's only around the corner, she needs to walk it off."

"Night kid, I'll see you Sunday," Danny said and waved down a cab.

"Night Danny," he said and walked on with a stumbling Eddie.

"Gonna puke," she said and shoved him off her.

"Don't run down there!" Jamie called and followed her into an alley.

After she finished throwing up all the drink she'd consumed Jamie pulled her to her feet "you okay?"

"No," she groaned and rested her chin on his shoulder "who's that guy?" she asked squinting.

"Janko you're wasted, there's no one there," he chuckled.

"Jamie Reagan?" a guy called from behind him.

Jamie looked behind him and saw a guy holding a gun "whoa, Eddie stay behind me," he said shoving her back "put it down man, you don't wanna do this," he said holding up his hands. "You don't want to shoot a New York city cop."

They guy shrugged "I got to…Mario sends his love, only warning," he said and shot off once before running off.

Jamie yelled out in pain and grabbed his shoulder as he was flung into the wall "Jamie!" Eddie screeched and jumped down beside him "oh my god! You've been shot! You're bleeding! HELP!" she yelled panicked.

"Eddie, hey, hey, listen to me," he said grabbing her hand "calm down, I'm okay."

"I'll kill him!" she snapped and jumped up to run after him.

"Eddie get back here," he said pulling her down "you're drunk you can't use your gun, sit tight," he said and pulled his phone out. "This is off duty Officer Jamie Reagan, shield number six, o, five, two, eight, we need a bus to the corner of sixth and west, officer down," he panted and hung up.

"Jamie stay awake," Eddie whimpered and pulled out her own phone "Danny!" she sobbed when he answered.

"What now Janko? Did you lose my kid brother?" he teased.

"Danny shut up!" She screamed "he's been shot! I need you to hurry!"

"What?" Danny yelled letting go of Biaz "what do you mean he's been shot? I just left you!"

"Some guy came up behind us and said something about an only warning!" she cried.

"Where are you?"

"In the alley by the bar," she sniffed.

"I'm on my way," he said and hung up "LINDA!" He yelled and shoved Biaz onto the sofa "take care of her."

"Where are you going? You just got in," she said angrily.

"Jamie's been shot," he said trying to keep his voice normal.

"Oh god! Is he okay?"

"I'll call you!" he said and took off.

…

An hour later Eddie stood looking through Jamie's window, he'd been in so much pain that they gave him something to help him sleep. Pressing her head against the window she sniffed and caught a tear as it rolled down her face.

"Janko?" Danny said softly.

"I didn't have his back," she whimpered.

"What are you talking about? Come on, don't think like that."

"I was drunk feeling sorry for myself! I ran into that alley to puke my guts up even after he told me not to! It's my fault! I didn't even try to stop him!"

"Eddie," he said softly and led her to a seat "Jamie said it happened so fast no one had time to react, Jamie didn't even have time to pull his gun. It's not your fault alright, you got help, you got him here, you saved his life just like any great partner would do."

"A cop should be in their right mind at all times," she muttered.

"Every one of us have days like this, Biaz is passed out on my sofa right now, she has no clue what's happened."

Eddie sighed heavily "she didn't just stand there as you got shot."

"Officer Janko," a nurse asked walking to them "sorry to interrupt but Officer Reagan is asking for you."

"Thank you," she said and stood up "um, thanks Danny."

"Go give my little brother a kick for scaring us all," he smiled and rubbed her arm.

Eddie entered the room and stood by the door "hey, there you are," Jamie said, "come over, I don't bite," he added when she didn't move.

Eddie walked to the bed with her eyes on the floor and sat on the side of the bed "I'm sorry Reagan," she sniffed.

"Hey, what for," he said placing his hand on hers.

"I didn't back you up, I stood there like an idiot and let you get shot."

"Hey, look at me," he said softly.

Eddie turned and looked at him cursing herself as tears rolled down her face.

Jamie slid his hand onto her cheek and wiped it away but didn't remove his hand "Eddie," he said and caressed her cheek "it's not your fault okay, it happened so fast, I'm just so grateful you're okay."

"You're in here because of me," she muttered.

Jamie tugged her closer "I'm gonna say this once more, it wasn't your fault, stop beating yourself up about it."

Eddie stared at him for a minute, leaning in she kissed him softly and pulled back.

Jamie still had his hand on her cheek, staring back at her he slowly pulled her back to him and kissed her deeply.

Eddie pulled back and slid her hand into his "I shouldn't have done that, my emotions are all over the place."

"It's okay, who can resist," he teased "I knew you had a crush on me."

"I do not," she laughed "you're beginning to sound like your brother."

"Yeah, but I'm hotter," he smirked.

The next morning Jamie was released and given police protection, at the request of his father and the rest of his family he decided to take it to stop them worrying.

Eddie let them into his apartment and put his bag down "bed or sofa, you heard the doc, you have to take it easy."

"I'm gonna be so bored, wouldn't I be more use at the station behind a desk?"

"No one armed Jack, you have to rest, that's why I'm staying," she said shrugging off her coat.

"You don't have to, you've been with me all night."

"And all day yesterday," she sighed "someone wants to take out my partner they gotta go through me first."

"Eddie, really, I'll be fine," he said.

"Tough, I'm staying," she said and lay back on the sofa.

"Eddie," he groaned.

"I'm staying, I know you don't need a babysitter but I'm staying anyway, I wanna know for myself that you're okay."

Jamie scrubbed his hand over his face and sat beside her "pizza and a movie?"

"It's two in the day," she chuckled.

"This is New York city," he replied and picked up his phone.

A few hours later Jamie opened his eyes and sat up a little.

"Hey sleepy head," she chuckled from beside him.

"How long was I out?" he asked and sat up properly.

"Two hours maybe," she replied.

Jamie looked her up and down "is that my college hoodie and my sweats?"

"And your socks," she chuckled wiggling her toes "I got a shower, I hope you don't mind. I only had the clothes we went out in last night."

"I don't mind," he said and walked to the kitchen "those meds are knocking me out, I feel so drained."

"So sit down and sleep some more," she said following him to the kitchen.

"I can't I'll be awake all night," he yawned.

"Jamie, go get sleep before I kick your ass, I'm gonna be here all night so we can watch movies or something," she said.

"You don't have to stay," he said.

"I know, but I want to," she yawned.

"Looks like you're the one that needs sleep," he chuckled.

She waved him off "I'm fine," she said yawning.

Jamie walked to her and placed his hand on her shoulder "go into my bed and get some sleep, that's an order."

"Yes commissioner," she teased "maybe I'll grab an hour."

"Take more than that, I'll be on the sofa," he said and sat down.

Eddie watched him settle back onto the sofa "do you need anything before I go?"

"The only thing I need you to do for me is go get some sleep," he replied.

"Okay, okay, I'm going," she chuckled "call out if you need anything."

…

Turning on the tv he turned up the news as a picture of himself came up "Commissioners Reagan's son was shot off duty last night, in a downtown alleyway," the reporter said.

"An eye witness places him at the scene with an unknown female who he described as an escort or a call girl. So why was the Commissioners son, an N.Y.P.D officer down a seedy alleyway with a call girl? And was this a ploy to take out the Commissioners youngest? His office has yet to respond to these claims."

"Great," he sighed and turned it off "wait until Eddie hears they called her a hooker."

Standing up he walked to his window and looked down at the world going by, sighing he leaned against it and continued to watch everything go by.

Eddie walked out of his room and stopped when she saw him at the window "Jamie you shouldn't be by the window, come away."

"Stop telling me what to do," he said flatly.

"Jamie?" she frowned and stepped closer to him.

"I'm sorry," he said and turned to face her "I just can't take this anymore Eddie, I'm going crazy sitting here."

"It's only been a few hours."

"Exactly!" he yelled "and look at me! I'm going crazy I need to get out of here!" he said and stormed off to his room slamming the door behind him.

Eddie sighed and walked to the kitchen to get a glass of water, heading back to his room she pushed the door in and found him lying on the bed "I haven't gone to sleep yet," she said and climbed into the bed.

"Just leave me alone," he grumbled.

"Okay, you lie there feeling sorry for yourself and I'll sleep," she said and lay down.

Jamie looked over at her "hey Eddie?"

"What?" she mumbled.

"Why did you kiss me last night?" he asked.

Eddie sat up and looked over at him "you took my head off two minutes ago and now you wanna talk about that?"

"Yeah," he nodded "why did you kiss me?"

"You kissed me too, why did you?"

"I asked first."

Eddie chuckled and shook her head "because I was drunk and worried and afraid I was gonna lose you, I was so emotional because of the alcohol, I was acting crazy."

"Don't blame the alcohol," he laughed.

"Okay, you didn't have much why did you kiss me then?" she shot back.

Jamie shrugged "because I wanted to."

"Why?" she frowned.

"Because you wouldn't shut up whining," he said seriously

"Excuse me?" she snapped.

"You sitting there blubbering, feeling sorry for yourself because you screwed up and got so wasted you puked in a dirty alleyway."

Eddie lashed out and slapped him across the face "I know what you're trying to do but you're not getting an argument from me," she said and lay down facing away from him.

"Wow," he said rubbing his cheek "now I know why Peirce was so keen to get away from you-maybe the other guy too."

Eddie jumped out of the bed "you bastard," she whimpered "you are a lot of things Jamie, but mean is not one of them," she said and stormed out of the room.

A few hours later Jamie rubbed his eyes as he walked out of his room, seeing Eddie sitting by the window in a daze he walked up to her and sat beside her "I thought you left."

"Well I didn't, where's your sling?" she muttered and stood up "you're supposed to wear it all the time."

Jamie stood behind her "I couldn't sleep with it on, Eddie," he said placing his hand on her hip "I'm sorry about what I said a while ago. You were right, I was just looking for an argument and I deserved that slap-and probably a few more."

Eddie shrugged him off and moved away from him "I'm still mad at you."

"I'm sorry you know I'd never say stuff like that to you, I don't know what came over me."

Eddie grabbed her bag and slung it over her shoulder "well you did Reagan, it hurt and I am so pissed at you!" she yelled and stormed towards the door.

"Eddie, I don't want you out there by yourself!" he called after.

"It's not me they want," she replied and slammed the door behind her.

"Eddie!" he called after.

"Stay inside!" she yelled as she took the stairs.

Hearing someone talking to her he ran to look over the rail, seeing Danny and Maria he went back to his door.

"What's the matter with you?" Danny yelled as soon as he spotted him at the door "why are you outside?"

"Not in the mood Danny," he said and walked back inside "what do you want?"

"We're here to take you down to a line up, see if you can identify the guy that shot you," Maria said.

"Alright," he replied.

"What's up with you and Janko? Trouble in paradise?" Danny teased.

Jamie grabbed him by the collar and shoved him into the wall "I said I'm not in the mood Danny!"

"You better get your hands off me kid before I knock your teeth down your throat," Danny snarled.

"Okay, cool it," Maria said getting in between them "Jamie go get ready," she said and pushed him away.

"Unbelievable," Danny said watching him go "and here we are trying to help him."

"You're an idiot," she scoffed "you saw Janko, she was crying and pissed this was a big one."

"Alright, maybe I knew he looked pissed and wanted to mess with him."

"Idiot," she said again and walked to the door as Jamie appeared.

"What's going on with you two?" Danny asked.

"It doesn't matter," he muttered.

"She's crying and a mess, you're snapping of course it matters," Danny said as they walked down the stairs.

"I said horrible things to her, she slapped me I said a few more things, now she's not talking to me, the end," Jamie muttered.

"What you say?" Biaz asked.

Jamie sighed heavily "stuff about her break up."

"Doghouse for at least a week," Danny said.

Sunday morning Jamie tried calling her again with still no answer, he'd gotten Danny to check in on her to make sure she was okay. Her word to him were 'tell your brother to leave me alone or I'll slap a restraining order on him…he had really screwed up.

The line-up was a bust, he couldn't be sure, it was dark he was focused on Eddie behind him, he didn't really get a good look.

It was now Sunday afternoon; the family had been to mass and we're all at the family home for their weekly dinner. Jamie sat in the living room alone trying Eddie again and again, "Eddie, all I want is a chance to apologise-to your face, will you please call me back?" he asked and hung up.

"Jamie, dinner," Linda said from behind him.

"Yeah, coming," he sighed and put his phone away.

"Look at that mush," Henry chuckled.

"Not now grandpa," he muttered.

Danny made a face "that Janko is some woman, I escaped within an inch of my life, you screwed up kid."

"I know," he sighed.

"Janko?" Frank asked, "your partner?"

"Yeah," Jamie nodded "hopefully she still is when I go back."

"Is this the partner he's in love with?" Jack asked.

"What? no I'm not," Jamie said quickly.

"Dad told mom you were," Sean said.

"Okay, boys, that's enough," Linda said.

"What did you do Jamie?" Erin asked.

"I said some things I'm not proud of, let's just leave it at that," Jamie muttered.

"Have you tried apologising?" Nicky asked.

"No, why didn't I think of that?" he scoffed.

"Don't take it out on her," Frank said, "you got yourself into this mess."

"Maybe show her how sorry you are," Henry suggested.

"How? she won't answer my calls or messages, she won't answer her door."

"Her favourite flowers might be a start," Henry chuckled "and if that doesn't work you need to ambush her and take her for a fancy meal."

"Grandpa, she's my partner, not my girlfriend, I just upset her over something stupid," Jamie replied.

"Yeah right," Danny laughed "kid, I'm sick watching you two pretend to be friends, just get together already."

"Is this true? Do you have feelings for her?" Frank asked.

"Well I care about her yeah, she's my partner and my friend."

"Jamie, don't you think your feelings are more important than just being partners?" Erin asked, "I've seen you two together, there's a spark, so what if you get separated, you could end up marrying this girl."

"I meet her a few times I like her," Linda added.

"I like her too," Nicky added.

"Okay okay I get it, you're all team Janko but I value our partnership too much to mess with it."

"Follow your heart son, it won't be the end of the world if you get new partners," Frank said.

"But I love Eddie being my partner we know each other so well, I can't imagine not having her beside me every tour."

"Soulmates," Henry chuckled.

…

Monday morning had come and gone and Eddie still hadn't gotten in touch with him. Getting an idea he set off to make it happen…this is how he now stood outside his precinct with a big bunch of her favourite flowers.

"Officer Janko," he said when the phone was answered "Eddie, it's me, please don't hang up."

"I asked you to leave me alone, do you Reagan's ever give up?" she snapped.

"No, not on this, you won't return my calls, all I want is a chance to apologise properly, what else am I supposed to do?" he replied.

"Uh, leave me alone maybe," she scoffed.

"Look out the window," he said.

"Why?" she huffed and pulled back the blind "Jamie!" she gasped upon spotting him.

"Come down and talk to me or I come up there and embarrass the hell out of you."

"You wouldn't," she breathed.

"I will, I'll do whatever it takes for you to forgive me, I'll get down on my knees and beg if I have to."

"You're an idiot," she huffed and slammed the phone down.

A few minutes later Jamie still paced outside with no sign of Eddie. Sighing heavily, he sat on a nearby bench-he had really screwed up this time.

"You got my attention here I am," she said and dropped down beside him "you got two minutes, actually one, I'm desked because of you, I'm also partnerless."

Jamie placed the flowers on her lap "this is just a start, I'm so sorry about what I said I was angry at myself for putting myself in that position. I was warned a threat had been made on my life, I was offered protection and I turned it down. I put us both in danger-I put you in danger, Eddie if anything ever happened to you I don't know what I'd do."

"That's your excuse for saying what you said about my boyfriends?"

"No, I was out of line, I'm just trying to get out how I feel, those guys are idiots, anyone would kill to be with you. You're amazing and funny and kind and friendly, the guy that gets you is the luckiest guy in the world."

Eddie stood up "minute is up, get back home and get that sling on you."

"Wait, wait," he said standing up "come over to mine after work?"

"I have plans," she muttered-he was breaking her down.

"Please?" he asked with those puppy dog eyes she loved so much.

"Fine," she sighed "I'll be over at seven," she said and walked off.

Getting back to her floor she looked over as some called her "what?"

"This is not a green house," an officer said pointing to her desk "tell your boyfriend to send them to your house next time."

Eddie looked at her desk and smiled at the five bouquets of flowers on her desk, pulling out her phone she sent a quick message.

Jamie looked down at his message and smiled at her one-word reply 'dork'

Later that evening Eddie smiled at the officers on his door and let herself in "Reagan!" she called.

"Kitchen!" he called back.

Making her way to the kitchen she stopped in the door way "you humiliated me with all those flowers."

Jamie walked to her and held out his hands "sorry, but I had to," he said leading her towards the door.

"Where are we going?" she asked.

"You'll see," he smiled and led her out the door and up the stairs.

"Did you do all this for me?" she asked looking around.

"Yeah," he said and led her to the table that sat on the roof of his building "I made everything myself-all of your favourites."

Eddie laughed as he lifted a lid to reveal her all-time favourite, a bacon cheese burger "you didn't have to do all this but thank you."

"Yes I did, I just wanted to let you know how sorry I am and how much you mean to me."

Eddie placed her hand on his "you're so sweet, thank you."

"Does that mean you forgive me?" he asked with his best dimple smile.

"We'll see after the food," she replied and picked up the burger.

Jamie chuckled and picked up his own "but you did miss me today, right?"

"I missed you," she replied without looking at him.

Eating the rest of the food in silence Eddie placed her glass down and looked over at him "do anything exciting yesterday?"

"No, just thinking about you most of the day," he said without realising.

Eddie bit on her lip, he wasn't so great at hiding his feelings anymore "did you not spend the day with your family?"

"I did but I was too busy trying to work out how to fix things with you, you were talk of table," he chuckled.

"You guys talked about me?" she asked surprised.

"Yeah, Danny started it then everyone else chimed in, you know what they're like."

Eddie nodded "what were you talking about?"

"Uh, you and me," he said uncomfortably "they all think we're being idiots."

"Why?" she frowned.

"They think it's crazy we'd rather be partners than be together," he replied.

"We made that decision together, we both agreed it would get messy and neither of us wanted that," she said.

"I know," he nodded "but lately it feels like we're both just running away from it, we're not trying to be partners anymore, we're too busy trying to keep our feelings from showing."

"I didn't know you felt like that," she said.

"Don't you?" he asked.

"Kinda," she nodded "but I think if we try harder we'll get back on track."

"Why do we have to try?" he asked standing up "would it be so bad if were to be together and get new partners? Wouldn't you like to see where this could go?"

"Me and you?" she asked panicked.

"Yes Eddie," he said walking to her "I am crazy about you and I know you're crazy about me…what do you say?"

A/N first instalment, hope you all enjoyed it…wonder what Eddie will say hmm? See you next time, don't be afraid to leave a comment or review JJ.