Maybe I'll Catch Fire

I watched you when the fire fell like rain
My eyes deceived my heart and I filled with pain;
Please don't let this be real.
They say even hurt is better than not to feel
But just make me evil again
Let my eyes turn black and my heart go dead
And turn me rotten inside
Because you lied;
You lied again
And now I'm cold and can't believe that this is real.
I wanted to feel, but not this and not for you.
I told myself never again and I left this world behind,
But it followed you back to me
And the trees and the sun and the waters cool breeze
Were never meant for my skin.
I know the darkness I live in is all too black for you
And the past is far behind, but it is all still true
That the evil is at the surface again.
These scars on my skin are just one reason I can't pretend
That I could ever be anything more that a monster.

So let me out
Cause I've been broken down again
Let me out and let me swim into this agony
Until you can't recognize me
And this fear that resides in my eyes has burned dead
Let the fire rain on my soul and warn my skin of what the heat can bring
Cause I would rather be merciless than to live with this soul
And even if you are half my whole
I will let my heart rot before I give into you again
Cause after all this I can't pretend
That I could ever be anything more that a monster