Song for this chapter "Already Over" by "Red"
Prophase
You never go you're always here
(suffocating me)
Under my skin i cannot run away
Fading slowly
I'm standing in the middle of storm, I can feel the wind brushing through every part of my body, the rain is washing my face, that I can hardly open my eyes, I'm shuddering here and my teeth are shattering so hard, it feels like they're going to break.
"Go Back!" a once so familiar voice argued.
"Who's there?" I replied in my shaking voice, it felt like these nightmares when you scream so hard but no sound is coming out.
"Bella, please, please go back!" the beautiful voice which I became familiar with, whispered to me in a kind of a beautiful plead.
"Wouldn't you even give me your name?"
"You will know it my love, very soon MY LOVE!" the voice began to disappear till it became merely a whisper….
"Why am I so lost?…"
I closed my eyes as the storm began to fade , the hard wind became a barely breeze a beautiful perfumed breeze which you can not forget…"My Love" I couldn't get this beautiful soothing voice out of my head…
I give it all to you letting go of me
Reaching as i fall
I know it's already over now
Nothing left to lose loving you again
I know it's already over already over now
Then there was this really hard light focusing on my eyes, I squeezed my eyes and then forced them to open. .. the light was coming from way above me, when my eyes finally adjusted I could see that I was sleeping in my garden and the sun showing on my face, I must have fallen asleep while reading "Romeo And Juliet" wow what an influencing story.
I got up quickly and started running at the house, I had to prepare dinner for Charlie, then I would have some time to finish my school work, then maybe I could finish my piece of art for my upcoming presentation.
I know you might find it weird, but you know how authors can get attached with their fictional characters, well it is the same way with me, I dream about them , I get lost in their eyes and feel their passion from their voice, lately I've been involved with my mystery character "Anonymous" my final piece in the gallery. It all started a year ago.
But I always have nightmares when I think about this character, usually there is storm and every single time there is this beautiful soothing voice that just hunts you, but you just cant concentrate hard enough to picture the face of such "Anonymous"
For all I could gather was the eyes color, I've pictured it golden brown in which crystals where laid inside and melted with deep dark core. I usually felt lost picturing them, and I could hear his voice through them and smell the non forgettable perfume.
Dinner went on smoothly, Charlie usually enjoyed my cooking.
"So how was your day?" he asked me.
"It was nice, especially the weather!" ironic…"so, me and Alice are going shopping tomorrow" horror was echoing in my voice, well don't blame me because Alice plus a credit card plus mall equals complete madness! And I'm not even kidding.
"Well have fun with that!" he laughed at me , he knew I wasn't the shopaholic type of girl, after all I got that from him.
Dinner was over and after doing the dishes, I went up to my room.
There settled the incomplete drawing, only the gazing eyes are drawn,
"Who are you?" I sighed, "What are you?"
I felt a slight shiver down my back, like some one has put his hands on my back.
I closed my eyes and I felt a breathing beside me ,I could feel a mouth beside my ears, that slowly approaches and after a deep sigh says "You are not ready my love"
I looked back behind me so quickly that my vision was unclear for a second…
"Stop that!" I cried.. "You know what? What the heck?" I ran to the drawing and was going to tear it, when I felt a strong urge to stop what I was doing, I felt a fie rage in my chest, I felt my heart pacing quickening, my eyes were filled with tears until I stopped and then I fell to the ground…..
Flash backs came streaming to my head, I saw me standing on cliff and waves are wild below me, I hear a cry behind me "Go Back Bella" but I cant move, I have to do it, there is a piece lost inside me that I am seeking that is pulling me to the raging water. That was all it took.. I jumped, I was flying I could feel my heart pounding so loud, I could feel the adrenaline pulsate in my veins. I was free moreover I was getting near to him.
Then I hit the water, I belong down there deep in the ocean, my missing piece was down there. I felt comfortable .I closed my eyes.
I could hear his voice calling me "My Love, My Bella"…..then my lips moved "Edward"
I opened my eyes and it was midnight and I was sweating on the room of my floor, I said this word one more time "Edward"…
I felt my eyes fill with tears, "What is happening to me?"
You're all i'm reaching for
It's already over
All i'm reaching for
It's already over now
I give it all to you
I offer up my soul
It's already over already over now
Give it all to you letting go of me
Reaching as i fall
I know it's already over now
Nothing left to lose loving you again
I know it's already over now
It's already over now
I know it's already over already over