A/N: I was thinking and thought of this, I think the sum is quite bad but oh well I might change it soon, it's weird but we will see how the story go's. Tell me what you think about it?

Mostly Kyle's POV but may vary.

Rated M for many reasons-

Plus Hooklovski(Or KylexEveryone)/GenderBend!Kyle

Enjoy!

Kyle was always straight-A student one day he stop being an A, that's when Kyle fell into depression everything in Kyle's life took a turn for the worst.

7:00AM

I woke up this morning wanting to die….

I wished that I had died in my sleep I can't stand life.

I'm gay and my parents hate me for it. They think that their little chat helped me change my mind: when I grow up they want me to marry a nice Jewish girl not a man when I'm a man, 'Your a man Kyle...your supposed to date women not...not men'. But I can't help liking men I can't just switch over and start liking women again, if I was bisexual it would be a tad bit easier but I'm not, I'm gay and they can't accept that.

So they treat me like utter crap.

I finally got out of bed still considering life, I walked to the bathroom on the way I saw Ike he gave me a small sad smile I don't blame him he didn't mind me being gay but he had to witness the abuse and he told me he didn't like it.

"Morning," Ike whispered

"Morning Ike."

I open the door to the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror.

"What's the point of living?"

I splashed water on my face and did all the sanitary things and changed

into some clothes slipped on my shoes; my coat and hat, grabbed my bag and rushed down the stairs.

I ran out my house with a buttered bagel in my mouth I can't eat with my parents any-more(luckily my mum wasn't in the kitchen at the time). On the walk to school I finished my bagel, I wanted to skip the bus and just walk to school but that can't be the case, at this rate I'll be late.

I'm close to the bus stop but suddenly feel like I running away. Wondering why? Well I see my er what can I call them maybe ex-best friends yeah that's good. Well just to put it short they don't talk to me any more I don't know why though, I mean what did I do but I can't ask them they'll just ignore me or simply tell me to 'fuck off'.

But I just start walking towards them. No wait what am doing I don't want to get closer to them I want to get away from them, but my stupid legs are not listening to me has anyone but me experienced this or am I just going mad.

As I walk behind to them to get to the end they stare at me. Oh Jesus.

"What the fuck is he doing here?" Cartman whispered to Stan and Kenny.

"Ask him ya fat lard I don't fuckin' know why he's here," Kenny whispered angrily.

"Okay okay I'll ask him he's just fucking standing there like an idiot," Stan leaned back up as the two others did.

"The fuck are you doing here?" Stan said with a raised brow the two others turned to face me with very um serious, dirty, mean faces.

"Um waiting for the bus," I mumbled. Why the fuck are they talking to me? And I mumbled because I don't want them to hear me I don't want to talk to them they just make these stupid jokes about me and it just irks me so why bother.

"What was that eh?" Kenny put a cupped hand over his ear.

"Fuck you bitch, you can hear me shithead," I said that louder. I hate them all just let me be, just let me live I don't even know what did.

They turned their bodies to face me they had these mean faces and it was quite err ...intimidating… yeah, you know since their much taller than me.

So I looked at them with the same look I even get to height well I tried. To show that I'm not to be fucked with.

"So you think your that strong to face us Kyle" Stan said.

"Wait you know what lets not even waste our time on this Jew rat," Eric sneered.

"Yeah the bus is coming now about time," Kenny said with a roll of the eyes.

Finally I just want to get to school, the bus comes and the three of them went into the bus then after I did. My seat on the bus is the back because no one could talk about me behind my back, but I don't really care to be honest people talk shit all the time.

But this time I sat in an empty seat towards the back since no one was sitting there, I moved into the seat and looked out the window.

I felt someone sit next to me.

Why? Just leave me alone.

"-Ngh-"

I didn't even turn to see who it was, it was obviously Tweek, why is he sitting next to me? Usually it's nobody, most of the time he sits next to Craig, Butters, Clyde or Token.

But lately he's been a bit quiet….Okay since I don't talk to anyone I just watch them, it's bit strange no very strange, I mean I like see how people act and what their body structure says about them. I really like sociology, hey, maybe that could be my job when I'm older.

As I started thinking about the future these voices started to storm my head they were bad voices and it was scary I couldn't think straight.

"H-hey K-kyle are you ngh okay?" Tweek asked concernedly.

I didn't notice but my hands were on my head, "Huh oh i-I'm fine," I whispered.

Wait why is he talking to me?

"Why are talking to me Tweek?" I asked.

"Err ngh what's wrong with that I can talk to you right? No one watching us right? gah," Tweek got up turned his head frantically checking if anyone was looking at us and everyone was looking at us.

"WHATTT?!" Tweek shouted.

"Jesus Tweek, why the fuck are you talking Kyle?" said Clyde, with some disgust when he said my name. Do I have like a disease or something I mean I am diabetic and what you can't catch that.

"I can talk to who ever I want you piece of SHIT!" He shouted again.

Everyone looked away and started murmuring.

I tried to smile "Wow Tweek er thanks or something"

"H-hey it's okay those g-guys are assholes," Tweek smiled back crookedly.

I got off the bus with Tweek and we went to our lockers.

I went into form class and went to my desk seeing it occupied by Stan what the fuck? My Lord could this day get any more worst.

I frowned "Excuse me this my desk."

"Nope it's my now desk your desk is over there," He pointed to the far corner of the room.

I walked over to the desk and sat down. When I looked down at desk there was a bunch of writing there was words like 'fag' 'JEW RAT' 'prick' 'kys' 'ugly' 'diseased rat' 'cocksucker' 'ginger bitch' and others they were spattered all over the desk.

I looked up and saw the whole class looking at me they were stifling laughs and smiling. Tweek was the only one who wasn't smiling or laughing he just looked angry at everyone.

I got out of my chair picked up my bag and stormed out the class.

I heard my name being called it sound like Tweek but I just ignored him and ran out of the school.

Tweek ran out of the school too and went up to me.

"K-kyle are you a-alright, I'm so sorry," Tweek said sadly. He said sorry even though he didn't do anything.

"No...I'm not alright," I ran away from him.

"Kyle p-please wait."

I ran into the forest making sure Tweek didn't follow me and got to Starks pond.

The water should be cold, I placed one finger into the water and the water rippled against my finger. Very cold good I thought.

My bag slipped off my shoulder onto the frozen grass.

I stood in front of the water and said nothing was there really anything to say, suddenly my mind was flushed with memories but none of that matters now.

I fell into the water it was freezing cold, I slowly closed my eyes and let myself go.

I ran towards the forest I'm pretty sure that's where he went maybe to Starks pond.

"Ok now where is he."

I spotted his bag and walked towards it, I looked down into water and saw something green it was hat. Oh myGod.

I put my hands into the water and pulled him out the water it was freezing.

"K-kyle."

I pulled him out and his face was was frozen and blue, I was so scared.

"Kyle wake up dude," I started patting his face and pressing on his chest.

"No, no Kyle please," I started crying this can't be happening, I place my fingers over his neck nothing then I put my hands over his heart, it wasn't beating.

"No you can't be dead come on Kyle," I kept pressing down on his heart.

What do I do? I mean I have to call the ambulance or the school if I called the school it maybe a bit stupid but they need to know where we are I'm panicking.

"SOMEONE HELP ME!"

Back at the class….

"Okay everyone's here," the teacher looked around the class and spotted two empty seats.

"Oh err where's Tweek and Kyle?" The teacher asked the class.

"I don't know," Stan said uninterested.

"Oh er Kyle ran out the class and Tweek went after him," Butters said.

"Butters what the fuck?" Clyde said angrily.

"Dammit Butters," Cartman scowled.

"…..Okay now did they leave the school or what."

Butters put a finger on his lips "I think so."

"Oh Butters," Stan shook his head.

"What. They might be in trouble," Butters drawled.

"I doubt it," Wendy rolled her eyes.

Butters phone started ringing, Butters took his phone out his pocket and looked at the ringer.

"Hey it's Kyle."

"Answer it will you," The teacher said.

Butters answered the call and put it on speaker.

"Hiya Kyle!"

"Ngh Butters help I n-need help," Tweek said slowly.

"Tweek er is Kyle okay, are you okay you sound like you've been crying," Butters frowned.

"NO! KYLE ISN'T OKAY HE'SDEAD AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO," Tweek shouted into the speaker.

"What!" The teacher shouted.

"He must be joking," Craig scoffed in disbelief.

"Tweek w-where are you?" Butter asked worriedly.

"You don't believe me come see him yourselves we're in Starks pond," Tweek choked on some sobs.

Tweek ended the call before Butters could say anything else.

"We should call the ambulance," Butters said with fear.

"Kyle's dead," Stan gulped and then ran out of the classroom.

"Hey Stan wait!" Kenny ran after Stan.

"Butters call 999 then," Token said.

"O-okay."

"Come on Kenny," Stan said whilst running.

They were close, Kenny spotted Tweek

"Wait is that Tweek?" Kenny narrowed his eyes.

"Hey….Tweek," Stan and Kenny walked slowly towards Tweek.

"ARGHH!" Tweek shouted when Stan touched him.

Kenny kneeled down to Tweek' level and looked down at Kyle's pale face.

"K-kyle," Kenny place his hand on his chest hoping for a beat.

Stan went and kneeled down in front of Tweek, he was holding Kyle in his arms.

Stan gulped "No."

"I was too late I could have saved him it's my fault," Tweet shook his head and closed his eyes.

"No it's our fault we did this," Stan voice cracked.

"It should've been us," Kenny closed his eyes.

I opened my eyes and looked up and saw white clouds

Then nothing….

My eyes closed without me knowing and I felt like I was falling.

I tried opening again but… I couldn't.

After a while of the feeling of falling left and I could open my eyes again.

I looked around seeing nothing but darkness until I saw a red light next to me it was my alarm clock the numbers gleaming 5:35.

What in the living fuck?

I'm supposed to be dead.

But I'm here lying in my bed.

A/N: So yay that's the first chapter. Don't forget to review tell me what you think it makes me want to carry on :)

Do you think the ending is a cliffhanger?

Like why is Kyle in his bed Oooo.

Last time I'm changing my name changed it like twice.