Fighting for Forever
I don't know when
or how
you crept slowly
in to my life
all I know
is you are everywhere
in every hour of my day
in a second or two
a thought of you
and I seem to get lost
so easily in your smile
or within a small memory
of how your voice sounds like
when you are happy
I don't know how
or why
but I miss you
I miss you all the time.
I fell in love with Brian Cassidy the way winter changes into spring; slowly, yet beautifully. When I was with him I felt like a snowflake, drifting through a magic world, free. He showed me what it looked like to fight for love. To fight for forever.
"You ready honey?", I heard Brians silky voice float up the stairs and into a room where I was pulling a purple suitcase off a newly made bed.
He met me at the top of the stairs before I could tell him that I was. He grabbed the suitcase with his right hand, and took my hand with his other. I smilied, how could this day possibly get any better.
We were heading to the mountains for a getaway weekend together before we both had to return to work that Monday.
He already had the car loaded, and he opened the door on the passenger side for me to get in.
"Let's do this.", I said before leaning over to kiss his smooth lips.
He kept my hand in his while we drove, squeezing it every once in a while just to make me smile. It was about a 4 hour drive, but with him, I would drive to the ends of the Earth. He always knew how to make every moment beautiful.
I turned my head to glance out the window, we were on a secluded road, I hadn't seen another car yet. The snow that fell from the sky in soft flurries reminded me that it was January, the most beautiful time of the year according to Brian.
Far up ahead on the road I noticed a red car, the first one I'd seen all day. It seemed to be in a hurry. I relaxed knowing that we weren't in that kind of a hustle. My eyes grew tired and he must've noticed because he squeezed my hand once again and told me "You can sleep if you want to, we still have awhile to go."
I nodded, I didn't want to sleep, mostly because I didn't want to leave Brian alone to drive. But my eyes had other plans.
When I woke up some time later the snow was still falling. Seemingly harder and faster than before. Brian looked over at me and kissed my cheek.
"Did you sleep well sweetheart?", he asked. I replied with a smile and a quick kiss on the lips.
I glanced out the window again, the weather was getting worse and I worried about the conditions of the roads. Every once in awhile when we'd turn a winding corner I felt the tires slip slightly. I knew Brian was careful, so I tried not to worry.
"We only have about thirty more minutes before we should be there.", he did his best to comfort me. I tried to take my mind off the weather by turning up the radio that had been quietly playing in the background since we left.
I smiled, one of our favorite songs began playing...
Rhiannon rings like a bell through the night.
We sand along together until it began to fade out, he kissed the top of my hand that still rested in his. And in that moment I couldn't wish for anything more.
I saw it before he did.
I had to have seen it before he did.
Why didn't he see it.
Red.
Metal.
It.
Happened.
So.
Fast.
We were slipping.
We were sliding.
And then.
It all came to a sudden stop.
"BRIAN!"