This is EdEnvy fic with angst, romance, sweet moment and maybe yaoi if you want. First you need to know that if you don't like my style to write then stop reading if it bothers you because I am not going to change. Two I am sorry if I don't write literally and verbatimly something right. Three review if you like this and want me to continue because I am not doing it other wise.

Story simply: Envy gets in to accident and Ed founds him and takes care on him.

Even demons moan.

Chapter 1.

Have you ever think, I mean, Really think about life? I have. Actually I think my life almost every day and I almost never see any point on it. What we do here? Someone who I hate would answer for me "We live.". I know that, you idiot!... But I don't know why… I mean… No body don't probably.

You are maybe now thinking why someone like me is thinking so deep thoughts. Hell they say that I am monster. And I love it when they say it with fear in their voice… But it still doesn't mean that you would be brain dead if peoples say that you are.

It's actually little sad. No I am not going to get sweet and start cry because meaningless words of other peoples. Yes I have been, and still am a little, what all others are now for me. A prey. I still remember almost every thing what those fucking bastards did for me and I also remember even more clearly what I did for them when I was stronger than them. Ou that was a good day.

So much different kind of what I am going through now. Guess where I am. No am not in headmasters office. No am not home either. No I am not drunk and stripping even if I didn't mind to. They all love my body anyways.

They love my long tight muscles what are usually under dark clothes, my long dark green hair what ends on my hip and what is so soft that all girls just keep asking what kind of shampoo I use, my bright amethyst eyes what they say are so beautiful and hypnotic that I look like a siren and of course they like all other things on me. I mean those who are not my preys because those guys don't like anything about me and that's why I keep talking and being with them.

You yeah sorry forgot to tell you where I am. Well I am on the schools Christmas celebration and I am going to sleep any minute because this has already been going too long and when I mean long I mean over that time what my teacher said that it would last. He lied to me again. Yeah he is always lying for me to make me and this time I understand why he did. I wouldn't have come to here at all if I would know that this "party" was going to be this long. Actually I tried to stay home but my big sister got a call for my "dear" teacher that if I wouldn't come to here freely he would come and take me to here. You can cues that my sister didn't want that. Why? Because she has troubles that my madly mind wont understand.

I sighed long and hard closing my eyes slowly.

"Envy… Envy don't fall a sleep please. You will be in trouble if the teacher sees you like that…"

I looked at my classmate eyes at my own and saw her gulping and blushing so little that I am sure nobody else would ever notice. I smiled and she blushes a little more.

"I don't fall a sleep my dear. Don't worry…" I whispered so quietly that she had to half read my lips what I said to her. Yes she can do that.

I smiled little more when she turned her eyes and twisting lips away. I don't know why she doesn't want to smile for me but then again it's not my problem. Of course it's nice when I say something what is making girls smile and sometimes boys too but even if I am bi I like girls more. I think…

It's actually rather hard to decide do I like girls more than boys. I have dated both, kiss both but that important part was still missing. Sex.

"Envy…"

I heard her but I didn't want to hear so I just didn't say anything. I have now important thoughts inside my mind and that was sex.

I have gone far always when I have got the change but something is always stopping thing to get that level. My sister says that God is not going to let me get laid before I get that right person. Bull shit. He just doesn't want me to be happy that way but I am not ever going to give up. I wan to feel skin…

"Envy…"

Shut up. I want to be near someone even if only inside my mind. I want to picture our schools hottest guys and girls all around me.

"Envy snap out now in your day dreams and get your hands of on me."

I stopped moving and even breathing. I opened my eyes and looked at that face what now definitely didn't smile and then I turned my eyes to look where my had were and I found it on her thigh.

"Sorry."

She didn't say anything and I just take my hand of on her and turned my now little blushing cheeks toward there where they should have been all these hours and that was where speakers stand.

This wasn't my one of my best days.

"I hope that this vacation is not going to destroy your studying and you keep your spirit high."

Envy blinked. Have I survived? Have they ended torturing us and let us go to there where we want to go?

Envy looked carefully around and saw students smile in that kind of smile what only others student saw clearly. They were hungry for freedom.

Envy's lips started twist and he laughed out laud when teachers at last said those priceless words.

"I hope you enjoy your vacation."

Faster that most of students Envy jumped up on his seat and then made quickly army honour to his teacher when he ran past him.

I am free! He laughed inside his mind and little out loud too when he ran through schools yard to his motorcycle what he immediately started after he turned one last time for couple of weeks to look how other students ran laughing out from that big red brick building what was now all around white.

"I love winter." I whispered when my motorcycle started to move just the way I liked. Fast. I can't ever get enough for speed and if I would decide for my own fate I would always be going somewhere and do something what is not easy. Yeah I like danger just as much as speed and that's why I never don't stop when polices start to chase me like now.

My smile turned to grin and my adrenaline started to get a hold of me. The though that my sister would get really mad at me like those polices make me shiver but the though that I could end up in jail was that what make me flip over the edge and start really speed up. I even turned to look that car what now started to whine like a spoiled girl who had got mud at her brand new shoes. Damn I hate those girls and women…

I could almost hear them curse me under their breath for spoiling their day but then again when I though about it I can't be the first one who they are chasing today. I can't be. I mean this city is full of frantic peoples.

I laughed when I heard those polices speak for their loud speaker.

"Slow down and retreat to side!"

As if. I only speeded up more toward that place where I know I would be safe for some time and where I was going anyway.

"I repeat. Slow down and retreat to other side of the road!"

"No way in hell!" I yelled even if I know that they wouldn't never in any change hear me and laughed when adrenaline filled my veins and muscles and let my thoughts fade away somewhere.

This was perfect way to start vacation and especially Christmas vacation because it was so short. I want to always take all off my free time so that I can really say that I enjoy life sometimes. There is no point just sitting in the garden and burning your skin in the sun. That's my opinion.

"I will repeat one last time! Slow down and retreat to the other side of the road!"

Why do you even try? I am not going to obey with you. I rarely obey with anyone. I know that I make my blood seems dark but when I am nice no body never listens to me. I have learned my lessons even if someone else would say them trials. It doesn't matter for me what peoples who are not close to me say about me usually but when they say something about my sister I snap.

I looked quickly behind me and saw them coming closer and then I looked where I would be best to go. Luckily I have luck today as well. No. I wouldn't say this is luck really. Just something what happens for me now days quit often.

I quickly made my motorcycle swing on the left just when old highway started leaving polices behind me for now but I know them and their car so they will catch me up if I don't disappear and believe me it's not that hard.

I drive little while in good speed and turning many times somewhere smaller and older highroad before I stopped in front of old and almost completely in snow buried house smiling. This house was like a nest of hollows and it was my favorite hiding place.

After turning lights off I started to drag my motorcycle as fast as I could to behind of the house where I opened this old door just so little that I could hide my treasure there. Then I took my backpack under the seat and a lock and placed it on the closed door. I know what you are thinking. Because this house is old it doesn't mean that it's all rotten up. No, no it's not because I have made sure it's not going to collapse.

Sighing with joy I turned around and started to walk in the forest snow making sweet sounds under my black boots thinking how beautiful nature was and how hose polices would have to go back to city when they notice that the road here is too narrow for their car.

"Life maybe is pointless but it still doesn't mean that it wouldn't be fun." I said quietly to myself and then walked silently forward so long that my fingers started to feel the cold air again through my leather gloves. Usually I only feel cold when I am driving really fast so it must mean that I have walked more than I think that I have. Should I go back?

I stopped and massaged my hand together so that they would warm up a little and then it caught my eyes. That beautiful frozen lake middle of those sleeping trees. First I didn't even noticed that my legs started to move again but when I did I started to ran.

I don't remember when I would have seen something like this before. So pure and silent and so peaceful. I looked at it like a child on mothers cookies. It was so big. Bigger than I noticed first and there was something else too. Someone was other side of it sitting on the ice.

I blinked. He just sat there. What was he doing.

"Helou!" I shouted and saw him jump and then look at me for a second before he started to wave his hand. I smiled and waved back. Curiosity was taking over me. What was he doing there really? Sure lots of peoples liked to sit on the snow put if I saw right he even had little stool under his put.

I looked again around and then decided it. I wanted to go and speak with that guy. He seemed friendly.

Carefully I placed my foot on the ice and when I noticed that it didn't even crack I placed my other leg it too and started to walk first carefully but then more faster toward that guy who was again just sitting there not moving.

"What are you doing?" I asked so laud that he had to hear me and he did but when he turned to look at me I didn't see him.

There was only a loud crack and then the world was even colder than it was before and even colder than it has ever been.

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For those who didn't understand for some reason: The ice broke under Envy and he fall under the icy water.