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Phils POV

I heard the sound of rain on the rooftop. I was sitting on the couch, waiting for Dan to come home from his date. A shiver went down my spine while realizing Dan is on a date. With a girl. I've had some feelings for him from the moment I met him. I could never quite place those feelings, so I labeled it as a little crush. This was already hard for me, because I've never had feelings towards a boy. Well, maybe, sometimes. But back then it was even worse for me to admit I was gay. I was raised in a very religious family, and even though I turned my back on them, I still cared about what they think of me. I live on my own now. Well, together with my very best friend Dan. Daniel Howell, the beautiful. The straight. I couldn't help but love his chocolate brown eyes, that light up whenever he smiles. I loved his smile. His dimples, which occur whenever he laughs, or smiles. I didn't like these feelings at all. The longer I knew him, the more I cared about him. The more he means to me. The more I love him.

I didn't want to love him. I was not allowed to. Once, I'll just marry a women, and I'll have kids like everybody else. I just want to be normal. Maybe I'll even marry a man. That's not what I hope, but come on. Who am I kidding? But no matter who I'll marry, it won't be Dan. Because Dan is straight, and he's out with a girl. It was a blind date, so I had a little bit of hope left that it wouldn't turn out well. I felt bad about thinking this. He deserves love, just like anybody else. And preferably mine.

I felt tears burning in my eyes when Dan came in. It tried to smile, to hide my feelings for him. But it got harder every day. 'Hi Dan!' I said, hiding my tears. I thought it went well, that he couldn't have heard the weakness in my voice. But I was wrong. He raised his eyebrows as he looked at me. He closed the door, and while he took of his jacket, he asked: 'Are you okay?'. I wanted to scream and cry, saying I loved him and I was not okay. But I didn't love him, it was just a little crush. I could be such a drama-queen sometimes. 'Yeah, I'm fine.' I answered. He sat down next to me. 'You don't look okay, though,' he said. 'Do you need anything? Were you worried?' he said, and he looked at his watch. 'I'm sorry, I didn't realize it was midnight already. She just didn't want to end our date and I didn't know how to shut her up.' I smiled. 'So there won't be a second date?' I asked. 'No, certainly not. I hope she realized how annoying she was. Chris gave her my number, what was he thinking. She was terrible, but what if she calls me for another date?' he smiled, but I could tell he was worried. 'Phil, can you please stop crying now? It hurts.'. I felt really good as he said that. He cared about me. He could never care about me the way I cared about him, but it was comforting to hear. 'Yeah, I'm sorry.' 'You still didn't tell me why you cried. Tell me.' I felt shocked. How could I tell him? Should I tell him? I wanted to, but knew I couldn't. 'My thumb hurts.' was all I managed to say. Really, Phil? Your thumb hurts? Couldn't you at least make up a good excuse? I felt embarrassed. 'Do I need to kiss it better?' he asked. I blushed. Was he flirting with me? No, of course not. It's just a joke. 'Yes please.' I said. He smiled as he took my hand and kissed my thumb. He closed his eyes for a second. It was a long kiss. It was cute. 'Well, I need to catch some sleep. See you tomorrow, Phil.' he said. He softly touched my hand and he smiled. He left me in confusion, with burning cheeks. I hoped he couldn't tell how much I loved it.

Dan's POV

I blushed as I went into my room. The date wasn't that bad, though. We just couldn't be together anyway. I have never really felt attracted to girls. Not to boys either. Well,
maybe. I feel like I start to act differently around Phil. I have never really connected that with love. How could I? Is there any possibility Phil and I are more then friends? I mean, we're really close. We hug sometimes. Not just in hard times, but if one of us leaves, we hug. And if we're alone, we are much closer than with other people around. It's like we both realize it's not completely normal to be as close as we are. There is a certain tension between us, which I can not understand quite yet. I wonder if he feels it too. Maybe it's just my imagination, maybe not. Only time can answer. I think about the scenario of last minute. What happened? I was just messing around when I asked if he needed a kiss. But he wanted it anyway. And it felt so good. I didn't know what happened, for some reason I couldn't stop. Could he tell how much I enjoyed it? Could I tell how much I enjoyed it? I was confused. It was like I just told myself I'm in love with him, which I'm not, of course. I didn't enjoy it, it was just... different. Don't all best friends have this? I know that girls always hug each other, and hold hands in public. But girls are different from guys, aren't they? Isn't it weird if two guys like to cuddle on the couch during Kill Bill? Aren't we supposed to punch each other and drink a beer together? Is this just our type of friendship, or is it more? I didn't know. Maybe I wasn't supposed to know either. Maybe I should just leave it this way, and wait for time to give an answer. No, what was I thinking? I didn't need an answer. It was nothing. It's probably just because we share a flat. And we have known each other for a long time. It's nothing. I close my eyes and wait for sleep to come and drag me with it.

The smell of burnt food woke me up. I checked my watch to see it was only 8 AM. I heard footsteps around the living room. I realized Phil was awake and I decided to go and take a look. I turned around, tired. I actually wanted to close my eyes again, but at the same time I wondered what Phil was doing. I stood up and yawned. I looked in the mirror. I could clearly see my hobbit hair, and I wasn't wearing a shirt either. Even though Phil has seen me like this many times before, I didn't feel comfortable entering the living room in my boxers. I wanted to put on some clothes, but I couldn't find a shirt. I entered the living room in my pajama pants.

Phils POV

I was a disaster. I wanted to bake pancakes. American pancakes, since Dan loved those more than anything in the world. But it didn't work out. The pancakes were burnt, and there was pancake mix everywhere. I felt embarrassed. I sucked at cooking. I always did. Why did I think I would be able to bake pancakes? I just wanted to surprise Dan. But why? My thoughts were interrupted by the loud laugh of Dan. 'What are you doing? You look so stupid!' I blushed and smiled. 'I know. I just wanted to apologize for my behavior from yesterday. And I know how much you love pancakes. So I wanted to surprise you, but-' my sentence was interrupted by Dan's. 'But you suck.' he said. I smiled. 'Pretty much.' it was him who smiled this time. He stood next to me and put his hand on my waist. 'It's okay. Thank you.' he whispered. What was he doing? I was so confused. Did he like me or not? I blushed. He looks really cute. I like him being shirtless, and I love his hobbit hair. Like I told him many times before. Why does he even straighten his gorgeous hair? 'You look cute.' I said. What did I say? Why did I say that? What gave me the strength to say it anyway? What would he say? He smiled. 'Thank you.' he said and he stroked my arm. What was happening? I blushed again. 'Dan?' I said. 'What's up?' his voice sounded really cute, and caring. 'I-I.. I think I love you, Dan.'

**NOTE** Cliffhanger! I'm so sorry. This isn't going to be a oneshot, I promise. I will update it as soon as I receive some reviews. I don't want to be writing without anyone reading it. If you review soon, I promise I will update it 1 or 2 more times today. I love writing this! Thank you for reading, there are many more chapters to follow! Feel free to correct my English, or if there is any other criticism you want to give, please do. I'd love to respond to your reviews, but you need an account for that! So sign up if you don't have one yet! I do not own Dan or Phil, obviously. It would be great if I did :D. No, just kidding. I love both, and YES I ship them. Please also check out OneSmoshyPhanGirl, she writes really good (Phan)fictions as well. I also love sunglasseslad0800, she wrote a long Phanfiction and is still working on the sequel. She's amazing! I am very active, so I will respond to PM's and reviews really soon. It would mean the world to me if you follow the story! Thank you! 3