A/N: I don't own these characters. That should be obvious. Also, this is a collaborative work, so I won't be taking all the credit. This story also jumps around point of view wise. Whose point of view it is will be at the top of each chapter.
Waking Up-Bella
I was in the woods. I knew it from the light: soft and green, like it was on sunny days. I began walking forward; I knew where I was headed. Suddenly, our meadow appeared in front of me. Yet as I approached it, the meadow changed. The light was no longer soft and green, but harsh, gray, and cold. The grass that was once springy and emerald lay dead and brown. The trees were barren and no life could be seen at all. I caught something out of the corner of my eye and faced it. I thought it was Edward, but as they came closer, I realized that Edward no longer invaded my dreams.
"Jasper?" I called out in the dream, "What happened here? Why is everything dead?" My voiced echoed across the empty meadow. I suddenly felt someone shaking me awake.
"Edward?" my voice was stuck in my throat with sleep.
"Bella, you were talking in your sleep. What were you dreaming about? You were talking about Jasper..." Edward's voiced trailed off. I knew I was hurting him by staying with him, and I couldn't do that to him.
"Edward...I have to say something. This is the first night I let you stay in a long while." I was floundering. I knew I had to say it. I just couldn't hurt Edward like that. He'd meant everything to me only a month ago; now what was I doing? "I've been having these dreams. They're just dreams, but I know they really mean something. Ever since I agreed to marry you, I've been having them. They start off with me in the woods, not far from our meadow. As soon as I reach the meadow, everything changes. The meadow is lifeless. Everything around it is lifeless. I look around, and then I see Jasper, and everything he touches comes back to life." That was all I had right now; I never got the chance to see the end.
"Bella, why didn't you tell me about these dreams?" Edward sounded a little angry, but sounded more impatient. "We both know what they mean. I know there's something you need to tell me. Other than the dreams
I was shocked. I couldn't believe he knew already. Then again, thinking about whom I was dealing with made it seem a little more believable. I took a deep breath. I had to do this. It was now or never.
"We can't go on with this. I know how you feel about me. I know how much this is going to hurt you. Please, please, don't be mad at me. But I think that." I couldn't go on.
"You think what?" His velvet voice was gentle; I knew he wanted me to tell him.
"I think that I am f-falling in love with...someone else." I couldn't tell him it was Jasper. Although, he probably knew that by now.
"Who is this 'someone else'?" His voice was no longer gentle. He sounded pained. Like he was restraining everything he was feeling.
Edward had gotten off the bed, and was pacing on the floor in front of it. I could see how badly I was hurting him. I didn't want to tell him who the other person was. I wanted to say it was someone "healthy" for me. Like Mike Newton. He had always hoped I would turn to Mike. I could hardly bring myself to speak, but I eventually got the word I need to say out.
"Jasper." I squeaked, "Please, please don't be angry with me. I love you. I always will love you...I'm just not IN love with you." I knew that was the worst thing to say right then. I knew that was the worst thing to say ever. Renee had used a similar line on Charlie. Just before she walked out.